Family

                                    

                                          
1 hour later
                          
Kpov
                          
I woke up and noticed Peyton wasn't next to me anymore. I was a little confused but didn't worry. Rob probably took her downstairs. I looked over at the clock, it was 1am. I got out of bed and went to the bathroom before I quietly went downstairs. I smiled at what I found. rob was laying on the couch with Peyton in his arm on his one side they were both asleep. I couldn't help but smile. they both looked comfortable and rob doesn't even get time with his daughter so I just went back upstairs and watched tv for a little while.
                          
2 hours later, 3am
                          
I was already heading downstairs for some coffee and was at the top of the stairs when I heard Peyton start to cry. I went down and went over to them and carefully took her from rob and settled on the other part of the couch. I began feeding her. I could hear Rob start to get up and looked over to him
                          
"Is she ok?" he asked
                          
"Yeah, she's just hungry."
                          
"How did you hear her from up there?"
                          
"I was already on my way down for coffee when she started crying"
                          
"How long have you been awake?
                          
"About three hours but you two looked so cute so I just let you be"
                          
"Well thank you"
                          
"Well, you don't get to spend much daddy daughter time with her so I figured I would leave her with you but I knew she was hungry when she started crying so. and how long was it going to take you to wake up after she started crying?? I giggled at the last part
                          
"Kris, it's not like that. I started waking up but I felt you pick her up so I figured I could take my time"
                          
I smiled at him and then looked back down at Peyton who was slowly falling back to sleep. We both watched as her eyes fluttered close. I unlatched her and burped her. and then handed her back to Rob. I watched them as he laid back against the cushions putting her on his chest.
                          
"You two look so great together," I Said to him.
                          
"You think so?"
                          
"Yeah...you know what's crazy?"
                          
"What?"
                          
"I never thought you would come back..you were dead set on not wanting to be apart of her life and look where we are now."
                          
"It's funny how things worked out. I think I was taking my anger out on you and her and that was not right. I hated myself even more after I left the hospital when I saw you after you had her. asking you to give her up. I couldn't believe I did that. why would I ever expect you to listen to me and give her up after all you two have been through together, I could tell that night, that I was ranting to you. just by the way you were holding her and talking to her that you really did love her."
                          
"Yes, I loved her very much and still do obviously" I giggled. "did my mom tell you what happened during my pregnancy?"
                          
"Nope...I didn't know anything between when I was stupid and left you until you went into labor. Besides the adoption."
                          
I went on telling him the story of my hospital run at 33 weeks. and how I could have lost Peyton and thats how I came to keeping her. I also told him how I wished he was there when it happened. I didn't hold anything back. I looked at him when I was done explaining, he looked like he was about to cry.
                          
"Kris..."
                          
"I wanted you there so bad. you would have known right then and there how much emotional and mental pain I was in."
                          
"I know, if I would have known that you were in the emergency room I would have hauled my ass down there, whether you wanted me there or not."
                          
I giggled. "the truth is I probably would have screamed at you. I mean yes I did want you there but the other part of me wanted to kill you. I mean obviously not for getting me pregnant, thats probably the best thing you could have done. looking back on it now."
                          
"I know what you mean."
                          
"Rob, can I ask you a question?"
                          
"Of course"
                          
"What were you so angry and upset about? that made you leave us? and I want the truth, Rob."
                          
"It was never at you, or her. even though I was taking it out on you both and I shouldn't have. I knew we wanted to wait to have kids and I don't know...I felt like leaving at that time would be the best option. I was afraid you were mad at me and I felt like I wasnt ready for this responsibility. it was a couple months after I left you that I finally felt like I made a huge mistake and then I found out about your adoption plan and I felt like it might have been for the best. I mean i know you werent ready and I wasnt ready and I thought I would stay away for a little while longer until you went through with the adoption and then we could move on without messing our babies life up. and then when I saw you after you had her, in the hospital bed with her I realized that you didnt have the strength to go through with it and then I freaked out again. not seeing how you were ever going to take care of her. I was scared for you and for us all. I just didnt want us to mess up and I felt like thats what we were doing if I stayed with you and if you kept her. I felt like she was better off with someone else so we didnt have the chance to mess her up..sounds stupid doesnt it?"
                          
no Rob, not at all. I had the same fear, that I was going to mess up and I also felt like she was better off with someone else and thats why I was going to do the adoption but, I couldnt. I could never imagine myself being able to hand over to those people when I love her so much. I felt like I couldnt be what she needs but then I realized I had to try. she was all i had left in this world and i wasnt going to just abandon her. there was no way and looking back now...im glad I didnt 
                          
Peyton started to whimper trying to raise her head off of Rob's chest to look around but epically failing. she was getting more frustrated as she couldn't find what she was looking for or more like who she was looking for. even though as her mother I shouldn't be,  I was giggling a little bit
                          
"You want your mommy?" Rob asked her as he looked at her and at me. he got up handing her over to me. Peyton immediately calmed down at contact with me, curling up against my chest before falling back asleep.
                          
"I'm going to take her upstairs. I want to try and get a few more hours of sleep" I whispered to Rob as I got up
                          
"Yeah sounds good. goodnight Kristen or should I say good morning."
                          
"Haha very funny Rob," I said as I headed up the stairs. "goodnight" I called back to him.