[Blue Velvet]

                                    

                                          
Nix P.o.V.

                          
Shimmering lights, broken glass tiles, fading sunsets. That's what it felt like- Yoongi's kiss. It replayed over and over like a tape. I was the one unintentionally pressing rewind. Pastel, neon, satin, corduroy, velvet... It was all new. My first kiss- it was all I'd hoped for.
                          
New words kept popping up into the dull landscape of the musty playground. Stellar, resonance, celestial, illuminating. The real world never felt like that one moment. Yet, the choice became harder than before. On one hand, there was the sunset love that was always beautiful and pure but never lasted long at all. On the other was a different love- a mint chocolate chip ice cream that was always cool and crunchy and soft and was always needed and wanted, a craving that wouldn't leave. This type of love didn't last long either, though.
                          
There was guilt behind my thoughts, the lasting image of Namjoon pushing me away kept creeping up. The feeling of warm hands that left an impression on my cheeks. Dusk, aurora, vapor, billowing. 
                          
I keep finding myself questioning my sanity, but in the end I knew I was fine. Somehow, this must be normal. Somehow, this was all perfectly sane and capable of happening. Somehow, I should have seen this coming. After my visit with Maro and mom, I walked around the park aimlessly, chains creaking beneath me on this swing. I can still feel the effects of the glowing first kiss. Even now with Otto and Taehyung and all the park kids watching me with a full blown grin, I couldn't help it-
                          
I had finally admitted to myself: I have a bubblegum crush with my minty ice cream coworker, Min Yoongi.