Anxiety Over Film

                                    

                                          
Hey
                          
So I think I mentioned that I agreed to work on a short film with people from school. I'm not sure what to do. I agreed to meet a week from today with them and to star in one of the films they're working on. I'm considering backing out. I got invited by a guy in my English class to join. Which is really cool, but I think he has a crush on me and his friends all assume I'm a girl. All of them only know me as Carter and none of them know my birth name. Which could be a problem when my mom takes me to meet with them because she doesn't know I've been coming out to people and introducing myself as Carter and would not approve. She also doesn't know these people and I won't be able to tell her I know them because I really only met most of them once and don't know their names. They're all cis guys and they might have a problem with me being trans when they find out and I'd be completely outnumbered by them. Also on top of that I'd have to get them all to call me by my birth name in front of my family and by my real name away from them and pull them into the mess that is my personal life if I agree to the film. They could out me to more people or beat me up or get me into a bad situation at home when they find out I'm trans. Also my parents would be uncomfortable with me being in a public place without adult supervision in general. Adding that I'm on camera, hanging out with people I don't know well, and that they're all straight cis guys and I'm a "girl" in their eyes, that's gonna be a problem. They'll probably ask a lot of questions that I can't answer and leave me feeling guilty and upset. So right now I'm trying to figure out what to do and I'm so confused. I could tell my idk-what-to-call-him-or-whether-we're-friends person that I'm trans and explain the situation to him because that's the rational thing to do but I'd be throwing personal drama at him and his friends with risks for me when we're not very close friends yet, or I could back out of the whole thing which would save myself from a mess but also lose a great opportunity and they'd have to change the scripts and cast a new lead. I have no idea what to do but I need to decide by tomorrow to tell him whether I will meet with the group of them.  
                          
Any thoughts on what to do?
                          
Love ya,
Carter
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