Chapter 10

                                    

                                          
I haven't talked to Luke in two whole weeks and it's driving me crazy! What have I done wrong for him to ignore me? This is so frustrating, I texted, called AND left like 10 messages on his voicemail but he just won't respond! 
                          
It feels like there's a hole where my heart should be and I'm feeling so empty. Luke should feel honored because no guy has ever made such a mess of my emotions before. He deserves a fucking award. Never like ever AND WE'RE NOT EVEN DATING!!
                          
One day we're friends and joking around and the next day it's like I don't even exist in his eyes. If it wasn't for the shows and new music I would've sworn he vanished from planet earth! I can't think of any reason for him to act this indifferent towards me. I need to know how guys heads work.
                          
I'm calling Alex. 
                          
He's a guy and I trust him. He'll hopefully have some advice for me....or maybe he'll just laugh and tell me I'm stupid and that I should just forget about Luke because he secretly despises me. Guess I'll find out.
                          
He answers on the second ring. "Hey sista" he says trying to sound like a girl. "Hey can I please talk to Alex in guy form please.....it's kinda important" I say not really in the mood for joking around.
                          
"Yeah sure what is it, sounds serious?" Alex responds, all joking gone. "Uhm I don't really know how to say it..." I trail off, not really knowing how to explain my current situation to him. 
                          
"You haven't fallen I love with me, have you" he asks in a panicked tone making me chuckle. "No, no I haven't but I have fallen I love with someone who is currently ignoring me for some unknown reason I can't explain" I answer sadly while tears begin to fill my eyes. Aaaaah! What is it with me!? I'm not the crying type but every time it comes to Luke and him ignoring me, I just can't help myself.
                          
"Who is he?" Alex asks. "It's Luke, the guy I was Skyping the other day but he just ended the call without saying anything" I thought he accidentally ended the call but then he stopped talking to me. Now I doubt that it was an accident.
                          
That's when it hit me. That was the first time Luke saw or heard of Alex, whenever we spoke Alex just never came to mind. I was always to caught up in our conversation to even think about other guys really. Maybe he thought me and Alex are dating but that doesn't explain why he is avoiding me. It doesn't make sense......unless he's jealous? Nah he can't be jealous, can he?
                          
"Do you think Luke is jealous because he think we are dating?" I blurted out before Alex could even speak. There was a little pause before Alex spoke. "I don't actually know this Luke guy but I've heard you talking about him and from what you told me he seems like a nice guy and I don't think he is the type to play with a girls feelings. I think you are right all the signs are there that he is jealous and that can only mean one thing....he likes you."
                          
His words shocked me and it takes a while to sink in. Luke likes me? I can't even imagine it, no way. "Are you sure? I don't think he'll like a girl like me" I said feeling unhappy with myself. 
                          
"Of course I'm sure! I'm a guy I know how our brains work. We are jerks! Trust me this is a total guy move to make, it won't surprise me if he flirts with other girls just to make you jealous. If I were you I'd do something. Put the poor guy out if his misery! You should do something fast before he ends up with some model chick with all boobs and no brain. I don't want to see you get even more hurt. So. Do. Some. Thing." Alex says all friendly. 
                          
"I'm glad you admitted you are all jerks" I responded before saying goodbye.
                          
After talking to Alex I feel way better. In fact for the first time in two weeks I actually feel happy. It's great to have a "brother" who can give you advise and cheer you up. All my problems are not solved but I know what I must do now. 
                          
Talk to some more friends or maybe just one...
                          
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Carmen Xx