We breath, don't leave

                                    

                                          
  I watched the white ceiling above me, there was a few glow in the dark stars which were old and useless. I was on a foreign bed, holding hands with Tony who still slept on the floor next to the bed. The memory from last night brought me some heat to my body, and suddenly I felt that I did all the things I'm not usually do in my sober mind every day.
Tony's light breath reminded me how he calmed me down the night before, promising me that he will protect me from my nightmares. The pillow had his smell, and it felt weird to smell it while Tony was sleeping next to me. Tony's grip in my hand tightened and he left my hand alone in this cold air.
"Hey, good morning" Tony said with a smile. "You had a nightmare last night" he brought it like something you usually talk about in the morning.
"That's why you slept on the floor? It your bed anyways, you could sleep here too..." I whispered quietly.
"You told me the same thing last night, but when you fell asleep I decided to sleep on the floor. You didn't want to release my hand" he pointed out the big elephant in the room which made all the situation weirder.
"You need to eat something, so let's go" he stood up with a smile from the floor.
"Where we are going? You don't have food in your fridge?" he scratched nervously his head and laughs his amazing laugh.
"Well, when you called me my friend just left and took all my food in their belly" he had this innocent look in his eyes. He looked so young and handsome man.
"Where are we going?" I asked with shyness in my question.
"Wherever you want to go" Tony said and raised me again from the bed, leaving me wordless. I hugged his neck and he carried me to the living room which I didn't notice last night. When Tony gently placed me on the couch our eyes crossed over and we stared into each other eyes for a minute. Too short one minute.
"Let's go eat some breakfast" Tony said with a smile which reflected in his eyes.
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When we finished our breakfast in a dinner down the street we decided to come back to Tony's place, since I still was terrified to go back to my apartment. Inside, I think we just wanted to stay together for as long as we can. We talked about everything that jumped into our crazy minds and for the first time I was happy to be with someone.
"I'm glad that I met you" Tony told me when he closed the door behind me.
"Same" I said with my regular shy whisper.
"Let's watch a movie. Go pick something and I'll go find something to eat" I laughed at Tony because we ate 20 minutes ago, but I was happy to something with him.
In the middle of the movie Tony pulled me into his arms. We sat hugged and covered with the blanket that I found on the couch.
"I'm happy, you know" he whispered and tightened his hug. To be honest, I never been so intimate with anyone and this butterflies were new to me too. At this point, the last thing that interested me was the movie.
Tony and I spent our Saturday night watching movies and cuddling. At some point we realized that I need to go and deal with reality. Tony walked me to the door, looking sad but he hide it with a smile which didn't reflect in his eyes like before.
"I don't want you to go. You probably tired and sick of me..." I found that Tony is not the guy with the self-confidence he showed me all day. He was shy like me and amazing person who needed love. Like me.
"So ask me to stay..." I need to do the first move, to show him that I'm interested in him. Tony's eyes widened and relief appeared on his gaze.
"Please stay"
We found ourselves in each other's embrace, forehead to forehead, looking into each other's eyes. His hand patted my cheek, and finely our lips connected with bittersweet tears and happiness.