CHAPTER 14 - Dark

                                    

                                          
Daesung was happy everythings back to normal,that what he thought.Daesung walk into Seungri room to ask him to watch television together but he stop as he saw Seungri was cleaning something rushingly on the floor.
                          
"Seungri?What are you doing?" Daesung ask walking in but he stop as soon as Seungri shout.
                          
"Go away!!!" Seungri shout angry not to Daesung but himself.Daesung stand there like a statue feel shock completely in his body.Seungri was not someone who will easily shout.Especially to elder like him.
                          
"Dae what happen?" Jiyong ask to him panic as he heard Seungri shouting voice.
                          
"Everyone just go away.Please.Don't come near me." Seungri said trying to clean the blood stained on the floor but instead he mess it up more then it should.
                          
"Seungri?What..What are those?" Jiyong ask shock at the dark liquid on the floor spreaded.He walk infront without being caution and suddenly he feel a stinging sensation at his hand.
                          
He look at his hand was bleeding and it was cut by Seungri using a knife.Seungri that just realize he just hurt Jiyong as come back from dream,he drop the knife on the floor and walk backward scared and shaking.
                          
"Hyung..I..I.." He stutter.He don't know what to say.He feel confused and don't know what to do.
                          
"Seungri..Please.." For Jiyong the cut was nothing and he try to approach Seungri again but Seungri shake his head fast.
                          
"Hyung..nO!Stay there..Stay there!!I..I might hurt you again!" Seungri shout hysterically scared.He feel like worse then trash for hurting Jiyong.He was trying to help him but why did he hurt him?
                          
"No..Seungri..listen..Hyung is here...Ease your mind..Maknae..calm down.." Jiyong try the technic to make Seungri remember who he is.
                          
"No..Go..Go away..I hurt you..." Seungri shake scared stepping away as Jiyong come near him.
                          
"Maknae...Look at me...Look at hyung maknae...Here..I'm ok..This is ok...I won't be mad at you..Come here maknae?Can I hold your hand?" Jiyong said offering his hand to hold Seungri and calm him down but instead Seungri swing away from the touch make Jiyong kind of shock.Usually if he did all this,Seungri will already calm down and relax but somehow he was becoming more and more panic.
                          
"Seungri..Its alright..I am here..You can talk to me..What happen maknae?Tell hyung..so i can help." Jiyong said sitting down on the floor properly and slowly after Seungri slide his body to the floor.Daesung was about to step near but  Jiyong hand movement ask him to stay there and don't come in.
                          
"I..i don't know hyung..I just..Empty.." Seungri said crying in tears.
                          
"Why?Hyung and everyone was here.Why did you feel like that?" Jiyong ask try to get closer.
                          
"You..You guys seems..far..I..I'm scared...Hyung..Its..Its come again..That past..That..monster.." Seungri said crying hardly and shaking but he still try to avoid Jiyong from touching his hand.
                          
"Maknae..Can I touch your hand?Can I hold it?Can I come near to you?" Jiyong said with a caution move toward Seungri that was shaking.
                          
Just as soon as he get to hold Seungri hand he quickly pulled him into his chest and hug him as tight as possible making Seungri shock and strugle with the sudden contact.
                          
"Move!!Let me go!!Don't touch me!" Seungri shout hysterically as he remember about his dad.His past.He feel like the one who holding him now was his dad.The one that walk toward him was his dad not Jiyong.
                          
"Seungri!This is me!!Kwon Jiyong!" Jiyong said hugging Seungri tight even when Seungri keep on pushing him away.
                          
"Let me go!!" Seungri shout make Daesung scared and feel broken looking at maknae strugling like that.
                          
"Ri...I'm Jiyong...I'm your hyung...I'm here...Baby panda..Please.." Jiyong said tears falling from his eyes as he know Seungri was again locked in his past.
                          
"Hy..hyung...?" Seungri said shaking and try to look at Jiyong face slowly then his hand slowly carreses Jiyong face that was crying badly.
                          
"Hyung..I'm..I'm..sorry.." Seungri said stuttering then Jiyong hugged him tightly carresing his back gently.
                          
"Its..its ok...Its ok...Maknae...Hyung is here...Shh...Its ok..." Jiyong said repeating it like a mantra calming down Seungri.
                          
"Hyung..He..He hit my mum...He..He hurt her..Infront of me....he choke me...I'm scared.." Seungri said crying hard closing his eyes remembering his past and tightening his grab wat Jiyong clothes scared.
                          
"Ri..Its ok...Its already ended...Seungri...he was gone..He wasn't here anymore...Its ok..." Jiyong hugged and kiss Seungri forehead and carresing his hair not giving any chance to Seungri to let go of the hug.
                          
Daesung that was shaking crying at the door,crawling nearer to Seungri and Jiyong place.He slowly try to hold Seungri hand lightly and with the contact Seungri kind of shock and hide his hand near his chest like a cat in his owner arm.
                          
After finished crying,Seungri fall asleep in Jiyong hugged and he gently grab his hand and leg slowly then carry him up in bridal style and put him slowly on the bed.
                          
"Daesung?Can you grab the first aid kit and some warm water with a cloth for me?" Jiyong said as he feel like he don't want to let go of Seungri.
                          
After a few minutes,Daesung come back with the things needed then Jiyong slowly uncovered Seungri shirt sleeves making Daesung look away feel wanting to faint and vomit at the same time.
                          
"Why did you do this to yourself again Seungri?I thought you promised me.." Jiyong said in verge of crying looking at the red fresh cuts on Seungri wrist.
                          
He slowly clean up the cuts with warm  water then put the medicines.Daesung then grab a mop and clean up the blood stained on the floor and throw away the knife.
                          
"Dae..You can have a rest..I will take care of Ri..Its alright.." Jiyong said after he saw Daesung yawn tiredly.
                          
"Goodnight hyung..If anything happen please tell me ok?" Daesung said bowing then walk out still can't get rid of the Seungri wrist image in his mind.What happen?So all this time he was doing that?But he look happy..so why?
                          
Jiyong was about to let go of Seungri hand but then Seungri grab it back not wanting to let go of it.
                          
"St..stay...I'm..I'm scared.." Seungri whine sad face trying to hold his hand not letting go.
                          
"Ri?Are you feeling better?What happen?Why you did all this?I thought you promise me..." Jiyong said moving near to Seungri face and carreses his cheeks.
                          
"I'm sorry..I..I..Feel...numb Ji.." Seungri said then Jiyong just get under the blanket and hugged Seungri hiding his body in his embrace.
                          
"Ri..I want you to forget everything..ease your mind..I'm here..I'll protect you.." Jiyong tighten his arms around Seungri.
                          
"I want you to fight it..I love you Ri.." Jiyong kiss Seungri neck lightly mumbling all the sweets words to ease his mind and hug him tight to keep him feeling safe.
                          
TO BE CONTINUED.
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