Happily Dissapointed.

                                    

                                          
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{ Riley }
                          
Inhale. 
Exhale.
Repeat. 
                          
The routine went on for hours everyday but no one knew, and I'd like to keep it that way. 
                          
I took the cigarette away from my mouth, threw it to the floor and stepped on it. I knew I wasn't done with just one so I took another cigarette from the box on the table by me and dug out lighter from my pocket. It wasn't just any regular cigarette that I was smoking, the cigarette contained weed which makes me happy, and shouldn't people do whatever they want to make themselves happy? I brought the cigarette to my lips and then took to lighter and lit the cigarette.
                          
I was out on the balcony sitting on a chair by the table. I lived in an apartment shared with my boyfriend James, we've been together for 4 years and I've started my so called "addiction" 2 years ago, but James doesn't know anything and I'm fine with it. 
                          
You may be wondering 'Riley, your in your apartment that you live in with James wouldn't he see you?' Well no, James has been gone for 2 days so far because he's going to some concert he's been talking about for so long
< that I haven't listened or payed any attention to one bit > with his "bro's" Eldon, and West. He's supposed to be gone for a week so that means no sneaking to the bar for a week and I can do whatever I want here at home. 
                          
I threw my second cigarette to the floor and stomped on it, I saw the residue the cigarettes left on the ground and carefully swept it off the edge of the balcony to the ground. I went to my bathroom and took out an air freshener from the cabinet and went back to the balcony and left it on the table. I took my cigarettes and lighter inside and hid it in my coat pocket hung up in my closet. James never goes in my closet unless I ask him so he won't see it. 
                          
As I walked toward the kitchen I felt thirsty so I rummaged through the fridge and finally found something to drink. I took out the beer can from the many packs I bought just so I can have it for the week because I know I'll finish it way before James comes home. I walked out my kitchen and jumped onto the couch in the living room and turned on my TV. There wasn't much happening on TV at the moment so I connected my phone to the TV and set up YouTube. I searched up 'Freakish season 1 episode 1' and started to watch. (WATCH THE SHOW ITS FUCKING AMAZING IF YOU WATCH DEGRASSI THEN BE HAPPY CAUSE AISLINN IS IN IT AND SO IS LIZA AND LIZA IS FUCKING BAE❤!) 
                          
Right as the intro started my drink was halfway done so I chugged the rest and threw it to the floor. I ran to my kitchen and got out a pack of beer cans out and ran back to see the show.  
                          
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I was on the 10th episode also know as the season finale (not happy about that 😑 made me cry at the end) and I was already done my pack of cigarettes and beer cans except for the can I was drinking right now. I feel so dizzy right now but it's fine it'll probably stop in a few minutes. I was so caught up in drinking my drink I didn't notice that someone entered the apartment until I heard the loud "WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED". I'm in deep shit.
                          
~•~
                          
"J-Jamesss? Your back early.." 
                          
"Riley what the fuck is up right now and don't lie to me." God he sounds so pissed right now, maybe if I tell a small lie and distract him he'll leave it. 
                          
"Well you see, I had a small reunion and these guys.. Yeah these guys uhh th-" 
                          
"Riley you haven't even explained much and I already know your lying to my face right after I specifically told you not to."
"James, I uh had a party?" 
"FUCK Ri, I told you after lying to me not to lie again and what do you do? Oh right you lie again!" 
"I'm sorry!" I sob and hide my face into a pillow. 
I tried to get up so I can lock myself in the bathroom but right as I got up I felt super dizzy and fell back onto the couch where everything soon turned black.