Just give me a reason

                                    

                                          
"Your foolish Shizuo." Izaya growled.
                          
"Its Shizu-Chan to you flea." Shizuo said.
                          
"What?" Izaya felt lost.
                          
"You heard me." Shizuo said matter of factly.
                          
"Fine S.H.I.Z.U-C.H.A.N." Izaya stated loudly then covered his mouth coughing deeply.
                          
Shizuo looked at him with concern. Putting a hand to Izaya head. It was warm his hair greasy from not showering in days. He smelled of sick all over, skin cold and hands shaking. Shizuo sighed putting a ice pack to Izayas head. He watched the flea shiver, he stuck a thermometer in Izayas mouth.
                          
"You look aweful, smell terrible.... Let's not fight today. Ok? I'm going to give you a bath." Shizuo said calmly rubbings Izayas back.
                          
"J...just leave me alone.... Please..." Izaya pleaded taking in a deep breath.
                          
Shizuo took out the thermometer from Izaya. "Damn... 100 degrees. That's not good flea." Shizuo said sadly pulling Izaya to stand and put a arm around him to help him walk.
                          
"Where are we going?" Izaya mumbled.
                          
"To the bathroom." Shizuo answered.
                          
"Good, I feel like throwing up...." Izaya mumbled hunched over.
                          
"Well hold it in we are almost there. I'll call Shinra to come take a look at you later. Make sure your not loosing more weight." Shizuo said.
                          
The two walked to the bathroom and Izaya sat on his knees puking up whatever was left in his stomach. Shizuo sat on the bathtub edge rubbing a hand on Izayas back and running the bath. The water was cool but relaxing. Izaya slumped to one side laying his head down on Shizuos lap eyes closed breathing heavily. More like a panting hair wet from sweat. Shizuo put soap in the bath as bubbled slowly grew creating a mountain of white in the tub. Shizuo managed to remove Izayas shirt. Izaya coughed weakly through the rest but ended up in the tub. He sat near the back half in a daze. Shizuo sleeves rolled up to his elbows as he massaged shampoo in the black hair.
                          
"Izaya don't fall asleep in the tub." Shizuo said stirnly.
                          
Izaya gave him a noise letting him know he herd. His eyes blinking slowly open and closed. His mouth open slightly allowing airflow. Shizuo ran a soapy hand towl down the snow white back rubbing against the boney frame. Izaya sat still his knees close to his chest holding a different hand towel. 
                          
"Close your eyes alright. I'm going to wash the soap out." Shizuo announced.
                          
Izaya let his half open eyes fall shut quickly. Sleep wanting to take over. He nodded a few times. The cool water slipped through his hair washing away soap from his scalp and back. He could feel the cup dump the warmish water over his body. If was cool and relaxing calming the pounding in his head. Shizuos voice was drown out. It all felt like a dream.
                          
"Izaya?...Izaya! Open your eyes." Shizuo said rubbing a towel over Izayas face wiping away any water.
                          
"Mmhmm. Fine Shizu-Chan." Izaya mumbled sleepily.
                          
"You can sleep later. You do that enough." Shizuo stated.
                          
"Y..ya...sorry for being... So mean...to...you..." Izaya mumbled in a daze.
                          
Shizuo stopped putting conditioner in Izayas hair, his eye brows raised seeing Izaya was opening up again.
                          
"Its ok flea. I know you didn't mean it. Don't ever stop calling me that dumb nickname you always call me." Shizuo said cheerfully.
                          
"Yes Shizu-chan." Izaya mumbled taking in a deep breath.
                          
"Stay awake." Shizuo said washing away the soap and conditioner.
                          
Izaya glared at the wall in a daze. Shizuo sighed and rubbed a towel over the wet hair. He drained the bath water. Then held Izaya drying him off a bit.
                          
"See now isn't that better? Nice and clean. You don't smell like vomit." Shizuo said with a smile.
                          
"Yes completely nude in a giant towel definitely better." Izaya grumbled.
                          
"Well I'm not going to do anything to you." Shizuo said rubbing the towel over Izayas hair.
                          
"I don't care anymore Shizu-Chan. I'm broken, used and discussing. Why would anyone want me?" Izaya asked covering his mouth to cough.
                          
"Well I want you...." Shizuo mumbled.
                          
"That's a lie, I bet you no different from the people I work for." Izaya grumbled.
                          
"Well I would never sexually assult you." Shizuo said very seriously pushing Izaya to his feet.
                          
The small raven swayed back and forth slightly. Shizuo held black boxers and a t shirt. He helped izaya put his clothes on. Then took the towel to hang it up to dry. He looked down at Izaya like a disappointed parent at their child. His strong arms crossed over his chest. His eyes looked down at Izayas who refused to make eye contact. Izaya looked nervous rubbing a hand up and down his arm taking slow breaths from his mouth since his nise still stuffy. Shizuo lifted Izayas chin.
                          
" I'm not going to betray you ever. I'm not going to hurt you and I'm only going to help you. Is that understood flea." Shizuo said gently.
                          
"Is that all I am? A flea? How can you care for a bug, a simple pest that everyone wants gone." Izaya responded looking up at Shizuo with glazed over eyes.
                          
" You have your nick name for me and I have mine for you, its how we met. But now your a gossip junky that gets your nose in the wrong places. Now come on let's go. Today is a new day. You need more clothes, a lot if the ones you have are way to big." Shizuo said cheerfully.
                          
" I'm self conscious of myself. I don't want to go shopping. People know my face." Izaya complained.
                          
"Look in the mirror Izaya. Shinra, Celty and I know that face. You look a lot different now." Shizuo pointed out.
                          
Izaya turned and looked in the mirror, he felt so small compared to Shizuo. His head barely reached up to Shizuos chest. His skin ghostlike. His hair still thick but longer than it used to be going past his ears a little. His eyes had dark circles around them like a raccoon. His nose red and irritated looking, eyes bloodshot as if on the computer to long. His body boney and thin. All the muscle or fat seemed to be dissapearing.
                          
"That's not me... The mirror is a illusion. How can you stand to look at something like this?" Izaya whispered tears running down his cheeks.
                          
"Personally you make me sad. But I do love you. If you look sick the rest of your life I'll still love you." Shizuo said kissing Izayas head.
                          
"Fine.... Just give me a reason... I'm in to deep and to far gone. Give me a reason to keep going on like this Shizuo." Izaya sighed.
                          
"Well with sad rhymes like that, you can make emo poetry." Shizuo chuckled hugging Izaya from behind.