Chapter 12

                                    

                                          
This is a cute chapter :) It's also where this fic earns it's mature rating so if you don't like that kind of stuff just skip the last couple of paragraphs. I tried to make it cute not raunchy though so I hope you guys enjoy :)
                          
Lexa was pacing again. Clarke was asleep in the her bed, as well as she could be. Now, Lexa had to make a decision about the boy named Jasper. She knew that Clarke wished for her to show mercy; but, she wanted him to pay for his crime. She wanted to tie him up to a tree and give him his 100 cuts herself. She slumped to the ground her head in her hands. She wanted desperately to give Clarke what she wished, a peaceful society where blood did not always answer blood. But, she couldn't help who she was. Blood must have blood had been ingrained in their society, she was too weak to overcome it. Maybe she was no good ruler after all, she couldn't give Clarke what she wanted. She was half the person that Clarke was. She sobbed desperately, her body shaking. She was so torn inside. If she couldn't overcome the thirst for revenge, how could she expect her people to. The door opened behind her and she quickly stood and faced away from the intruder. She desperately wiped at her eyes when she felt a weak hand on her shoulder. She immediately relaxed under her touch and put her hand over Clarke's.
She turned around into Clarke's embrace and buried her face in her neck. Clarke held her tight like she understood. Lexa tightened their hold and Clarke whimpered, Lexa pulled away like she was burned. She had hurt Clarke, her eyes were wide with fear. She started to back away but Clarke reached out to grab her before she completely retreated into herself.
"I'm okay, it just hurt a little. Come inside, Lex."
Lexa still looked like she wanted to run, but allowed Clarke to slowly pull her inside her room. Clarke shut the door behind them and led Lexa to the bed. She sat down and pulled Lexa with her, Lexa sat a full foot away from her and Clarke sighed. She scooted a little closer to Lexa and placed her hand on Lexa's thigh, soothingly.
"Beja Leksa. Tel ai op hashta dison. What is wrong?" Clarke reached out with her other hand and wiped away the fresh tears that ran down Lexa's face. She waited patiently for Lexa to open up, offering silent support. She would be there for Lexa in every way she could, even if that meant remaining silent. She stroked Lexa's thigh gently and watched her eyes as conflict danced across them. She saw pain, confusion, desperation and anger. "Leksa," she whispered soothingly.
Finally, Lexa faced her, eyes brimming with tears. "I am no good for you, skai prisa. I cannot give you what you wish for. I cannot be good." She looked down again, staring fixedly at the mattress between them.
Clarke forced her to look at her and reached out to brush more of her tears away but Lexa jerked her face away. Clarke pulled her hand back as if she had been shocked. "Lexa, please. Don't do this. You are everything I want and you are good. You feel every death as if it is your own, and you strive for peace. You would sacrifice everything and anything for the well-being of your people, that is commendable not despicable. I have killed for my people too don't beat yourself up about this, Lex."
"But you are good Klark and I am not! You forgive and I can only hate." Lexa cried trying to pull away from Clarke.
Clarke held on tight, realization dawning upon her, "Lex, is this about Jasper?"
"Yes and no. It stems from this Jasper boy, my inability to show him mercy for you and blankets over everything else. I am savage and you are not. Your heart is pure, you are good. You always look for a peaceful resolution and I resort to fighting at every turn. Your punishment is jailing or banishment and mine is 100 cuts and death. You're even better than your own people. Their punishments are more barbaric and you stand above it all! You are my brightness, my heart and in return I am only the darkness in your's."
Clarke stared at her in disbelief. "Lexa," she reached out for her again but was denied. "You are everything to me, don't you see that? You bring out the best in me. You make me strive to be better, to look out for my people and to love everyone. You are my the brightness in my heart, not the darkness. You make me so happy, you have to know that, and you are good. You made the coalition, that was all of your own volition, do you really think anyone else in your society would have done that. That was before any of us even hit the ground. You made that coalition despite the death of your lover to create peace. That's who you are and that is benevolent, not malicious. You are so good and I wish you would see that, because it's what I see."
Lexa finally allowed Clarke to wrap her arms around her. She sobbed into Clarke's hair. "You wanting revenge for this is not bad. It shows how much you love. Not how much you hate. You have the biggest heart even if you don't show it all the time, I know it's there. I love you for it, I love you, Leksa." She said it with conviction, her hand over Lexa's heart. She held Lexa's eyes driving home her confession.
Lexa opened and closed her mouth and then surged forward merging their lips. It was sloppy and their tears were mixed into it, but it was beautiful and filled with love. "Ai hod yu seintaim in," Lexa whispered against her lips. "ai badan yu op en nou moun and I will be better for you. Jus drein no jus draun, sha?"
"Sha, ai hodness" Clarke whispered back and then they were kissing again.
Their lips moved in sync, their bodies flush. Lexa pulled at Clarke's back attempting to pull Clarke impossibly closer as if they could be one. Lexa's hands roamed Clarke's body and caressed her hips as Clarke threaded hers through Lexa's braids. Lexa shifted to lift Clarke up, Clarke's legs wrapping around Lexa's waist. Neither of them broke the kiss as Lexa carried Clarke to the bed. She laid her down gently, careful of her wounds.
Lexa stared down at her lovingly, "Are you sure? I do not wish to hurt you."
Clarke pulled her down, "sha, heda. You will not hurt me, jos ste kefa. Ai wich yu in."
Lexa's eyes shut tightly when Clarke whispered in her own language, a shiver traversing her body. When she opened them they were impossibly dark with arousal. Lexa crashed their lips together, moving with urgency she removed Clarke's shirt and then her own. Clarke sighed, moving her hands along Lexa's exposed skin. The commander shivered, her touch fire in her heart. She nearly ripped Clarke's wrappings off in her desperation to feel more of her lover. Her lips immediately wrapped around one of Clarke's nipples, her back arched into Lexa giving her more access to her lover's breasts. She sucked, licked and bit lightly until Clarke was squirming under her. She was teasing her and Clarke knew it.
Lexa felt Clarke's legs tense but didn't realize what was happening until Clarke had already flipped them over. She immediately set to work removing Lexa's wrappings and moved to take one of hr breasts in her mouth, the other she kneaded in her hand. Lexa whimpered and Clarke's head shot up grinning at her. The commander rolled her eyes arching her back to urge Clarke to continue. Clarke pulled away and Lexa whined. Her whine was cut off when Clarke's fingers slipped below her waist band and teased her underwear band. She undid Lexa's pants and slowly slid them down her long, beautiful legs. Lexa was growing impatient, squirming beneath Clarke's deft fingers which teased her over her underwear. The sky girl bit onto the band of Lexa's underwear and looked up for permission. When she got it, she slowly pulled the offending garment down Lexa's legs with her mouth. The commander groaned at the sight, no longer able to hide her arousal.
Clarke moved back up Lexa's body, dragging her skin against Lexa's. She kissed Lexa soundly on her lips and then kissed a line down her neck making her mark. Lexa arched into her and desperately pulled at Clarke's pants. She smiled and allowed Lexa to help her out of her jeans. Then she trailed a line of kisses down Lexa's body and kissed the inside of each of Lexa's thighs. Lexa whimpered and Clarke glanced up at her, "Ai hod yu in, Leksa."
Lexa cried out when her lovers tongue brushed against her folds. She had been waiting for this since the first time they did it so long ago. Somehow that made it even sweeter. Clarke lapped at her folds, tasting the woman she loved. She alternated flat and raised swipes before she began to circle Lexa's clit. Lexa's hips bucked into Clarke's mouth and she held her down with one arm. She stared up at Lexa loving the pleasure written across her lover's face. Slowly, she slipped her tongue into Lexa's entrance watching Lexa as her eyes widened and her mouth opened slightly in a silent cry. "Please, Klark!" Lexa cried out.
Clarke's mouth moved back to Lexa's clit sucking the bud into her mouth. Lexa groaned, her arousal dripping from her folds. Slowly Clarke entered her with one finger, still sucking on her bud. "Klark!" She shouted, and Clarke began to thrust in and out of her at an increasing speed.
"Beja Klark, more!"
Clarke added another finger and began to swipe her tongue around Lexa's clit. She could feel Lexa's walls beginning to shake and she raised from her position. Her fingers continued to thrust deeper each time, her thumb now brushing against Lexa's clit and Lexa's hips thrusting into her hand. She brought their lips together, tongues sliding together and Lexa's arousal washing between them. Clarke pulled away to whisper into Lexa's ear "I love you Leksa, come for me."
Lexa cried out, dragging her nails up Clarke's thighs as her walls tightened and she cried out her ecstasy. Clarke continued to thrust into her lover at a slower pace, allowing Lexa to ride out her high. Lexa's head drooped onto Clarke's shoulder, "Ai hod yu in. So much my skai prisa."
Clarke rolled off of her a smile gracing her features. Lexa caught her breath and immediately straddled Clarke. She grinned devilishly, "your turn, meizen."
                          
Notes:
                          
*Beja Leksa. Tel ai op hashta dison= please Lexa, Tell me about this
*Skai prisa= sky princess
*Ai hod yu seintaim in= I love you too
*ai badan yu op en nou moun= I serve you and no other
*Jus drein no jus draun, sha?= blood must not have blood, yeah?
*Sha, ai hodness= yes my love
*Sha heda= yes commander
*jos ste kefa. Ai wich yu in= Just be careful. I trust you
*Ai hod yu in= I love you
*Meizen= beautiful