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Hoseok walked on a street, near Han River. As he he was walking slowly down the street, he kept on looking onto the waters surface. For some reasons he wanted to look at the reflections of the city on the water, instead of looking at the city itself. It was already dark, so the surface of the water reflected all the pretty city lights. Hoseok smiled sometimes and chuckled because of his own weirdness.
"Why would anyone want to look at the reflection instead of the view itself?" he said quietly to himself, chuckling again, because of himself. However, he kept on walking and he kept on looking at the reflections. He thought it was nice how the wind brought little waves to the water. The reflections looked funny because of that and Hoseok had to chuckle even more.
"Aish.. what am I doing?" he asked himself, again quietly. Then he stopped, still watching the reflections. Really, what was he doing there? He could spend his time better, but at the moment he didn't want to be in MONSTA Xs dorm. He would have to see Hyungwon and Minhyuk. He had to spend all his time together with them, so a little time for himself was very appreciated. Isn't it weird? He and Minhyuk broke up at good conditions, knowing they would be together again one day. And Hyungwon, well he was a special chapter, but nevertheless, Hoseok and Minhyuk knew everything would become normal again. Hyungwon just needed some time.
                          
However, Hoseok wasn't able to stay with them all the time, because he wasn't able to in the way he wanted to. He wanted to cuddle them at night and day, all the time. He wanted to feel their love and show them his. He needed both of them. He couldn't just live with one of them. Being with them just as band mates, the way they used to be, felt so wrong now. After all the love they shared. After all the time that has passed. He couldn't stay with them the way it was now. He wanted Hyungwon to forgive them.. or more him as fast as he could. Even though Hoseok didn't really know what he did wrong or what Minhyuk could have done wrong.
                          
He remembers the day they kind of got together. Back then when he took Hyungwon to his room, after Hyungwons 'nobody loves me'-whines, he actually didn't know what he was doing. Just to be honest. Actually he was just annoyed by Hungwon. He wanted to put an end to Hyungwons steady whines. That was pretty much everything. The truth, but it changed as soon as Hoseok kissed Hyungwon gently on his lips for the first time. He felt like his whole body was at high voltage. Weird isn't it? Well, but the moment Minhyuk entered their room, watching them kiss, tears running down his cheeks, something in Hoseoks brain clicked. Hyungwon seemed to understand too. Both of them took Minhyuk in a tight embrace and so their first night together started.
                          
And now? Hoseok was alone. Just because of that stupid stress, but he should have seen the problems approaching. Every member was stressed. They were exhausted and still they managed not to start a major fight. Well, maybe they were just too tired. But the relationships had to face the hardships after all. It wasn't easy for Kihyun and Hyunwoo as well. Just Jooheon and Changkyun managed to get it all together. Why did it have to be different with him and his two lover? Why couldn't they stay together? Ahh.. if you keep thinking about it, there were only childish reasons for their break up(s). Actually it was Hyungwons fault. Wasn't it? After all, he was the one who started to be jealous of Minhyuk and the one who assumed Hoseok to love Minhyuk more than Hyungwon. Stupid Hyungwon. Why did he have to think that.. do that?..
"Now I'm the one who's acting childish.." Hoseok scolded himself. It wasn't fair! Hyungwon surely had his reasons and Hoseok must have done something to make Hyungwon believe something like that. And he felt so sorry for Minhyuk. The one who suffered the most. Hoseok saw Minhyuks tears. He saw the pain Hyungwon, and probably Hoseok as well, caused him. Ahh! All of that was so childish! Really! And now he couldn't even stay with them anymore? Because he couldn't stay with them the way he liked? What a lame excuse!! He could be the one bringing them back together! But what is he doing? Walking besides the Han River, watching the reflections at the waters surface, thinking about their childish actions?? This wasn't right. Right now he should be on his way back to the dorm, talking to his lovers, telling them how much he loves them, how much he needs them and get them to be happy again. Damn, he wanted to see Minhyuk and Hyungwon happy again! Was it that hard? He could punch himself right now, but still he couldn't go back. His stupid heart. No, his stupid pride! Fuck his pride!! But still, he couldn't return. Why? Well, if he knew he wouldn't be walking here anymore, right? However, he was here.
                          
Hoseok kept on walking, watching the reflections and thinking. After some time he felt cold. He wasn't sure if it was because it was November or because he hadn't seen his lovers for a while now. He should return before he catches a cold, but out here, it was so beautiful. So calm. He would stay a little longer. Eventually he sat down on a park bench. He was still watching the reflections. He leaned back and looked towards the sky. The moon shone brightly and the stars did as well. 'Such a beautiful night~' he thought. A few minutes later he stood up and walked towards the water. He looked at his reflection in the water, but all he saw were Hyungwons and Minhyuks faces. He blinked a few times, but the reflections of his lovers didn't fade. Was he imagining things now? Was he really that lonely without them?? Or did he just fell asleep on that stupid park bench behind him??
"Seokie-hyung~ we finally found you!" Minhyuks reflection started to say. Wait! It talked!!
"Hyung, are you alright?" now Hyungwons reflection asked. What happened here?! Suddenly he felt the hands on his shoulders, which he just noticed in the reflection. He surely was going crazy or something..
"Do you think he is still angry with us, Wonnie?" Minyhuks reflection asked Hyungwons, even looking at the other reflection.
"Hmm.. no I think he got a fever.." Hyungwons reflection answered.
"Uh.. why that?"
"He's not listening to us.. so I don't know.. maybe he's sick? After all he avoided us for the past few days.. maybe he didn't want us to get sick too!"
"Ehh.. I'm sorry, but I don't think that's the reason.." Minyhuks reflection laughed. 'Why am I able to hear them!?' Hoseok thought, not even thinking about the possibility that his lovers just stood beside him.
"Am I dreaming?" Hoseok finally managed to ask the two reflections. Minhyuk turned Hoseok towards him, smiling at him.
"What are you talking about Hyung?"
"Y..you're here??" Hoseok had to blink a few times more.
"Yep!" Minyhuk answered. "And look!!.." Minhyuk nodded his head towards Hyungwon. "Wonnie is here too~ we were searching for you for an hour now!! What are you doing here, all by yourself?" Minyhuk asked and Hoseok didn't know what to answer. Hyungwon smiled at Hoseok and leaned his head on Minhyuks shoulder.
"Hey there Hyung!" Hyungwon said, smiling as well. Hoseok looked at their smiling faces, feeling tears welling up in his eyes. He took both of them into an embrace. He didn't care if anybody could see them. He just wanted to hug them tightly towards himself. The younger two chuckled at their hyungs sudden action. They put their arms around Hoseok as well and so they stayed like that for quite a while. Enjoying the others presence.
                          
"So will you answer me now Hyung?" Minhyuk asked again after several minutes passed by.
"I.. I needed some time for myself.." Hoseok answered honestly, head hanging low, looking at the ground.
"Hey.." Hyungwon bent a little so he was able to look at Hoseoks face. "..why would you want to be without us?" Hyungwon asked with a smile on his face.
"I..I.. I just.. to be honest.. I didn't want to be with you two.. because.. I can't stand it the way it's between us now.." Hoseok looked away, hot tears running down his cheeks. Minhyuk took Hoseoks face between his hands and wiped away the tears with his thumbs.
"Don't cry.. please.. you know I have to start crying as well!!" Minhyuk whined. Hyungwon was now the one, who took both of them in a tight embrace.
"I'm sorry for causing this whole break-up-problem for the three of us.. please forgive me.. I..I love you two so much.. I.. was jealous.. and I don't know why I acted so strange all those past weeks.." Hyungwon explained.
"We love you too, right Soekie~?" Minyhuk managed to say trough all those hiccups he had. Hoseok just nodded, he wasn't able to talk now. All he wanted to do was never ever let go of them again.
                          
After some more minutes passed, they decided to head back to the dorm. They took each other by the hands and walked slowly. They didn't have to rush back to the dorm. Now, they had all the time they wanted. Hoseok didn't look at the reflections on the water even once at their way back home. The only thing he could look at were the happy faces of his lovers. He smiled. All his thoughts, from before, seemed so unnecessary now. Just childish.  Really childish. What was he even thinking? But it wasn't important anymore. He knew he could be happy again. He knew he could stay with them again. Cuddle them again. Love them again.
                          
Next time he would take a walk besides the Han River, he would make sure those two would be with him.