Chapter 9

                                    

                                          
It’s been three weeks since Sam defended me in front of everyone and everything was surprisingly fine. Of course she had to deal with harassment and stuff for about a week but now everything calmed down. People envied her for standing up to Bianca and not letting her do her thing. Well… Those people were mostly the not so popular ones, but still. She did something no one had the courage to and that was why a few people, especially Freshmen, looked up to her.
                          
With each day Sam and I grew closer. It was weird to have someone to talk to and to take all the worries and the pain off of you. She never failed to amaze me with everything she did. Even a simple joke of her could make me laugh so hard that I actually rolled on the floor and cried. Ever since she stepped into my life, she changed it. Like completely changed it. I was going out more often the last weeks and people at school actually left me alone. I wasn’t feeling depressed or tired anymore. I felt alive. Apparently people didn’t lie when they told me nobody can make you smile for nothing except for the person who's always on your mind. And god... Sam really was on my mind whatever I was doing. She was the first thought I woke up with and the last thought I went to bed with. She simply made me happy. And I was glad I finally could forget about all the bad things that happened to me. 
                          
Sam and I were like best friends now. We did everything together and although dad made a room for her in the house, she decided to stay with me in mine. Anna already said we were like Siamese twins, glued to the hips because no matter where one of us went, the other one went with her. I really liked her. Which is why I began to feel scared. I liked her too much. I was supposed to like her as a friend or a sister but… But those feelings inside of me were definitely different. They were far more. At least I thought so. I’ve never had such feelings for Josh nor for Mary. Not even for my first girlfriend. So it had to be more but she would never like me back. I was sure she was straight like a pole, while I was straight like a circle. It couldn’t be that she actually liked me. So I kept my hopes down. Every time I’ve looked at her longer than I should have, I pinched my arm or bit my finger. And it worked. The pain distracted me from my feelings for her.
                          
With each day that passed my feelings increased. When I first thought she looked good I now thought she looked absolutely stunning and breathtaking. When I first thought her laugh was cute I now thought it was contagious and the most amazing sound I’ve ever heard. Mhm… I was totally whipped. But how couldn’t I be? She was perfect in every single way. 
                          
Right now Sam and I were sitting in the cinema waiting for the movie to start. We were on a double date. Yep… She actually made me go. She was sitting to my left with Ben, one of the school’s jocks, and to my right was Mandy, my date. Mandy was cute, no offense. And I’m sure if I wouldn’t have those feelings towards Sam, I’d definitely fall for her. But the heart wants what the heart wants. Sam and Ben were talking animatedly and laughing while Mandy and I sat in an awkward silence. As the movie began I muttered a silent “Thank god” under my breath and sunk into my seat trying to concentrate on the screen. And it worked. For half of the movie. That was until I looked to my left to see Sam and Ben kissing. My heart ached at the sight in front of me. Tears were welling up in my eyes and my breathing got heavy. I forced myself to look away, put a smile on my face and looked at Mandy.
                          
»Excuse me, I need to go to the restroom.« With that I stood up and literally ran out of the room. On my way to the toilet it was hard for me not to break down crying. But as soon as I entered it, I let myself fall to the ground and buried my face in my hands. My sobs were uncontrollably and the tears were streaming down my face like rivers. I couldn’t really breathe anymore and my heart was hurting like it never did before. Not even when I came out only to find out my girlfriend never really was mine. But all the crying stopped when I felt someone placing their hands on my shoulders. Then they placed one of their hands under my chin and lifted my head up. Great. Exactly who I wanted to see right now.
                          
»Colbs, what’s wrong?« Sam asked with concern in her voice. I simply shook my head trying to scoot away from her but she made it impossible when she wrapped her arms around me. »Tell me.«
                          
»Don’t touch me!« I yelled pushing her away. The last thing I needed right now was for her to touch me. She looked hurt and confused but still masked it with a worried expression.
                          
»Colby, why are you crying? You know you can trust me.« Her dark eyes were piercing right through me and something in me snapped making me spat everything out.
                          

                          
»You want to know what is wrong with me?!« I yelled at her. »What’s wrong with me is that I’m stupid, alright?! I’m stupid for ever thinking I could change who I am or deny what I’m feeling! And I’m surely stupid because of how much I like you!« The tears were rolling down my cheeks again and Sam looked at me confused. »I like you as more than just a friend or a sister, alright, Sam?! I want to be with you!« And finally it was out in the open. Everything I’ve been feeling the past weeks. It felt like a heavy stone fell from my heart. And somehow I was relieved. Now I only had to accept Sam’s reaction. I had to accept it if she pushed me away and never wanted to talk to me again. And from the blank look on her face it was the only thing possible...
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Here it is! Chapter 9! :3
                          
So was it worth the wait? Huh? :D
                          
Next chapter will be up next Saturday and I hope you guys liked it! ;)
                          
Maeggaey xx