Guilty People

                                    

                                          
I'm naive. 
                          
I know that. 
                          
I'm nosy. I do stupid things. 
                          
I get it. 
                          
If I already learned
                          
If I already know. 
                          
Why is everyone I love constantly reminding of how much I fucked up?
                          
Every single time and subtly brought up. Someone has be like "oh I wanna explain something but it's just an example" or "you can't do this anymore do you remember..."
                          
Like yes, like all my regrets don't flood through my mind like stream and haunt me every time I close my eyes. Every time I think about it I think about how much better it would have been if I just gave up. Move on. 
                          
No one needed me. 
                          
They didn't want me to care. 
                          
I fucked it all up. 
                          
You keep reminding me of how I fucked up. 
                          
And each time it hurts me more and more. 
                          
So, my question to everyone who has apparently forgiven me,
                          
How the fuck do I forgive myself?
                          
Because I can't seem to get through the day anymore.