I woke up and my head is spinning..
I'm at the hospital again. I'm fucking tired of fainting and the next thing i knew, i'm lying again at this fucking hospital bed. I'm so tired! Why is my life so complicated?
"Well hello, Ms. Gabriels. Good thing you're awake" Dr. Carslyn says and my father is right beside her. I couldn't lay an eye to him. I just can't.
"You better take care of yourself. Your situation is risky since you had a miscarriage before. You should be extra careful right now. And i'll give you vitamins that you and you're baby will need" She says and i think all of my thoughts exploded
What?
Me and??
Baby?
"You're five weeks pregnant, Ms. Gabriels so take a good care of yourself" She adds before leaving
Are you dead serious? I carressed my tummy.
Is there someone living here? Seriously?
I'm carrying Shawn's child?
You've got to be kidding me!
"Honey.." Dad calls and sits beside my bed
"You have to tell this to Shawn. We can take care of you but its better that he knows" What? Is he serious? How did they knew about me and Shawn?
"No" I said firmly
I wouldn't tell him.. i would never do that. Not that he lied to me. Not that he choosed Hazelle over me.
I got discharged the next day and i'm not in my usual self. My mind is floating everywhere and i couldn't think right.
I think i'm going to explode any minute.. i just can't absorb what's happening
Mom knocked on my door even its open
"I'm sorry" She starts while sitting at the edge of my bed
"I'm sorry for hiding it to you.. i just don't want you to get hurt" She adds and small tears are escaping from my eyes.
How could she managed being with my father even when he cheated on her? Even when he got another family?
"Mom.. i couldn't understand.. why did i have a sister from another woman? Why did you let that happen?" I said sobbing
Its just too much.. the pain is too much
"Honey.." She calls and sits near me while tucking some of my hair behind my ears
"Melissa, Hazelle's mother was my bestfriend. We both fell inlove with your father when we were at college but your dad liked me. Our friendship got destroyed because of that. I got pregnant with you after college and were about to got married but she asked to have a closure with your father. She wants to talk to him before finally letting him go but she got your father drunk and something happened to them.. she got pregnant with Hazelle" She explains that built anger inside of my chest.
It wasn't my mother's fault. Its Hazelle's mother! She's the one to blame here! She's the one who destroyed my family!
"But i forgave her already.. i forgive them already. She's just hurt. She also have feelings like us, she's also human who make mistakes. I admit i was so mad back then.. She's my bestfriend. My own friend just fooled me. But she was sick, and that's when i realized that she needed us. She's an orphan, Sophia.. she lost her family since she was a child and i can feel her hunger for love so i let them.. i let your father to live with them" She says and smiles at me
Why is my mother so kind? I couldn't imagine someone who can sacrifice a lot just for others..
"But she died happy. She thanked me because she lived her remaining days in earth happy. And that departed guilt from me.." She says carressing my back while hugging me
"So as Hazelle's fate. She's also sick, right? But i'm not telling you to bestow Shawn to her because i'm telling you.. its not easy. It hurts.. bigtime. Seeing the love of your life with someone else.. but try to understand her. She's experiencing a tough condition" I can't stop from crying
So much emotions are clouding my chest..
Pain.. Sympathy.. Guilt.. Confusion..
"Just always remember that were always here for you.. me, your dad, Candy, your friends.. and Shawn. He loves you so much, honey" She says and kissed my forehead before leaving me.
I was left upset with so much thoughts that's messing with my head..
I decided to go out to unwind
I need some fresh air. These past events were suffocating and can't think right
I ended up at the beach where i used to go when i need to calm my mind.
I let a deep breath out when i sat at the sand.
The cold breeze is thumping against my skin and i shiver.
I touched my belly and feel the living creature inside of it.
It was scary and exciting thinking that there would be a little Sopia or Shawn in the next 8 months..
I imagine how am i as mother?
How would Shawn will react when he knows about it?
I sighed
She's my sister. She needs Shawn. It'll just take some time and i can have him back again, right? I guess that won't hurt too much.
I love him.. so much but i don't think my guilt can take it when i chose to be selfish.
She's my sister after all..
Hold on, baby. We can do this okay? We'll be happy, i promise...
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