⇻ I have always loved the moonlight it wasn't something new but for some reason that night the moon made me feel calmer and more relaxed than usual. It kind of made me feel like I was... home.⇺
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Date: October 10th 1915
"I'm sure that you know that you and her are both going to be in pain in the end." Jungkook said as he crossed his arms over his chest. "I know but there is a part of me who still has hope that our love will be accepted and it will work out. I can't give up that easily." I sighed heavily. "Hoseok, I've never fell in love before but I know that it's a beautiful feeling yet very painful when it doesn't end with the two people together." He said as he disheveled his hair in frustration then leaned over forward to be closer to me. "Listen to me, think about it. If you get caught by the royal family the King won't spare your life and word would come out, people are not going to want a princess who followed her heart instead of her head, people won't think of her as a wise queen. You're not only destroying your life but also hers. Oh also sooner or later she'll find out that you betrayed her, I don't think she'll be able to stay with you." Every word he said was right but I was foolish, my heart tried to disagree with his words.
"Hoseok, just try to control your emotions for her, when you're done teaching her art just leave and never look back for her." He added. "Jungkook please can you just for once not talk about Isabella and I?" I sighed heavily as I rolled my eyes because I was truly tired from the same topic he keeps talking about.
"I'm telling you this because I care about you and even her. I truly want you to follow your heart but in reality it's going to be a sad ending. I can't watch that happen while not doing anything." Jungkook told me. I could tell that he was starting to become frustrated because he wasn't able to convince me or make things go how he wants.
I laid down on the grass as I placed both my hand under my head and looked at the mesmerizing dark blue sky as the stars were shining brightly but the moon took first place, it's bright light lit up the sky around it.
"Believe me my mind knows it's wrong but my heart longs for her which is hard for me to make my heart do what I say." I said halfheartedly. "He placed his hand on my shoulder and said "It takes time, I'm not saying to forget her in one night from the very first try. I just don't want you to go further with her in this relationship." I didn't move an inch and kept looking at the sky as I felt like tears were forming in my eyes but I kept my eyes open so they won't fall, if I blinked it would drop on my cheeks. My heart was aching, even if I showed her my true feelings for her I couldn't show it all because I was scared that we'll get caught also at the same time I couldn't just back away from her because she was so precious to me.
"The ball is in two weeks please don't make a move on her or do any obvious action. Everyone is going to keep their eyes on the princess so if you get closer to her everyone will keep an eye on you too." Jungkook said. I felt like he was nagging over my head but it didn't bother me that much because I was thinking about something else. I was thinking what will happen in the Royal Ball and the true reason why it was held.
"Three months left. Just hold it in. Endure it please." He added and I repeated to myself 'Three months Hoseok.' 'Maybe if I leave I'll never see her again but at the same time I didn't want to leave her.' I thought to myself.
I kept looking at the sky thinking about her and what I had to do to protect her even if it would put my life in danger. I wasn't supposed to fall in love with her but my heart didn't ask for my permission and just fell for her, my mind knows it was wrong but it ignored that and made my eyes lay on her. I didn't know what to do but I knew I had to try my best to not do something foolish in the ball. I vowed to myself that I'd try my best to make everything right.
