Chapter 20

                                    

                                          
Please read the A/N in the bottom :3






Alyssa's P.O.V






~dream~


"Catch me if you can Ashton!" I stuck my tongue out as I ran.


"Oh please.." He smirked as he almost immediately put up to my pace.


I screamed as he grabbed me by the waist and started spinning me around.
We were laughing hysterically as I ruffled his wavy hair.
I took a look at the view. It was a huge area, hills all around and there was a picnic basket. Sandwiches halfly eaten and empty juice boxes lying around weightless.. 
Ashton had his arm around me as A cold wind brushed by, him hugging me even tighter sharing his warmth.


I looked deeply into his eyes. As his mouth parted.


"Alyssa.. Alyssa! WAKE UP!"




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I sprawled around, slowly getting up as my whole body ached. I looked at Luke who was blocking my sunshine.


"Alyssa! It's 9:30 am in the morning. Let's go home, you need a proper rest."


I slowly nodded brushing the grass off my t-shirt, Luke's jacket over me. I spaced out for a while, remembering what happened the last night, I now remember why we didn't go home.
Ashton..


I got up as I walked back home with Luke, we stopped by the coffee shop to buy some doughnuts and some coffee. A few minutes later we finally got home. My body was sore from sleeping on that cold hard ground, but luckily I didn't get a stiff neck, cause my head was resting peacfully on Luke's arm's last night. It was pretty comfortable though, his warmth---- SHIT Alyssa! You have to stop thinking about Luke. Let Ashton explain first.


I slowly unlocked the door, I was scared cause now, I'd have to gove an explanation to why I didn't go gome yesterday. Okay, honestly I was angry, really angry at Ashton for already having another girl while I had my back turned.. Just for a second!


But, we aren't even anything.. I mean sure we slept and cuddled in bed and maybe almost kissed like twice.. But pshhh, he's a guy.. He probably does that to all the girls.. The thought gave me unwanted chills all over my body. I didn't like the idea. I feel my eyes start to fill with tears but I just blinked it away.. I have to be strong.. You can't fall for someone that easily right? I mean maybe this is just some crazy side-effect of amnesia. Okay, Alyssa. Just focus on trying to find out about your past. Whatever it is. Try to get your mind off Ashton. I was angry now, earlier I was thinking of giving Ashton a chance for him to tell me what happened back there, but on another side of my thoughts.


'Don't be so ambitious Alyssa, you're just one girl. A helpless girl, Ashton's some hot guy who probably got all the girls he desired. Maybe all of this was just a one time thing..BUT I ALMOST. KISSED HIM TWICE' I thought to myself


"Yo, Alyssa. You looked spaced out." Luke said, taking a bite of his doughnut.


Wow, we were already sitting down on the couch of the living room, I haven't even noticed.


"I-oh.. You know what? My back aches. I should go take some rest." I yawned fakely.


"Uh..sure?" Luke excused.


I walked over to my room as Ashton's door knob twisted. My eyes widened, I did not want to see him, at this moment no. Because he hurt me. I felt bad anyways. That's for being too assuming Alyssa. He got out as I ran and closed my door.


"Alyssa! WAIT!" He said as he patiently knocked on my door.


I hid my face between my palms. What do I do.. What do I do? I brushed my hair a couple of times trying to get the knots out. I dropped the comb, you know what? Who cares how I look like infront of him. It's not like he likes me anyways.
I sighed, opening the door. 


There he was, the boy who made me cry yesterday. His features were awfully tired. He looks like he haven't slept at all last nights. His eyes we weary as he tried to keep it open..


"Alyssa, where have you been yesterday? I was worried sick and.. I just can't-" He paused as he pulled me into a tight hug..


I didn't bother to say anything, I just wanted to savour his hug.
He held me shoulders as he looked deeply into my eyes.


"Why did you leave yesterday?" He asked


"You seemed busy with another--girl-" my voice broke out.


His eyes grew wide with guilt.


"Look Alyssa, I can explain."


"No, it's fine Ashton. I totally get it. I know I'm just no-one to you, I'm just one of those girls you probably hangout with. It's okay. I get it, It was just a one time thing you know?" I looked away now. Not bothering to hold back my tears I just let them fall freely. I wanted him to see how hurt I was


"No, you don't understand.. That girl--" I stopped him..


"No, it's seriously okay Ash.." He looked deeply into my eyes. I could see the pain he felt. But if he felt taken back by those words. Just a little bit of pain here and there.


I was hurt 20x more than that. GOSH. Why do I have to be so assuming, true love.. It's shit. Love at first sight? Another piece of crap. It hurts.


I suddenly remembered that quote I read the other day.


Math tells us 3 of the most saddest love stories.


-Tangent lines.


•One chance to meet, and then parted forever.


-Parallel lines


•Never meant to meet eachother.


-Asymptotes


•Gets closer and closer, but never ends up together.


And there it was. Ashton and I, we were just the Asymptotes. We probably will just keep fooling around with eachother's feelings and then never even end up together. I know, that would suck. 


I closed the door on him. He had no other words to say but to look at me with pleading eyes. 


I aat down on my bed accidentally sitting on the unicorn plushie he got the that day in the Festival. Remembering that amazing day. I smiled.


I held it up high as I lied down on my back, groaning in pain. I looked at it once again. 


"Lil' unicorn. It's up to to you now. Wether Ashton and I should end up together. Or not" 


I hugged it as I fell into another, but comfortable sleep. 


I hope Ashton an I wouldn't end up as 'Asymptotes'. Okay, it doesnt really matter. I don't like him. But. Ugh. I really really to stop lying to myself. 


I love a guy. Who probably doesn't love me back. 




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Gotta stop my rambling. 
Baaii


-Alyssa.