Josh pov
It had been 3days since Jaymi rang me and I can't bring myself to ring George or go and see him. Im worried how he may react will he cry or be really angry at me still, I don't know which one will be worse. Since Jaymi rang all the shame and guilt has come back I feel terrible again.
I know I need to ring him, speak to him and try and sort this out i need my career. I need to be able to support my little girl, I need to be able to give her everything she needs and union j need to stay together. Ive been on the social media sights and our fans are totally devastated. I don't know how they found out we might have split up its most properly something do with paparazzi but the response is horrible to read ive cried over some of the things out fans were saying. I know we are many girls role models and they looks up to us, if we can't figure everything out and stay strong how can we expect our fans to be strong and get through hard patch's in there lives. Ive always tried to encourage our fans to be happy and solve problems but I feel like a hypocrite now because I can't bring myself to solve this huge problem I have caused.
Thinking about my fans made me drag myself of my sofa and quickly out the house. I drove the small distance between mine and Georges in silence trying to think of the best thing to say.
when I pulled up in George's drive way my hand were shaking I felt nervous. I rubbed my hands over my face many times trying to prepare myself. I can do this, I need to do this I told myself over and over.
A few seconds later I stepped out my car and went to Georges door, once I knocked I heard russling so u quickly turned around and spotted a man with a camera. I put on a huge fake smile like I always do when there is paparazzi around to try avoid stories been wrote I don't want our fans more upset when I turned to the door it slowly opened and JJ waved me inside.
He looked happy but soon as I stepped in the house and the door was shut it was another story. His whole body language and mood changed he looked fed up and really angry. He must know there is paparazzi outside and put on a fake smile as well.
it was silent and not a peaceful silent it was awkward so I spoke first after a few seconds of me and JJ just staring at each other well him giving me evil looks.
