Part 10

                                    

                                          
Hannah's POV

                          
He runs up to me with a knife in his hand and I'm suddenly running down streets with thousands of people cheering on my Dad I take a left and find my self at a dead end, he slowly walks up to me with a phycotic grin on his face "this is what you get for letting them die" he raises the knife and gives me one last smile and counts down "5.......4......3......2......1"

                          
I wake up with Ashton beside me, yelling at me I scream and scramble off the bed and run into the bathroom locking the door behind me. Ashtons outside the door shouting " Hannah tell me what happened please, you can trust me"
                          
**Trigger Warning**

                          
"No" I whisper "I can't trust anyone" I repeat this a few times when I remember something that one of the older girls at the orphange told me. One cut and it all goes away. I search the bathroom cabinet for a razor and find one. I expertly disemble it and start to run the cool metal across my wrist. 1 its all your fault 2. you dont deserve the boys 3. Your ugly 4. Your fat 5. You drag the boys down and them I'm interupted by Ashtons screaming "Han if you dont come out in the next two minutes I'll break down the fucking door" There's something about his tone that makes me think he means it.
                          
I quickly clean up and unlock the door but I back into a corner and sit down with my head between my knees humming loudly to block out any noise, I feel a hand on my shoulder and pull away but I raise my head and stop humming. Ashton looks at me with worried eyes and says "let me see your wrists" and I start objecting until he grabs my arm and pulls up my sleeve "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry" and with that he leaves and in walks Calum "Please dont send me back" I whisper lowering my head.

                          
He looks offended and uses one finger to lift my chin "Hannah banana, we will never ever leave you" I nod and Ashton walks back in holding somethimg in his hand and I throw my hands up in front of my face, he sits down beside me and puts his hand on my arm, I let him. I lower my arms and look at him "I will never hurt you" he tells me.
                          
Ashton pulls out a pen and gestures towards my arm, when I don't respond he gently takes my arm in his hand and pulls up my sleeves,He draws a beautiful butterfly up my arm and says "all you have to do is not kill him. Got it?" I nod and he smiles, "if I can get through it, so can you"
                          
Calum's POV 

                          
At about eleven Ashton calls a house meeting so we all file into the living room. Hannah sits next to me again earning me an annoyed look from Michael " Why do you always sit next to Calum?" he complains "because he always looks the least pissed off" she replys, I stick my tounge out at him and he pouts "Ok, Ok now we need to talk about things" says Ashton
                          
"What things" mocks Luke
                          
"Look I'll just cut to the chase. Razors have now to be locked away, Hannah you need to tell us if you need the bathroom, also Hannah you won't close your bedroom door and us four need to make sure Hannah Banana isn't alone as often as she usually is" Ashton Announces, Hannah rolls her eyes so hard I'm surprised they didn't fall out her head.
                          
"Hey Hannah Banana" I say
                          
"Yes Cal-pal" she says less annoyed than I thought she'd be
                          
"Have you ever had therapy?" I ask
                          
Her small smile turns into a giant frown "No I haven't and to your next question No I don't want any and to your next question Yes I did leave my phone upstairs. Bye"
                          
"Whoa, Whoa, Whoa" Luke says blocking the door 

                          
"This meeting has not been ajourned yet, so sit" Ashton says pointing at the chair next to me
                          
"what's wrong with therapy" asks Michael
                          
"Nothing, I just don't like the idea of talking about my thoughts and feelings to a total stranger" she reply's
                          
"fair enough" ashton says "now you need to start doing school work hannah banana."