Chapter 14

                                    

                                          
"Can we go shopping for baby clothes today, please?" Amy begged as I got down for breakfast, chuckling to her enthusiasm, I've been three weeks pregnant and she's acting like he or she is coming any minute soon. 
                          
"It's kinda early, isn't it?" I chuckled and sat down, gazing through all the food she had placed on the table for breakfast. Bacon sandiwich with extra mayo. How the fuck did she know exactly what I was craving for at the moment?
                          
Harry hadn't tried to call me yesterday, or didn't even send a text, which made me extremely sad, but that's what I self wanted, but I was already regretting it, - Amy was right, the problems between Harry and I, should be solved by talking to eachother, not by overthinking alone.
                          
But I think it would be fine if I stayed for a few days and spent some time with Amy, get to know her better and stuff, even though I do appreciate her and am glad that she's with my dad, daddy couldn't have picked better.
                          
"Well.. Maybe, but I want to be the best stepgrandma that boy or girl can have" she shrieked excitedly and I rolled my eyes, taking a bite from the sandwich, it made my heart jump. I've never tasted anything better. Shit, I want this woman to move in with me and Harry, she can cook better than anyone.
                          
"Grandma, Amy, no stepgrandma, grandma" I smiled a little and saw how her eyes softened a little bit, if it was possible in any matter, but that's how I really felt. I'm not saying this woman is my mother, or is ever going to be, but I feel like I want her to be a fullday grandma to my little baby, not just someone who's distant but buys gifts every now and then, I want Amy to love the baby and be a big part of his or hers life, just like I want my dad and Harry's nana to be too. 
                          
"We are gonna do a little shopping for you too, honey" she smiled warmly and I rolled my eyes, eating my sandwich in peace.
                          
Harry's POV
                          
"Hey mate, it was nice boxing with you. You haven't been here for a year and a half" Robert chuckled and patted my shoulder while I just nodded, wiping the sweat off from my face.
                          
This was the only thing I could come up to doing, besides laying home and drinking. And I would feel so bad if Jenna would have just suddenly came up and saw me laying there, drunk. I promised to her ages ago that I have stopped drinking, a beer now and then didn't mean anything, but like drinking so much I can't feel anything anymore, where everything's a mess.
                          
"Yeah. I won't propably come in for awhile, I.. My girlfriend and I are on a break so I guess what I really need to do is get my shit together" I sighed, grabbing a clean t-shirt from my training bag and pulling it onto my sweaty body.
                          
"That's sad to hear. Did you cheat on her or something like that?" the older man, a friend of mine since I moved into US, asked while raising his eyebrows and I shook my head furiously.
                          
"Fuck no, I would never cheat on her. She's, uh.. pregnant. And I didn't welcome the news very well and I told her I'm not sure if she's my future so she got sad and left, saying that she needs time to think."
                          
"Pregnant? Man, congrats. I was at that kind of point with my wife once. Well actually, twice but on the second time I opened myself fully to her, I told her how much she meant to me and shit like that, and then I proposed to her, and now we've been married for 15 years" he sighed, but I took it more like an advice, I guess I should find a way to tell Jenna how much she means to me, no matter how much we fight.
                          
"Yeah, Harry fucking Styles is gonna be a dad" I smiled a bit and lifted my gaze from the floor to meet Robert's warm eyes smiling at me, and he patted my shoulder and nodded, before walking away. I sighed and leaned to the wall, the only way I know how to tell my feelings to her, is to sing. She has never heard me singing and it's the only thing I can do right now.