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"Hey beautiful snap out of it, I suddenly come
Back to the present moment and look into her beautiful blue eyes. 
"Can I have a whiskey on the rocks and four tequila shoots please and get yourself one to, she just winks at me.
                          
My phone keeps ringing I have multiple miss calls of Hayley and Kirstie but I just turn my phone of.
"They you go beautiful, anyone important??"
"Nope no one, cheers. I just smile at her. 
                          
I have been trying to get in touch with Demi for 4 hours now, I mean Mia hasn't seen her for 2 weeks nearly and she hasn't even bothered to ring to see if she is okay. I decide to ring Kirstie...
"Hello".
"Hey Kirstie I was just wondering if Demi was finished yet".
"What do you mean??"
"Like when will she be home??"
"Hayley Demi walked out the press event hours ago I thought she was at home."
"WHAT!! So no one knows where she is".
"Don't panic Hayley I'm sure she is okay, "yeah lay time I didn't panic I nearly lost her to drink and drugs and I'm not doing that again".
"Don't worry Hayley I will find her I promise".
"Please just bring her home Kirstie".
                          
So I have been at this bar for 4 hours and I totally forgot how amazing drinking was, this girl is just so fucking hot, she walks out from
Behind the bar and pulls me to the toilets and we enter a cubical. She pulls a clear bag out her back pocket with a white powder in it and I take a line and my life flashes before my eyes the darkness that I have missed so much is back. She grabs the back of my head and pulls me in to kiss her and I stop as our noses touch, "wait stop, "why what's wrong with me".
"There's nothing wrong with you, your beautiful, and I could fuck you in this cubical
Right now, but I'm bad news for you and the crazy thing is I'm getting married and I'm so
Madly in love with my fiancé that this would be a huge mistake". 
I lean in and kiss her on the cheek, "your fiancé is a lucky girl". I smile at her and walk out the toilets to a very angry Kirstie. 
"Demi your fucking kidding me".
"Kirstie get of my back I had a few drinks, "and some coke I see". "Honestly Kirstie I'm fine okay I'm going home". "Yeah you are because your fiancé and daughter are waiting at home for you".
"Yeah I no Kirstie". 
"Then get you fucking ass home Demi because I'm not letting you throw this away you have worked so hard to stay sober".
"Okay I get it".
Kirstie drives me home and when I walk in the house everything is dark I head to the kitchen, for a class of water, when I do the kitchen light turns on.
"Demi??"
"Yeah baby".
"Where have you been??"
"No where".
"Don't lie to me please Demi".
"If you really want to no I was at a bar with a really hot girl who I could have fucked but didn't".
"WHAT THE FUCK DEMI!!"
"WHAT HAYLEY YOU THROUGH MY FUCKING HEAD OF THE BRICK WALL AND I LOST MY BABY 2 DAYS AGO HAYLEU I NEEDED A FUCKING DRINK".
"BUT YOU HAVE WORKED SO FUCKING HARD TO BE SOBER AND TO TAKE A GIRL
IN A TOILET TO FUCK REALLY".
"YEAH BUT I DIDINT HAYELY BECAUSE I FUCKING LOVE YOU TO BITS AND I WOULD DO ANYTHING TO TAKE EVERY MISTAKE I EVER MADE BACK BUT I FUCKING CANT".
"Demi I just want us to be back to the place we where".
"But Hayley we never will be to much has happened life goes on I want to marry you, but we have to deal with shit because I can't do this on my own I want you there but if you never going to trust me again then what's the point".
"Demi I want to so much, but I'm scared you will choose him over me at some point".
"Hayley I'm never ever going to do that I didn't fuck that girl tonight because I wanted it to be you, I want us to be in love again, to be sexy and fuck when and where ever we want to."
"I do sleep with you Demi, "only when your drunk Hayley and that's because you can't stand to touch me I no it".
"I promise you Demi I want you I really do...."
"Then let's stop talking and come here".