CHAPTER 31

                                    

                                          
"Here, this is for you." he said putting his arms out. I wasn't going to act like a bitch and not accept them. "Thanks." I said taking the teddy bear, the box of chocolates and the roses and walking in my room. I put the chocolates and the teddy bear on the counter and put the roses in a vase with water and then joined Connor on the couch and we sat facing each other. "Ok so I let you in, now start explaining." I said looking at him. He looked down and rubbed the back of his neck, why does he do that, its so cute! "Well, ok first of all, I need to explain about what happened at the restaurant. I didn't ditch you, I went to the bathroom becuase... well.. ugh it's so stupid." He said dropping his head down in sadness. "C'mon it's fine, I just want to know why you stayed in there so long, was it something I said or did?" I asked wondering what could it possibly be. "I stayed in there because... I was trying to figure out a way to start the conversation, I didn't know how to bring it all up and where to start." He explained. I tried hard not to laugh but a little giggle came out of my mouth. "See, I knew it, you think I'm an idiot." he said getting up, preparing to leave. I jumped infront of him, blocking him. "No, I don't think you're an idiot, I think it's cute. I'm sorry I didn't let you explain, I don't know why but I just close people out when they hurt me and I'm just scared I guess." I said sitting back down. "Well, let's just start from the beggining, at the party when Acacia made out with me." He said also sitting back down infront of me. "First of all, we were all drunk and no one knew what was happening. I honestly was lost in another world. If I wasn't drunk I would've never in a million years made out with her and everytime I think about it it sickens me and I feel horrible. And then you ran away and didn't let me explain. Then I don't know the rest and how you got in the hospital, Sam didn't want to tell us so..." What?! He doesn't know about the ... suicide thing... oh geezus! " Umm Ok I understand it was an accident and you didn't mean it, but then there's the part where you didn't tell me about it when I got out of the hospital. I had to ask Sam and he said that you made out with her so the  I umm..." I took a deep breath trying to hold my tears back. "Hey, what's the matter?" He asked getting closer and rubbing my back. I whipped my tears away quickly and took a beathe. "Um... I uh ran to the pier and uh jumped off into the water." I said covering my face with my hands. "But how is that bad?!" He asked not catching on. "Connor, I tryed to commit suicide!" I yelled, bawling in my hands. I feel some arms wrap around me and I get lifted off the couch and put on my bed. I lay down and Connor comes and lays down next to me, facing me and wraps his arms around me. "Shhh, it's ok, I'm here and I will make sure this never happens again, I promise!" He whispered in my ear giving me goose bumps. "Connor?" I asked looking up at him. "Yeah?" He questioned. "Is there another girl? Do you love someone else?" I asked sniffing. He looked shocked. "What? How could you think that? If I loved someone else, would I be here with you, right now? No, if I loved someone else I wouldn't of went on our date or came to your door right after to apolagize and I wouldn't of came tonight and sat down at your door waiting for you." He said sweetly. "Yah I guess, it's just that I feel like you deserve better and I'm just wasting your time." I said playing with a button on his shirt. "What! Don't you say that! I am not wasting my time. I am not giving up and I'm going after the one I love." I looked up at him and I saw in his eyes that he wanted to stay with me and he did love me. "But what about the kiss with Sam?" I said feeling bad about myself. He sighed "I knew it wasn't you because of the way you acted when you heard what Sam told me. And when you attacked him and said that I'd never forgive you, I could tell he made it all up and you told me the truth." He said kissing my forehead. I smiled happy that he believed me. "So? We're good now?" I asked praying to god he'd say yes. "Good as in We can stay friends or good as in We're still dating?" He asked. I could tell he was joking. "As in still dating, silly." I said poking his nose. "Ugh I'm so glad I didn't lose you, I seriously don't know what I would've done." He whispered in my ear hugging my tightly. I was in heaven, he was warm and he smelt so good and I didn't want this moment to end. He pulled away and looked at me in the eyes. "I've missed you so much." he said with his figure raising my chin. A smile spead across my face. "I missed you more. I wasn't even able to fonction without you. I was depressed, I didn't eat and talked to no one." I said pushing his hand away and looking down. "Aww princess, but I came to the rescue and I'm gonna make it all better." he said with his perfect smile. I cupped his cheek and rubbed it softly with my thumb. I put my arms around him and held him close to me and curled my head in his chest.
                          
We stayed like that for a few minutes and then I looked up at him and asked him if he wanted to stay and watch a movie and he said he would love to. So we moved to the couch and I put in the movie and I went to the kitchen and got my teddy bear and put some popcorn in the microwave and then went back to the couch and cuddled up with Connor and a blanket covered us and I hugged my bear and Connor wrapped his arms around my waist.
                          
I woke up, checked the time on my phone and it was 5 in the morning. I felt cold and alone, I looked in back of me and Connor wasn't there. Why'd he leave? Shit! We have classes today. Ugh I don't wanna go to school. I wanna stay with Con on the couch. I stayed on the couch because I was too tired and lazy to go in my bed. I tried falling alseep but I just couldn't so I went on my phone for 5 minutes and then I got up and ate a gronola bar and I felt like going jogging outside, the sun was starting to rise. So I put on my sports wear and grabbed my ipod, turned it on and walked out the door. I was jogging and the wind was fresh and cold, the nice smell of the leaves. I opened my ipod and checked the time and it was already 6 so I walked back to my room and jumped in the shower, washed up, and got dressed. I put my make up on and then I ate 1 egg, a toast and a hashbrown. I went on Twitter and sent a tweet saying hey and for everyone to have a great day.  I took my books and put them in my purse, yes my purse is big. I grabbed my phone and walked towards my class. I ran in while the bell rang, fiouf just on time! I sat down and looked in back to say hi to Connor, but he wasn't there. I wonder what happened to him? I stressed out about it all period. I was thinking about the worse situations and didn't even listen to the teacher. After all my classes were over I went back to my dorm and texted Connor rigth away.
                          
Emily: Con what happened to you today? You weren't there?
                          
I waited all night for him to answer but he never did and I started to panic a little
                          
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