Chapter 4

                                    

                                          
Cress POV
                          
There's so- many- people! I'm gonna die. I dont know anyone. Well if I do its because governess Levana makes me track them and hunt them down. I just closed my locker with my favorite reading book and a text book in my hand. I get a notification on my port- probably from governess Levana- and of course I was right. I only started coming to this school because the governess has a suppose-to-be-dead-heir-to-be-the-governess niece at this school. And also to deal with Carswell Thorne. I sighed dreamily at the thought of him. He was my knight in shining armour, my hero, my prince, my-...I then spotted him with another girl. Their fingers intertwined with each other, her head on his shoulder, his lips pressing kisses on the top of her head. 
                          
My whole world suddenly just stopped and all my hopes and dreams of being his girl melted away. I try to avoid him but then our eyes lock with one another's, leaving me to feel like a stray cat left in an alleyway. All my dreams and hopes about him came back to mind and I melted in a love feeling way. He winked at me all cocky and full of himself and looked away like nothing happened. I burst into tears and shoved past him hitting his arm in the process. I ran back to my locker and sat in front of, crying harder than I should've. After the bell rang I stayed there in front of my locker not wanting to move from my shattered heart and dreams. About five minutes later a felt a tap on my shoulder. I didn't want to look up because I new it'd be a teacher or worker at the school telling me to get back to class. But I looked up anyway and saw him. His blue eyes staring down at me with worry and confusion. 
                          
"Are you okay?" He asked. I looked back down and swallowed my nerves down. 
                          
"Y-yeah." I stuttered. "I'm-...fine." I lied. Only because balling my eyes out in front him was torture enough. 
                          
"Are you sure. You dont look fine. I mean you look great and all but- ugh. What I'm trying to say is, you don't look like you're feeling alright. What happened?"
                          
"I'd rather not say." I sniffled and wiped my tears away. 
                          
"Are you sure? I already asked that didn't I?" He sighed wearily. "You're...Cress right?"
                          
"Yeah." I said so quiet I barely heard myself. 
                          
"Okay. I'm Cars-"
                          
"Carswell Thorne. I know who you are."
                          
"Oh. Alrighty then." He chuckled awkward and I shortly regretted saying I knew who he was. 
                          
"I should get to class now." 
                          
"Here. Let me help you up." He offered his hand but I ignored it and got up without his assistance. "Or not." He added.
                          
I walked to the classroom I should be in. "Cress wait."
                          
I wasn't close to the classroom and Carswell must've known because he grabbed my wrist, turned me towards him, held a firm grip on my hips, and pressed a very passionate kiss on my lips. I gasped against his lips, not sure if I should stay standing in shock or if I should kiss him back. He deepened the kiss and I realized he wanted me to kiss back. So I did. With as much passion as I had for him, which was a lot. 
                          
He pulled back still holding me close to his body. "Cress?"
                          
"Yeah Carswell?"
                          
"No. Just Thorne please. Carswell is too formal for me." 
                          
"Oh-. Okay. Then...yeah Thorne?" 
                          
He pulled away just enough for me to look into his eyes. "I...I love you Cress." 
                          
My eyes widen so big I felt like they were about to pop out of their sockets. "You-you...you what?" 
                          
He let go of me and I stumbled a little but regained my balance. He smirked at me in a swoon-worthy way and walked away to whatever class he had. I walked to my class and felt ashamed to be there late. 
                          
After school
                          
   I walked to the parking lot. I got to my small car and saw Thorne. I called him out. "Hey! Thorne!" I waved at him but he didn't notice because he didn't wave back. I saw the one girl from earlier walk up to him. They held each other close placing kisses on each other's lips. "Oh." I said to myself. I got in my car and sat there, doing nothing. I cried silently to myself. After I cried for about half an hour, I finally started the car. I drove off to my house not paying attention to anything but the road. I got home and saw my dad at the grill. A small smile spread across my face. I got out and walked straight inside. The smell of steak was growing my hunger. I went to my room and laid down on my bed staring up at the ceiling. I quickly did my homework and fell asleep. I mustve been out for a few hours because when I went downstairs, my dinner was cold. But I was too sad to eat. But since I did love my dad's steak, I ate as much of it as I could. I told my dad goodnight and thanked him for dinner and went to bed again. I had no dreams to dream tonight because they all got shattered. Again. 
Looks like I'll never be his girl after all. Was the last thing that went through my mind before I dozed off into a deep sleep.