It's Not Exactly A Metaphor...

                                    

                                          
~ My POV ~
                          
I fall onto my bed in a dramatic heap, after a particularly stressful day of school. To be fair, I was stupid to have liked him in the first place, I had no chance with him from the beginning. I reach for my ipad, and remove my face from my pillows so that I can view my screen. I go straight to youtube, as I have done everyday for about a month now, and re-watch some older JackSepticEye videos, feeling myself drift away into a blissful, reassuring state of mind, because I know Jack's there for me. 
                          
At 11pm, I realise I havent gone off youtube since I got home from school, so I should probably do that. I go to facebook, to like the memes my friends tagged me in, and see if there are any ridiculously stupid videos that are gonna piss me off. I start watching a clip from a super old show I used to watch when I was younger, Tracy Beaker, when my ipad suddenly freezes, and the screen goes black. Oh for fuck sake, not this again! I swear, my iPad is fucking broken, it always does this shit! I click the home button twice to bring up my open apps, and quickly close them all, my iPad then automatically sends me to my home screen, where I am greeted by a collage I made myself of some of my favourite pictures of Kellin. I stare at his face quizzically. It's been a while since I've focussed on his face, the features of it, the shape of his eyes, the colour of them, the way his eyes crinkle when he smiles or laughs. Without meaning to, I find myself smiling. Lately, when a sws song has come on shuffle when I listen to music, I havent been skipping it like I usually do (because they havent released an actual new, original song in a very long time, and I've learnt every word to every song they've ever done as a band, including every different variation of each song), which is something quite strange that I havent noticed. I raise an eyebrow, confused by my own actions. My eyes widen as a thought suddenly enters my head.
I havent written any imagines recently.
More importantly, I've been ignoring every request to update my Kellin imagines.
Why? 
I focus on my home screen again, hoping that Kellin will somehow help me out here. It's been so long since I've been in my imagine writing zone, holy fuck, is everything ok back there!?! With a gasp, I set my iPad aside, sit up against my headboard, and close my eyes. 
                          
My eyes snap open, and I instantly feel cold. Im lying in the middle of the road. It's dark, and it's raining. My eyes lock onto the pile of rubble that I appear to have been pulled away from, and I feel dizzy with worry. The last time I was here, I was knocked unconscious because Kellin and Sean got into a fight, and left me to hold myself up, which I couldnt do alone. I have not been here since. I sit up and pull my knees close to my chest. I look around frantically, and see no one. I am completely alone.
I start crying into my knees, hating myself for letting this happen. Angry at myself for becoming so focussed on a stupid boy that I completely abandoned my own passions to try and make him fall for me. Im such a fucking idiot. 
"H-Heather? HEATHER!" I hear a voice call from the distance, before I hear hurried footsteps, heading towards me.
A pair of arms wrap around me, and I feel comforted by the smell of his cologne. It's him. 
"Kellin, oh god, Im s-so sorry!" I cry as I turn to face him, and curl into him.
His arms tighten around me as he sits himself down on the ground, to cradle me in his lap and rock me back and forth, while placing kisses on the top of my head "Shh, shh, it's alright, Im just overjoyed that you're ok! We were so worried about you, we thought you were never going to wake up! We've missed you, I've missed you."
I nod into his chest "I-I know, and Im s-so sorry, I was stupid, I fucked up, and I-I promise to never do that again."
Kellin laughs slightly "It's ok doll, really, you're back now, that's all that matters to me."
I shake my head "N-No, that's not what I mean."
He pulls away from me slightly to furrow his eyebrows and read my expression "What are you talking about?"
I sniffle and wipe my eyes "I-I've been such a terrible friend to you, I-I've completely abandoned you, a-and not just because I stopped writing for a while, b-but because I ignored you and convinced myself I-I was ok without you. I wasnt, I never was, not for one minute. I needed you, I-I just got so used to having you by my side that I thought I needed something else, when in fact the thing I need was r-right here, waiting for me."
Kellin's eyes fill with tears, and he smiles, as his chin begins to wobble "D-Do you really mean that?"
I nod "More than anything in the world."
He pulls me back into his arms, holding me tightly and sniffling into my hair "I love you, s-so fucking much. Just remember that, whether you write about me or not, you will always be my babygirl."
I giggle "Of course Kels, of course!" I pull away from him and gasp "Where's Sean!?!"
Kellin smiles slightly "He's on the other side of that pile of rubble, trying to stack it all back up in the hopes that it'll make you wake up."
I stand up "C'mon, let's go surprise him!"
Kellin jumps up to stand beside me "I like the sound of that!" He winks.
I grab his hand, and drag him over to the pile of rubble that had previously knocked me unconscious. We run around it, and spot Sean, on his hands and knees, frantically pulling at the cement fragments and attempting to out them back together and re-stack them, while having to repeatedly wipe his eyes, because he cant stop crying.
"Hey Jackaboy, guess who!" I cheer, making him jump.
Sean slowly turns to me, and his eyes widen in shock. He springs to his feet, and wraps his arms around my waist, to lift me up and spin me around before placing me back down on the ground.
"You scared that shit out of me Heather, I thought you were dead! I was so scared! I've missed you so much sweetheart. I promise to never start a fight with Kellin again, because since you've been gone him and I have been forced to bond over our love for you, and neither of us can risk losing you again. Please dont go!" Sean cries into my hair.
I pull away from him, and wipe his tears away "Dont cry Sean, it's ok, Im fine, Im not going anywhere. I missed you too, my cute lil potato!" 
Sean laughs slightly, then sniffles "B-But, where have you been?"
I grab one of his hands, and one of Kellins, as a wide smile stretches across my face "Let's just say, I took some time off, and realised that was a huge mistake, but Im back now, and trust me when I say, your girl aint goin' NOWHERE!"