CHAPTER 41 - Jiyong,Help

                                    

                                          
Days goes by,Jiyong slowly fading in his own world.No more smiling.No more fashion icon.No more that style rapper.No more G-Dragon.Now that was living in that dark room was Kwon Jiyong,a guys who lost his hope in life.The guy who lost his love because of suicide.Jiyong routine in a day now is just staring out of the window or sleeping in his bed and not coming out of his room at all.He totally lost his interest in living and everyone was so worried about him.Chaerin,Bom,Dara and Minzy tried to visit him and give some support,but by the way he was looking right now,none of the survived to even look at him.
                          
He is like a broken doll.
                          
Youngbae and the others take turn to visit him every one hour and bring food for him.And basicly one day Daesung broke down when he was visiting Jiyong and he was cutting himself at his wrist.The bloods was pouring out from his skin but he just stare at Daesung eyes lifelessly.Since that day,Youngbae and Top take time to go through Jiyong room and find evey sharp things they can find and take it out from there.
                          
And Top also starting to notice something about Daesung.Since the day he saw Jiyong cuts,Daesung loved to hide in his room and when any of them enter it,he was sobbing and crying alone by himself,in the dark room.Youngbae and Top was starting to feel lots of stress and pressure with Jiyong and Daesung behaviour.But,they can just hope for the best for both of them and can just help them by supporting.
                          
Daesung can't sleep tonight.Just like past nights,he was crying and remembering Seungri amd Jiyong situation right now.Daesung was sobbing out of control and he decide to wash his face and drink some water to rest and ease his mind for a while.He walk to the bathroom,open the tap then let the cold water run out hitting his hand skin and he wash his face and ended it by staring at his figure in the mirror.Those eyebags can clearly be seen.He was clearly look in mess and horrible now.
                          
He lifelessy walk his body to the kitchen and pour some water in the glass and drink.He sighed out heavily after finish then walk to his room back.Just about when he want to open his room door.He heard a loud thud sound like something heavy drop from Jiyong room.He look over to the door and his mind was being really crazy.And suddenly this tinging sense of worryness came out panicly.Daesung walk fast to Jiyong door and without even knocking it he pushed the door and the room is dark.Well,its normal since its night time.Just when he was about to close the door back,he heard the fan on the ceiling cracking.
                          
'What...is that sound?' Daesung thought really don't like the idea he was thinking bout right now.
                          
He quickly open the lamp switch then he look to the middle site of the room in horror and shock.And he shout loudly as he can.
                          
"Oh my God!!!Hyung!!!!!!Top hyung!!!!!!!HELP!!!" Daesung shout like a crazy person while his hand was trying to grab Jiyong leg and put it on his shoulder to avoid the rope pressure his trakea and block the air.Youngbae and Top that was just woken up panicly run to the room and their sleepy eyes widen out when they saw Jiyong body was hanging from the ceiling fan.
                          
"God God..Shit shit!!!!" Youngbae cursed as he run to Jiyong body and Top grab the chair that fall on the floor then climb up on it to loosen up the tie around Jiyong neck and after it was lossen out,Youngbae catch Jiyong body that fall into his arms and he quickly lay his body on the floor panic.
                          
"Jiyong!!Jiyong wake up!!!Yah!!!" Youngbae hit Jiyong shoulder and shake his body hard asking him to wake up.
                          
And suddenly,Jiyong eyes shoot open and he was coughing really hard while his body bent holding his chest.Top,Youngbae and Daesung was so relieve that he wake up.
                          
"What are you doing Jiyong!!!!!You stupid!!!Do you know that can kill you!!!Why!!!Isn't it enough for us to lose Seungri out of this crap!!!Why do you need to do the same!!Why?!" Top shout in rage and he frustrating ruffle his hair then sit on the floor infront of him looking at this person infront of him that just survive a suicide attempt.Youngbae just hug Jiyong and let his head rest in his embrace.Just then,the room become silent,only breathing of rage and disspointment can be heard.Just then,a sobbing can be heard.Everyone look over to the place the sound come from?
                          
"I'm...i'm sorry....its..its all because of me right....Right hyung?" All of them look over to Daesung that was trying hard not to break down crying infront of them.
                          
"I'm so sorry that Seungri suicide because he is sad that he had forgotten bout me..I'm really sorry hyung.I'm not a good hyung for him,that make he just easily forget about me.Just like that.Just in a few seconds,all our memories together,fade from his life.Like i never exist.Like i was never been there for him.Like i am a shadow." Daesung said looking at the floor then he can't keep it anymore.He is tired.He is dissapointed in himself.
                          
"Daesung...Its not your faults....Hey..Don't blame yourself..." Top slide near Daesung then hug him letting the younger break in heavy tears in someone embrace.He is tired of crying alone.He is tired of keeping everything to himself.He is tired of crying every single night and feel horrible about himself every second he saw his hyungs.
                          
"I feel like I am never a good enough hyung.I feel like i failed to be his hyungs.I feel like i am the one who killed him." After Daesung finished his sentence Jiyong broke in tears and sobbing loudly too.Cause basicly,what Daesung said just now,is just like how he feel every moment of his life after Seungri is gone.And he feel worse than that to be honest.
                          
"If I...feel like i failed as his hyung...I am wondering..how is Jiyong hyung feel about himself.He is the more nearest to Seungri among us.....How..would he feel lost..The amount of pain he faced,crazy thoughts that he failed to protect Seungri.If..i...imwould do the same things hyung..i will..." Daesung finished his sentence then the room left with sobbing and crying sound from every single one of them that was longing for Seungri.
                          
And surprisingly,all of them,was blaming theirself,for the event that happen to Seungri.And none of them,can find a way to forgive themself.They are lost.Lost in their own prison.
                          
Death leave a heartache no one can heal,Love leave a memory no one can steal.
                          
TO BE CONTINUED.
O.M.G!!!!!!Long time no see guys!!!I miss u guys alots and next week is my exam.Huhuhu..sad lyfe as a students.Btw,I'll be active in updating in just few days then i'll start hiatus back on the Sunday before exam and then one week i won't be around.I was wondering did Everyone forget meee??Comments and vote!I want to see who is still here with mee 😂😭🤗😍👍👍 comments kayy?
                          
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