CHAPTER 19 - I Won't Leave,Never

                                    

                                          
Jiyong walk in the private room where located Seungri body with the IV drip connected to his left arm vein to keep him up with the nutrients needed for human that he barely take anymore.Jiyong walk to the side of his bed and then he swipe the hair sticking on Seungri forehead and his heart wrench when he look at the white bandage on his beautiful delicate skin at the side of his head.He look over to his body that he noticed get smaller and thinner until his collarbone was showing clearly when he was sleeping now.He hate the feeling.
                          
He hate the feeling of Seungri look so fragile and weak like this but he can't even do anything to help this young boy.He loved Seungri so much.He don't care when people said he was assume to be gay when they saw his interaction with Seungri.He can't help to fall in love more deeply with this boy.He don't even know if their bond now was brother or lover.He was confused about it long time ago.That doesn't matter to him anyway.Nobody.Nobody can judge Seungri or talk bad anything about him.No.Jiyong won't let that happen at all.Nobody know how hard this boy try to even breathing everyday.Smiling was a hard task for him.
                          
Living is a task for him not a life.
                          
Jiyong slide up his sleeves and see all those scars.Some were red.Some were black.Some had faded.But they never helped.This is the battle he had fight with his might.He try as hard as he can to stay here with everyone that was only know to just hurt him then judge him.How could he ever think of letting Seungri go?Is he insane?What make he think that the pain Seungri gave to him was painful than what he was going through?
                          
What he go through was far more pain and Jiyong was here hating and letting him stand in his dark dangerous world alone?What the hell was he thinking by letting a fragile but beautiful person like Seungri stand and fight his own monster alone?He wish he can turn back the time and never ever think about leaving Seungri alone eventhough he was the one who insist it at first.No.No matter what,he want to hate,hurt or even bloody kill Jiyong,he won't leave.Never.He want to stand here with him even its mean he had to share the pain and sorrow with Seungri.
                          
Jiyong then was opening Seungri palm that was in a fist shape to hold his hand and let him feel safe even in his sleep but then something stop him.Something was inside Seungri delicate hand and he open it slowly to reveal a gold necklace that always had been on Seungri neck and Jiyong love to see how beautiful his face shine with the gold colour at his neck.He look beautiful wearing a one of a kind thing.Thats why Jiyong take almost 3 months to design the necklace himself and seng it to one of his closest friend to make one for him.
                          
But the question now is,why is this necklace was in his palm instead of his neck?Jiyong pulled it out then he look at the necklace closely.It was damaged.You can only see a tiny lines on the necklace if you see it closely and by just looking at it Jiyong know it was stepped.This is a shoes print.He was sure of it.
                          
'So you went into all this pain,letting yourself in pain and your hand full of cuts and bruise just to get this back from the crowded floor?For this stupid necklace you put yourself in such danger?You are stupid Seungri.So stupid.And I can't help to fall for you more and more if this how you are going to act.' 
                          
Jiyong slowly keep the precious necklace in his pocket making sure he won't drop it somewhere else.Jiyong was there.Sitting on the mattress neside Seungri watching his calm face,his chest that goes up and down when he breath to keep on living.Then suddenly,Seungri eyes fluttered open and his eyes look hurt while he was trying to adjust to the light.His hand touching his head at the bleeding spot that left him in pain and his face show pain when he touched his head.
                          
"Where am I?What happen?" Seungri ask as he look around then his eyes stopped and locked with Jiyong gaze on his face and body that was laying on the bed.He quickly turn his head away not letting Jiyong look into his eyes which can let him see what is in his heart.