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'Josh?'
                          
The figure looked up, pulled back it's hood. 
                          
'Josh!' 
                          
I fell into his arms fast than I had ever moved before. 
                          
'Josh, I'm so s-'
                          
'Is this real?' 
                          
I held him away at arms length, watched as his face crumpled and he fell weakly to the ground. 
                          
I looked over to his bag, which he had thrown to the floor when he saw me. Saw the small, familiar box peeking out of the top. 
                          
'Josh! What did you take?!' I screamed, shaking his shoulder roughly. 
                          
'I didn't.'
                          
His eyes started to close, his body still in my arms as I leant beside him and held him upright. 
                          
'I brought the box. Tipped the pills in the river.'
                          
'Then what's wro-' Suddenly, I saw the bags, almost holes under his eyes. I saw the hollowness of his cheekbones. I felt the bones of his back pressed against my hands. 
                          
I saw the sharp edges that his body had become. 
                          
'You're ruining yourself.' I murmured. 
                          
He smiled weakly up at me. 
                          
I picked him up, holding all of his now light weight in my arms and tucked him safely into the car. 
                          
'It's okay, babe. I'm gonna get you to a hospital. They'll know what to do. You're gonna be cool- Gucci, even.' I said, my words rushed in panic. 
                          
His head turned to face me, his eyes closed, his breathing slow but there. 
                          
'I can't be ruined if you're here.'
                          
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sorry I haven't been writing much recently:( I don't have an excuse, I've just been feeling kind of low. I'm really sorry, hopefully I'll be back to normal soon xx