What am I thinking?

                                    

                                          
I wake up and it's now 10am I guess I need to get out of bed and make the most of the day. I get up get in the shower and then dry my hair and put some fresh clothes on. My phone rings and I know it's one of the girls asking "have you looked up Joe yet?" I decide to pick it up. Yep I was right. I laugh and say "look ill search him up soon" we chat for a few minutes then I end the call. I go into the kitchen and grab my self a bowl of cereal. This house feels so big yet I have no one to share it with which is a shame. I carry on eating my cereal and then get up do all the washing up and clean up the house whilst listening to music.  The next thing I know is it's 2pm and I decide to go to my local park to just sit and relax. No one knows about this but I have bad anxiety which can cause so much trouble when I have to go to work. I deal with it slowly and I can sometimes deal with the panic attacks. I make my way out of my house and across the road to the gorgeous park. I sit down next to the fountain and I just take deep breathes. I walk around for a further 2 hours and then decide to just go home and get my food ready. I get my keys out and open my front door and make my way upstairs getting my slippers on and then coming back down to the kitchen. I put on a lasagna and sit down and get my iPad and look at my Instagram liking my friends photos and my favourite youtubers photos. I have been tagged in a few photos and I like all of those as well. I go on to youtube and look through my notifications. I watch a video then the oven goes off to tell me my lasagna was ready. I get it out, put it on a plate then on a tray then get a knife and folk and sit down next to my iPad watching youtube. This is what my life consists of I wait until 10pm then I decide to go to bed. I get in and click on a video and then I see a video come up on my recommended list someone called "thatcherjoegames" this must be that boy those girls keep going crazy over. I click on a video and watch one of his GTA videos and it's OK from what I saw because I fell asleep. I wake up at 8am I have work at Starbucks at 10am. I do my usual routine eat my cereal get my clothes on put my hair in a pony tail then make my way out. As I walk to work I start to think about that guy I watched last night his gaming video made me laugh although I never really saw a lot of it. He was doing a video with a person called "Oli White" he also seemed really sweet and quiet funny. Before I know it I am at Starbucks. I go behind the counter whilst Amy opens up. After about 20 minutes my first customer comes in they order a latte and a cookie. I make it quickly and then get back to thinking about Joe. Why on earth can't I get him off my mind? he isn't even that good in my eyes or is he?