31:Back To The Start

                                    

                                          
OMG I'm sorry I published it with a huge part missing. Here's the full one. Sorry about that. 
                          
I'm too nervous about how this chapter is gonna turn out. I just have a lot to say and I don't know where to start and what to do. 
                          
I wasn't okay. No. I was nervous, worried, anxious. Mom wasn't hiding anything from me anymore. She and Liam talked a lot about everything, and I wasn't eavesdropping this time. I was in Zac's arms trying so hard not to cry. But I was definitely shaking and he definitely felt it. 
                          
So according to mom, Dad knows key people in the court. The judge was his high school best friend, and they were still in close contact even after mom and dad divorced. Back then Dad wasn't allowed to have custody because he was alcoholic at the end of their marriage and then he didn't request it after he sobered up. 
                          
Mom had a lot of talks with her lawyer the past week. They even met up a couple of times. 
                          
Apparently dad wasn't supposed to be able to even request custody after I turned 16, but he and his posse of friends managed to get that court order easily. 
                          
They were strong and they always get what they want. His lawyer has never lost a case before, ever. To say we needed a miracle to win this wasn't an exaggeration. 
                          
What sucked is that I didn't know what he wanted with me. He suddenly decides to show up in my life and wants to have our relationship magically fixed. That wasn't an option. Even if he wins I would find a way to leave and come back. 
                          
My life in that city was over. My new life is here. With mom and Liam. And Zac. 
                          
Whenever I get a small thought that I might have to sleep with Zac not being with in an arm radius I become close to the verge of crying and just hug him and kiss his face. I didn't wanna lose him. I didn't want anything to separate us. I would do anything to keep that small part that makes me happy in my life. 
                          
Personally, I was one that never believed that happiness is in family. But with our small dysfunctional excuse of a family, I was really happy. Mom was happy with Liam, and I was happy with Zac. Even though it sounds weird but it was normal. To us it felt normal. We weren't doing anything wrong no matter what others thought. I loved him from all my heart. Somehow I knew he thought the same of me and I didn't want anything more than that. 
                          
It was around 5pm, and mom and Liam were talking. He was trying to calm her down. I was still in Zac's arms listening. 
                          
"He wouldn't go through the expenses of hiring a lawyer, one of the best lawyers might I add, if he didn't know that he was going for a win"
                          
She was pacing all over the living room, and Liam wasn't able to sit still either. 
                          
"It hurts to say that I agree with you this time" Liam said. 
                          
"So what do we do? Just let him have me? I feel like I'm some sort of a cheap garage sale item" it felt horrible. It was as if my opinion didn't matter. But here's the catch, it really didn't matter. What I thought or what I wanted didn't count.
                          
"It's okay love it's gonna pass" Zac tried to comfort me but I wasn't having it. 
                          
"No it's not. If he wins, which according to mom he probably will, I'm not gonna be here anymore." I stood up because I was too fired up to remain sat. "You do realize that do you? I'd have to switch schools again, mid year might I add, and meet new people all over again, and to top it all, I'll be living with a stranger. You of all people should know how much it would fuck me up" I pointed at mom who was equally burning. 
                          
"Arguing is gonna get us nowhere" Liam finalized our whole argument and we all fell silent. 
                          
"Did you pack your small bag?" Mom asked. 
                          
"Yes I did." we were leaving in few because it takes a few hours to reach our old house so we either sleep the night there or leave here at like 3am to attend on time which was 9am.
                          
"Alright I'll pack the baby's bag and we'll leave afterwards" she said, walking to the doorway, her heels strong on the hardwood floor. 
                          
"That won't be necessary" Liam said, stopping mom and capturing her attention "You can't just handle all that shit and be expected to take care of my son's son-wow that is weird to say" 
                          
"Then what? I can't possibly leave a baby with only you two, plus Isaac has to go to school, and you need to be there for your patients."
                          
"I'll keep him with my parents. My mother would take good care of him while you're gone. You need to be with your son for now" mom thought it through and seemed to be convinced. She muttered an 'alright' and headed upstairs to get her bag. We were leaving in few minutes. 
                          
Zac left his seat and came up to me. 
                          
"Are you sure you don't want me to come with? I can ditch school you know it's not that big of a deal" he pulled back the usual stray lock of my hair from my forehead and kissed the top of my head. I felt a surge of safety go through me, then a larger surge of sadness and depression at the thought that this kiss could be our last. 
                          
"Yes I need to do this on my own. Also I don't want you to meet that horrible man at all. I wish I could forget him myself" I instinctively reached for my scar. It didn't go unnoticed by Zac but thankfully he kept whatever he was thinking of for himself. 
                          
The thud of mom's small bag being dropped on the floor snapped my attention. I guess this was it. 
                          
I looked at Liam, who was heading towards mom before grabbing her in his arms for a goodbye hug. I didn't need to ask Zac for one because I was already engulfed in his strong arms, but this time, tears were involved on both sides. 
                          
"I'll call you whenever I can I promise"
                          
"You better. God I'll miss you so much Ev" he cried hugging me even tighter. 
                          
"I already do" 
                          
I broke out from his grip and headed to the door. I slung my backpack on my shoulders and said goodbye to Liam. I hugged him too and he took it gracefully. I even said goodbye to Toe who was sleeping on one of the stairs' steps. 
                          
"Take care of our other small baby and don't forget to feed her" I told Zac who nodded. 
                          
The moment I opened the front door, a smack of cold air hit me. I never thought I'd say this, but I'm gonna miss the cold weather of Rivertown. 
                          
Halfway to the car, I looked back. A huge two story house with a beautiful porch, with the Graysons standing in front of it, waving us goodbye and wishing us luck. 
                          
I cried more and more as mom drove us further and further away from the house that I called home for the past few months. The house that I either will come back to forever starting tomorrow, or will never see again. The house that was now a small dot of light in my vision. 
                          
I took a glance at mom, and just like I thought, she was crying too.
                          
We were going back to where my whole world was shaken apart by mom one day. A day she told me she's getting married. A day I outed myself to her. A day I knew I was going to share my life with a stepbrother. A day I knew that my family would become complete again. A day I will never forget. 
                          
We were back to the start. 
                          
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