~Grasping~

                                    

                                          
Im sorry for using the same song, it just fit the mood so well....
                          
*Play Song*
                          
Aaron's POV
                          
"Aaron, you gotta forgive yourself sometimes..." Aph said to me once.
                          
Not this time.
                          
I stumble. 
                          
I sink. 
                          
Everyone erupted in tears. 
                          
I couldn't breathe.
                          
"You can see her if you like..." The surgeon said softly, gesturing for the group to follow her.
                          
We entered the melancholy room with pale walls and one single hospital bed.
                          
Then I saw her, hooked up to numerous machines and monitors
                          
She was as she was before, pale and silent....unresponsive.

                          
As I walked to her bedside, Cadenza, Lucinda, Kawaii~chan, and Nicole hopped in front of me, creating a barrier between me and Aphmau, teary-eyed and angry.
                          
"Where do you think you're going?!" They all yelled. 
                          
I looked down at the ground and started to tear up once more. 
                          
They all looked confused.
                          
"Can....I...please...just see Aph..."I managed out. 
                          
They all cleared a path to a chair next to her bed, reluctantly. 
                          
Sylvana didn't even care about me doing this, she was sobbing into Eric's shoulder.
                          
Laurence and Garroth were sobbing and so was the Team.
                          
"......Aph...." I sat on the bedside chair and clutched her hand. 
                          
I brought my thumb up and down her knuckles and remembered her blushing face. 
                          
Her face was pale white, nothing like the red that came from blushing.
                          
".....Aph....I'm sorry...." I dropped my head and pulled in my bottom lip. 
                          
The tears stinging my eyes. 
                          
She couldn't be gone. 
                          
She just.....can't....
                          
We all stayed in that room for hours but eventually, everyone went home.
                          
Even I had to. 
                          
Stupid visiting hours.
                          
What I would do to hold her hand again, 
                          
Make her laugh, 
                          
Make her blush, 
                          
Make her...happy....
                          
I failed in that regard.
                          
I just wanted to wrap my arms around her and protect her, from ever suffering again.
                          
What am I talking about? I caused her suffering.....I did...
                          
Katelyn's POV
                          
Everyone is still shaken up from Aphmau's accident. 
                          
It has been a few days and Aphmau hasn't woken up.
                          
Poor Aaron. 
                          
He doesn't even done anything but sit by her side all day and all night.
                          
Sylvana is taking it hard too. 
                          
She has eaten everything in their kitchen.
                          
Why...Aphmau...why....
                          
Aaron's POV
                          
I was hungry, tired, and depressed. 
                          
I couldn't eat or really do anything, my mom is on a business trip and my dad....
                          
I look at her again, the machine pumping her heart, her body basically a machine.
                          
Her life on the very edge. 
                          
The doctors said that soon they would have to pull the plug.
                          
What I did to her is unforgivable, 
                          
The pain I caused was unbearable.
                          
My fingers intertwined with hers, I began to say the words I always wanted to say. The ones which have been haunting me for as long as I can remember.
                          
"Aph.....I'm sorry for what I have done.....I never meant to cause you pain..."
                          
"..I love you.....I was scared before to say it but now......" 
                          
"......I love you.."
                          
"....I'm sorry it took this crash for me to say it...I-I'm a fool."
                          
"....a weakling.."
                          
"..and a coward....."
                          
"..I just want to see your eyes again, those beautiful hazel eyes.."
                          
"I want to hear your laugh, that little snorting laugh..."
                          
".........I want to touch your cheek and kiss you.......not afraid......not cautious.....just us...... "
                          
She just breathed along with the machine. 
                          
I then said my biggest fear but biggest dream.
                          
"I want to get married to you, under the stars on the hill that we would hang out in... "
                          
"I want to have kids with hazel and black eyes....."
                          
"I want to grow old and die with you holding my hand." 
                          
"I want that life with you.......I want a future with you....."
                          
I sniffle as my eyes welled with even more sadness, my body slightly jerking from this action.
                          
"I love you.....and I will love you even if you leave......"
                          
"I won't stop loving you...."
                          
"I will never forget the memories we shared, the time we spent, and the moments we shared....."
                          
"You are not something I will be forgetting for a long....long time..."

                          
(remember that's what he said in the dream)
                          
I was probably breaking hospital policies because I stood up and leaned over her bed and placed my lips on hers. 
                          
Her lips were cold but moist. 
                          
They were chapped, but smooth.
                          
I dropped my hand, grasping her hand.
                          
I swear to Irene that I felt something grab back.......
                          
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