Epilogue

                                    

                                          
There are only two things that can unveil life's profound secrets: suffering and love. I managed to endure my loss because love, it never dies, it never fades away, as long as I hold onto it. Months later, everything had changed. I didn't know where to begin anew. I wanted to find myself again, to rediscover my whole world. 

Alexander never returned to my life, to our lives. He didn't show up anymore. No one knew where he was. He didn't attend their graduation. Even Hope didn't know where her brother was. But I didn't stop searching for him. I need to find him. I need to tell him how much I love him. I miss him a lot. 
Two years have passed, But how do I find someone who doesn't want to be found? How do I tell him everything he needs to know if he's not here?
I also left the apartment Stella and I were staying in. I wasn't ready to forgive her yet. I couldn't bear to see her or be with her yet. Maybe one day, I'll be able to forgive her, but not now. I went back to our real house. I didn't change my name because it's what I'm used to. Alyosha, my twin, was with me.
It was a miracle when she woke up. But she couldn't walk anymore. her bones were too weak, and her speech wasn't as quick and strong as before.  she's like a baby learning trying to learn how to speak. Kyler visited us often. He explained everything to me. We apologized to each other. This is my last year of college, I'll still go there even though I know I might see Stella. She might be my classmate again or not. 
I was happy watching Kyler and Alyosha in the garden. Alyosha was in a wheelchair, and Kyler knelt in front of her. They were laughing. Kyler was making Alyosha laugh. Kyler's smile was different when he was with my sister. I was happy to see my sister again. That smile of being in love.
I sighed as I remembered Alexander. Perhaps if he knew earlier, we would be together. It hurts like hell when I know that I need to let go of someone but I can't because I'm still waiting for him.
When you encounter the half of your soul, you'll understand why all the other lovers had to let you go. When you meet the one who deserves your heart, you'll comprehend why you and all the others had to be apart.
Love entails holding on, even when you feel like you're letting go.