Chapter 12

                                    

                                          
Maddie's POV
                          


                          
"I'm so sorry." I whispered as the blade got closer and to my skin. I could feel the pain leaving my body already and the blade hadn't even touched me yet.  But then I heard someone walking past my room I ran over to the bathroom door and locked it before anyone could come into my room and see me. I once again stood in front of the mirror the blade getting closer and closer. I could feel it on my skin and I was about to press down. "MADDIE. DON'T DO THIS. PLEASE." I heard Bucky shout through the door. "I'm sorry but I have to do this. I tried to give up. You tried to save me but I'm too deep. I can't be saved, no matter how hard you try. Something always sets me off." I said in between my tears. "Maddie listen to me don't do it. We all love you. Especially me. But if you keep doing this Bruce won't be able to save you please." He said whilst trying to open the door. "I'm not as strong as you think. Please just leave me alone." I said and once again put the blade on my wrist. "Maddie. I love you so much just know that. And I will do everything I can to save you." He said and then it was silent on the other side. "Bucky." I said hoping he was still there. But there was no responce other than a sniffle. After a couple of minuets a small 'yes Maddie' came from outside the door. "I love you too. But please I'm not like everyone else on this team. I'm not mentally strong like everyone else." I said and put down the blade but didn't open the door. "Maddie, I wasn't mentally strong before. I was like you but I only ever thought of cutting. You know how I got through it. By letting people in. First it was Steve and he helped a lot then I opened up to the team. None of us were very strong at first but we all got better. By letting each other in. So please open the door. And let me help you." He said and I looked at the blade but I walked away and opened the door. "I'm sorry. I just don't like letting people see me like this. I don't like letting people in." I said and walked into his open arms. "Don't worry but give me the blades. I'm going to get rid of them. And this is going to be the last time ok. Because you will get stronger." He said and once again flusged the blades away.
                          


                          
I walked into the kitchen in the morning feeling stronger already. Maybe all I needed was to know someone really loved, in the romantic way, like the way Bucky does. It was really early so I didn't bother wearing the bracelets and it was so hot, so I rolled up my sleves. I wasn't expecting anyone to be awake but everyone musthave decided to get up early because they all came running into the kitchen asking for hot chocolates. Luckily I had time to roll down my sleves so I made everyone their drinks and decided I would make everyone waffles and as I was doing this I felt someone press up against my back and press a kiss to my cheek. "Morning doll." Bucky said and put his arms around my waist. "Wait when did that happen?" Tony asked as Bucky and I sat down next to eachother. "Last night. So don't make a big fuss." I said and felt my cheeks burn red. "AW. They are so cute." Clint said as I buried my face in Bucky's chest. "Ok, let's stop annoying the love birds and eat these lovely waffles that one of them made." Steve said with a warm smile on his face. "Yes let's do that." I said and reached over for one. When it was on my plate I relise I forgot to put out the chocolate sauce. I stepped up from the table and walked to the kitchen and to place where we kept it, but it was on the top shelf so I had to jump. My sleves fell so you could see the scars and that was when the sauce fell from the shelf, with some help from a blast of enery. When I went to pick it up I heard a female voice. "Maddie. What are those on your wrist?" I looked up and saw Wanda standing there with her plate and looked down to see that my scar covered wrists were on full display.