Chapter 36 - Different Is Not Wrong (Sawyer POV)

                                    

                                          
A/N: Not edited. Everyone that wanted to know what I'm asking for from my post earlier, but really it's just... I want a two or three people that can edit and another just Beta, read the story and on the off chance that mistakes are still there... POINT THEM OUT [not here though].
                          


                          
I love the comments that you all have been giving me but I also WISH I had just two or three people that I could really talk to about what's going on in my story, that point out the parts of my writing that need work, "this is good but... you could make it better if you maybe did this..." or things I could make clearer. Also, someone that I could just run my thoughts by... and not have to worry that they'd be stealing my work. 
                          


                          
I know many of you say that I help you all by writing but you guys have no idea how important all of you are to me. I started writing Unexpected and His Forgotten Mate when my dad was in a coma. They didn't think that he'd make it but after a long road to recovery, about seven months later he was almost back to the dad I remembered. Before then, I HAD NEVER written anything longer than maybe a poem or just things for my eyes alone. I never thought I'd even try to publish anything I wrote here because I'm not the strongest writer, but like I said, I'm going to try. So if anyone thinks that they're interested in what I'm looking for... just email me. I know it sounds weird that I'm asking for people that would be willing to point out the flaws but I just really want to put my BEST work out there. 
                          


                          
But I just wanted to say thank you for every one of you, sometimes life gets overwhelming and as sad as it sounds, I read your comments, the debates, and thoughts you guys post and I cannot help but smile. So Thank You all for the support! I hope you enjoy this chapter :) 
                          


                          


                          


                          
Chapter 36 – Different Is Not Wrong (Sawyer POV)
                          


                          
"There is a feeling Sawyer, your mate – meeting that person – your person can sometimes feel as though, they are your everything, but every relationship needs balance. Everything is about balance."
                          


                          
"Love is not about losing who you are to another person, changing yourself to fit their mold or ideas." 
                          


                          
Two of the most repeated pieces of advice from Etta and Kaden, but Katherine, Donavon, and all the others wiser than myself have tried to pound into my mind relentlessly, no one repeating himself or herself, as much as Etta.
                          


                          
Gazing at Grayson now, well I think I finally understood the warning they had been giving me. It was just now building inside me, filling every part of me and fast. Trapped between Grayson and the wall, I inhale deeply, loudly, my heart racing. I'm fading, lost, the only thing pulling me out of the trance I was in, the door opening. The pull to be closer than before captures me, pulls me in and swallows me whole, but I fight, taking a step to the side, putting distance between us. Taking a step away, a boyish smile blooms on his face, thick lashes framing his still penetrating stare.
                          


                          
Mind centered on what Kalani obviously had found, Grayson and I shuffled into the office behind Remy, the door slipping shut, locking Kalani, Grayson and my parents and I with Chelsea, Remy, Gabriel and Nonno.
                          


                          
I was a bit thrown, amazed that Kalani had not stopped working on Grayson's notebooks and from the way that Grayson mumbled out 'Leonardo,' I was guessing she had in fact found something major.