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Before you read this and hate me.. idk how anxiety attacks work so if this sucks I'm sorryyy. 
                          
BUT I'm updating again so😏
                          
And also...things are moving quickly.
                          
I have no patience guys 
                          
I really hope you still like it tho
                          
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{Ashton}
                          
I woke up to banging and a loud string of curse words. Luke was laying on my chest snoring slightly. I kissed his head and got up to finding Michael in the kitchen tugging at his hair. "Woah Mikey what's up?" I said and walked closer to him. 
                          
"Fuck!" He yelled and looked at his hand which was bleeding. "Hey what did you do?" I said and grabbed paper towels to wrap around his hand. 
                          
"I dropped my goddamn glass and cut my hand" he hissed and ran his hand under water and then wrapping it in gauze. We stood in the kitchen looking at each other. "What's gotten into you lately Mike?" I said and folded my arms against my bare chest. 
                          
Michael shook his head. "Nothing okay?"He gritte his teeth and tried to walk past me which wasn't happening because I pulled him back. Which caused him to punch me. "Dont fucking touch me!" He yelled. I pushed him back and he punched me again. "Michael quit!" I yelled, I noticed that Luke was in my room still sleeping and is gonna wake up at any moment. 
                          
I was right. 
                          
"Ash!" I heard Luke call out and grab me. He pulled me away from Michael and looked at me with wide eyes. I pulled Luke behind me and looked at Michael. My mouth was bleeding along with my nose. "I don't know what the fuck is wrong with you"I spat. "But you're not safe to be around" I said and pulled Luke to my bedroom. 
                          
I sat on my bed and Luke went to get the first aid kit. "Jesus babe, what happened?" He said and was cleaning my face. My hand rested on his waist and I was rubbing circles on his hips. "Mike's going fucking crazy" I sighed and he kissed my forehead. My phone started ringing and Luke answered it. 
                          
"Calum hey what's wrong?" He said and looked panicked. "Okay, okay were coming" he looked at me and I raised my eyebrow. "Calum he can't-" 
                          
I'm guessing Calum hung up because like out the phone down and finsged cleaning me up before putting on his coat. "What are a doing?" I said and followed him to my car "Calums having a panic attack and he's freaking out" he said and got into the passengers seat. I got in the driver's seat and started to driving to Calums house. 
                          
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{Calum}
                          
My breathing started to shorten and I was sitting in the middle of my bed sobbing. Everything started to circle my head and I was losing it. 
                          
I need Michael. 
                          
Luke and Ashton busted through my door. "Calum oh my god" Ashton said. 
                          
"Ash get him some water." Luke demanded and felt my head. "Jesus you're burning up" he said and hugged me. 
                          
"I need-I need Mikey"I croaked. Luke sighed and rubbed my back. "Calum we cant" he said. My hear was breaking. I need Michael. He's the only person that knows what to do. 
                          
"Luke I need h-him." I sobbed "pl-please" I buried my head in his neck. Ashton came back and handed me the water. "Here" he said and handed me the water. I took it and took shaky breaths before drinking it. "Ash, we need to get Michael here." I heard luke say. 
                          
"Baby, he's not gonna come" Ashton said, which made me cry more. Luke held me tighter "Please, just call him Ash, we don't know what to do" he said. Ashton sighed and got up. He walked around the room talking to Michael. "Michael bed freaking out, he needs you," he said. "Yes! Okay? " he slammed his phone down. "He's coming" he said and walked to us. "Thank you" Luke said. 
                          
Ashton smiled and kissed his forehead. "No problem" 
                          
After minutes of me sobbing and screaming, Michael busted through the door and came closer to me. Luke and Ashton left, giving us some privacy. "Cal" he sighed and hugged me. I sobbed more and he rocked me back and fourth. "I'm so sorry" he said and rubbed my back. 
                          
"Y-You hate me" I said and grabbed his shirt, trying to bury myself deeper in his chest. He pulled away and cupped my cheeks. "No, God no, I don't hate you baby" he said.
                          
"I'm sorry" I whimpered and cried more. He shushed me and held me close to his chest. "You didn't do anything sweetheart." He laid down with me and sang me to me. 
                          
"I'm so sorry for everything Cal" he said and rubbed my cheek. 
                          
"What was wrong with you?" I asked. He sighed and kisses my forehead . 
                          
"I was scared." He frowned. "I like you a lot Calum, but you're my best friend, I cant- I shouldn't like you but Jesus. I was trying to run from my feelings and just lost it. I'm I sorry I made you feel like shit Calum, I love you so fucking much..maybe even more then a friend but it's just hard" he said. 
                          
I nodded. "I like you too"
                          
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I woke up to a phone call. Michaels face was buried in my neck and his arms were tightly around my waist. 
                          
"Hello?" I mumbled. "Is this Calum Hood?" 
I gulped and nodded, mentally slapping myself because they can't hear me. "Yes" I whisper.
                          
"I hate to tell you this, but your mother is in the hospital right now and we don't know if she's going to live" the doctor said through the phone. I felt Michael squeeze my waist and kiss my neck, which caused my stomach to burst."Can i- can I come see her?" 
                          
After getting off the phone with the doctor I heard Michael sigh. "It's gonna be okay" he whispered. I sat up and looked at him. "Can we go to the hospital?" I said. Michael was still laying down looking up at me and rubbing my back and nodded sadly. 
                          
[I was gonna end it here but ily dudes sooo]
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I sat in the waiting room waiting for them to tell me what happened to my mom. 
Where's my dad?
                          
Michael was holding my hand the entire time and trying to make me crack a smile. "Calum" he whispered. I turned to face him and our faces were so close. I wanted to kiss him but I knew I shouldn't. What are we? After last night, I've felt closer to Michael. 
                          
"Just do it" he whispered. I leaned in and caught his lips. They were so soft against mine. I pulled away and touched his face. "Please smile" he said and leaned his forehead on mine. 
                          
I closed my eyes and let a tear fall. "I can't Mikey" I said and let my head fall to his neck. "I-I cant" i cried. 
                          
He held me as I cried in his neck. Everything was wrong. My Mom might die, my dad's an abusive fuck and I don't know what's up with me and Michael. I love him so much, by I'm not ready to say it. We aren't even dating. 
                          
"Calum Hood?" I lift my head up and see the doctor standing before us. Michael held my waist, prepping me for what's about to come. 
                          
"She didn't make it" 
                          
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