sept 7, 2016

                                    

                                          
okay. so it's 40 minutes past midnight, so this entry is still technically yesterday's entry. anyways.

                          
it's like, day two of this project thing and i already failed because i didnt write my thousand words yesterday bUT that was only because i had two friends sleeping over and i couldn't exactly start writing a thousand words with them there, so there's my excuse.
                          
so, the town festival ended yesterday and mondays are always my favourite of it, and i guess it was this year, too. i'm not gonna lie though, this year generally aws pretty disappointing. i would've loved to stay longer yesterday, but then lena's boyfriend kept saying he'd bring us home as soon as we wanted to leave, and i told him that's fine, because kristin and lea were staying  at my place anyways so none of us would be walking home alone anyways. mainly it was because lena and ben (the boyfriend) had a fight and it was kinda awkward and i didn't want to be in the middle of that. where i always end up though. 

                          
i think it's because, since i'm lena's best friend, she obviously always talks to me about it pretty quickly so i'm always up to date, and then ben comes up to me and i really don't know how to act because it's kinda like?? dude i reeeally like you but you're kinda fighting with my best friend and frankly i don't know the rules of the girls code so i really have no fucking idea if i'm trespassing by talking to you or like?? 

                          
anyways, ben also knows i'm a reasonable person, and to be perfectly honest lena does get upset about ridiculous things sometimes, so he goes to ask me what lena has told me or what i think about the entire situation, or - which is always weird - he doesn't even know lena is mad at him, and i just don't know if i should tell him or not.
                          
honestly, i'm not really feeling up to the challenge today. i was perfectly happy all day, with waking up two of my best friends being there and reading p.s. i still love you by jenny han when they left. i organized a ride to get to practice so my brother wouldn't have to drive me, which led to me seeing my friend (samira) again after actual ages, and she's so sweet and i just love her lots. so then in handball practice i actually had fun (most of the time, anyways) because i got to see my team mates again and also working out after some time felt pretty good.
                          
 like, i just love the feeling you get after working out. there's nothing quite like it. you just feel somewhat refreshed and you know your body is thankful for it, even though it might not have felt like that during actually working out.
                          
so then i drove home with samira, which was even more fun than the first ride, because we just put on loud music and sang along and danced a little and i just felt SO good. there was also a pretty sunset outside which made everything sweeter and we were singing along and laughing and i just love music and i love car rides and i love samira and that all combined just made me so perfectly happy, it was great.
                          
back at home, i went straight to my room and started reading again (yes, i am obsessed). i do this horrible thing whenever i get into a good book - or show or movie really - where i ignore most everything around me because all i'm able to think about is that damn storyline and what's gonna happen next and what not. 

                          
okay, now that i remember it, i didnt get straight back into reading, i listened to some music first and did some things for my twitter, during which my brother and his girlfriend knocked on my door and came in. my brother said "do you notice anything?" and i said tf no and thought he'd done something to my room and got kinda anxious but then he stepped closet and i realized there were eyebrows drawn in his face (my brother lost all of his hair when he was 16/17. he handles it incredibly well - not that i'd thought anything else from him. he's very confident and popular, he knows how to win people over with his charm - but it bothers him that he doesn't have any eyebrows. i tell him it's fine, and that it really goes unnoticed but i can tell it upsets him)
                          
so then i finally noticed and he asked if it looked very weird and i said i'd barely noticed, because it was very faint and he was kind of giddy and unsure and it was cute. we talked a bit more and his girlfriend was really nice. they've only been dating for a few weeks so i don't really know her that well. i mean i already knew she was nice because she's friends with one of my other friends, but that was the first time i actually talked to her at home with my brother around. she's the girl-next-door kinda girl. very likable. she's a lot like me, i think. just prettier. probably. i probably can't really judge that. i don't know what i'm talking about anymore.
                          
i still have another 100 words to go, and i still have stuff to talk about, but the thing that's on my mind would take up way more than a hundred words, and as i've said before, i don't really feel like writing today, so i think i'll just keep it to myself. i knew from the start i wouldn't write about it, even though it was the only thing i was thinking about when i opened this page. it's weird how things just flow to my mind sometimes.
                          
anyways, i think it's one of those things i'm just going to keep to myself. savour it for myself to think back on. that makes the memory a lot more precious. 

                          
there we go. 1016 words. i only really wrote bullshit today, but i'm not really feeling a lot like myself right now so i didn't really want to do it anyways. honestly, i just kind of wanted to get it over with. bye.