15.

                                    

                                          
(Sorry I haven't updated in a couple of days! Been busy! But here's chapter 16! Disclaimer: it mentions self harm/depression, if you are suffering from any of these, just know you're beautiful and I love you all okay? I'm always here to talk to anyone if they need it, alright? You're strong and you can do this.)








"Hi Tori..." Luke said, looking down at his hands again. She smiled at him and then looked at me and my stomach sank. Who's Tori?

"What can I get you guys to drink?" She asked, still looking at Luke. He stayed silent and shook his head. I looked at her and then at the menu. 

"I will get a sprite, please." Diana said and I nodded.

"Same here." I responded as Tori wrote down the orders.

"And Luke? What do you want?" She asked, looking at me then at him again.

"Water..." He swallowed and nodded as Tori wrote down his drink order. 

"Those will be out soon." She smiled and walked away. Once she was away, Luke took a deep breath and sighed. I grabbed his hand and he looked up at me.
                          
"Who's Tori, Luke?" I asked as he shook his head and looked down again.
                          
"My ex girlfriend...." He had a frown on his face, and it made me upset.. Why was he so upset?
                          
"Why is she so bad?" I asked and he stood up and pulled me out of the booth and we walked outside. 
                          
Luke took a deep breath and looked at me. "She's the reason I dropped out of school.." His face dropped. "She would bully me all the time because of the way I looked, but she loved me sooo much...She would go around telling everyone I...Nevermind that, but she would say I'm a horrible person, then she cheated on me. I truly loved Tori after dating her for 8 months, but when I found out she cheated on me, I couldn't take it anymore, I dumped her and I dropped out of school so I wouldn't have to deal with her or her friends.." He sat against the wall and I sat next to him, rubbing my arm.
                          
"Luke...you shouldn't be upset about that. She's a bitch, okay? Not worth any of your time. Look at you now! You're apart of a huge YouTube group and you're getting big and famous! You don't need her, you have me." I kissed his cheek. "You'll always have me, which I hope I always have you." Luke nodded and stood up a couple minutes later. I stood up and took his hand and walked inside, fixing my bracelets. We sat back down and my sister looked at us.
                          
"Everything alright now?" She asked as she took a sip of her drink and I nodded.
                          
"Everything's fine now." I smiled and Luke smiled small, nodding. A different waitor came back this time and looked at us. 
                          
"Hi, I'm Garrett, and I'll be serving you guys this afternoon! What can I get you guys to eat?" Luke ordered a grilled cheese with a side of soup and I got the same thing. While Diana ordered a salad and noodles. Once the waitor was away, I rested my head on Luke's shoulder and looked at my phone as I got texts from all my friends.. 
                          
I teared up, wiping under my eyes. I stood up and moved past Luke. "Excuse me, I-I'll be right back..." I walked to the bathroom and sat in the stall, crying. Everyone was saying that Noah told everyone that I self harm...Which was true, but only him, my sister, and my best friend Cheyenne knew. I held my wrist, which was covered in bracelets so no one would see my scars. I choked out a sob and wiped under my eyes again.
                          
About five minutes later, I cleaned up my face so it wouldn't look like I was crying and I walked back to the booth and our food was there. I sat next to Luke and took small bites of my food. 
                          
"You okay, babe?" Luke asked, rubbing my back. I nodded slowly and sniffled. 
                          
"Yeah.." I whispered and took another bite.
                          
"Did something happen, Drea?" Ana asked, looking at me and I grabbed my phone, texting her so Luke wouldn't hear..
                          
Andrea: Noah told everyone...
                          
Diana: About what?
                          
Andrea: That I cut...I know I shouldn't have never told him! That's why I went to the bathroom, I cried.
                          
Diana locked her phone and looked at me. "It's okay, Drea.." I nodded and pushed my plate away and rested my head on Luke's shoulder again as he rubbed my arm. 
                          
"Ready to go?" Luke asked and I nodded, standing up. We paid and left the restaurant.
                          

                          
We dropped Diana off and we then went over to Luke's house. I looked down at my phone when we pulled in the driveway, seeing all the messages to me and I shook my head, putting my phone in my pocket. Luke got out and opened my door for me. I climbed out and nodded. "Thank you..." I said and he smiled, kissing my temple. As he took my hand, we walked inside and went into his room.
                          
"So tell me what's wrong." He said as he closed the door and I sat on his bed, taking a deep breath as I took off my bracelets. Luke widened his eyes and then shook his head and sat down next to me. "Drea...." 
                          
I teared up and started crying. "T-these are j-just from two weeks ago..." I put my hand over my wrist and he moved my hand, leaning down and kissed my wrist. I looked at him, wiping under my eyes.
                          
"Why do you do this to yourself? You're absolutely beautiful, babe. You should never take a blade to your wrist or any part of your body..." He said, kissing my wrist again.
                          
"You-you're not mad?" I asked and he shook his head.
                          
"No, I'm not mad. A little upset that you would do this to yourself, but I'm not mad. People have things rough, and unfortunately, this is what they turn to. They ruin their beautiful skin because it gives them that feeling, that rush of happiness but then it fades and they keep cutting themselves..You should never harm yourself with anything because you feel lonely or upset, or forgotten..You should talk to someone about it, punch a pillow, think of something else.. Just not this..Because you're absolutely beautiful, Andrea." He kissed my forehead and my nose.
                          
I sniffled and nodded, wiping under my eyes. "I-it's just so hard...when you feel like you're losing all your friends, and your boyfriend is absolutely nothing to you and tells you that you're worthless, it just hurts and I didn't know what else to do. I had no friends, Luke! I lost everything..They are all fake." I sobbed onto his shoulder and he rubbed my back gently, trying to calm me down. 
                          
"I love you for you. Don't ever feel that you have to put a blade to your skin because you feel worthless or like nothing...Talk to me, talk to your sister, talk to your dad, talk to people that care. I care, your family cares, my family cares. We all love you, Drea..And I don't want to see you hurt or down, ever. I want to see that smile I saw the first day I met you." He tilted my head up, kissing me softly. I kissed back lightly and pulled back.
                          
"Thank you..." I said, quietly, resting my head against his shoulder again.
                          
"Dont need to thank me.. I'm just there for you, always.." He kissed my head, wrapping his arms around my waist and I closed my eyes..
                          
"Thank you for being there when no one else was..." I said to myself, hoping he wouldn't hear and fell asleep in his lap.