Normal POV
*Months after the Festival Fire*
(A/N: His first name is pronounced as GO-LEN.............and surname is DE-SIR-REY.....the surname means desire/lust)
@The Capital of Japan, Tokyo.
Goulin Hanker (Gowther) has been planning for this for weeks. He was gonna ask his girlfriend, Gwendil Knightley, on a date. Goulin hopes that Gwen will forgive him. he hasn't been the best boyfriend ever to her. Gwen thinks that Goulin is only in love with her because of his lust for her.
To Gwen, when Goulin looks at her, all she sees is passion, desire, lust, need, wants and satisfaction. Though they have never done the Deed, Goulin gives mixed signals to her from yes to yes... no to yes.....no to no...and .....no to yes. It was conflicting for Gwen.
But to Goulin, behind all these mixed signals and emotions is love. He loves Gwen so much. She's the only perosn who can understand him. Gwen was the only one who can make him so confused. Goulin is tempted to feel. He wants to know how it feels to love. Never has he in his entire life know the feeling of love.
He knows the meaning in the dictionary but never felt it. It's like he's a human being but lives like an emotionless robot. Goulin had wanted to experience these emotions but first, he likes to see how other people react to it. Using Gwen as his test subject without her knowing, he experiments with her thoughts and emotions like a toy. Pretty sick of him.
What Gwen sees in Goulin is lust. She doesn't understand him anymore. What Goulin sees in himself is that he is Lusting for emotions. Goulin lived his life with walls covering his heart. Never letting anyone in. But when Gwen came to his life, those walls are starting to crumble.
Today on their date, Goulin enterwined his hands with Gwen. Girls love it when guys show affection. Gwen blushed and Goulin put on a blank expression. In the inside, he somewhat felt happy. With this blank expression, Gwen feels as if there was no love in this relationship anymore.
The two were currently having coffee in a famous Cafe shop next to the famous, Camelotus Company (Kingdom of Camelot)
"Goulin, we need to talk..." Gwen started.
"I know what you are about to say my sweet Gwen, you believe that I am not treating you well. That I harbor no love for you in this relationship. But to tell you the truth, you are very wrong. Everyday, I try my best to feel your love...and for you to feel my love. I want to know how to react to this new sensation. The lust that I'm showing you isn't anything sexual. I am lusting for emotions. You don't know how much you're affecting me. All this time, I've been trying to love you...in the end, I did....and I always had my dear Gwen."
Gwen was taken back by his words. she didn't know this. "I can safely say that I love you...because I do Gwen. I love you because you are there for me...you never left me when conditions like this was happening. Please don't leave me Gwen...." Goulin felt a new sensation. Tears staring to form.Gwen smiled and blushed.
"I won't Goulin. Thank you....for telling me this. I was starting to loose hope...that you don't want me."
"I do want you Gwen. It's just hard for me to show it but I'm trying..for you." Gwen blushed again.
"I'll be right back. The cake I ordered is ready." Gwen was surprised. He ordered her a cake. It must have cost him a fortune to get the manager to bake him a cake since the cafe here is very expensive.
*****
Once Goulin was inside, He payed the cashier the cake he ordered. Just when he was about to hold the box, an explosion erupted. It was coming from the Camelotus Company. The sound of glass, concrete and metal crashing down the streets was ear piercing. Many people screamed in panic.
Goulin dropped the cake and ran out to see if Gwen was alright. Once he was out. Goulin's heart twisted in a new feeling....PAIN.
There, lying underneath the fallen concrete was Gwen. Her neck was snapped to a weird angle due to the concrete block that must have fallen over her head. Shards of glass puncture her skin and blood was oozing out of her body. Goulin felt the pain but didn't hold any facial expression. His face was blank yet his heart was aching.
*****
From that day onward, after Gwen's death.....Goulin drowned himself in deperession. He feels depressed but doesn't make an expression of it was unusual to him. he had sealed his heart once again. For the love of his life died. He blames himself. Maybe is he hadn't left her alone, he could have shielded her in time. But the past is past. It was too late.
Goulin was gonna give her the cake and scream 'I LOVE YOU' to her in front of the people outside of the cafe. And she was gonna reply to him...but that's not gonna happen anymore. His lust for Gwen had killed her. He should have done something to protect her.
*****
*Months after the Camelotus bombing*
Goulin unexpectedly met a young man possibly shorter than him, he could not have believed the reason behind the bombing. As he heard the reasons, Goulin's heart sparked in a new sensation........revenge.
"I will help you....I want to avenge Gwen's death. Let me make HIM suffer...." Goulin never knew he had darkness within his heart.
"then it's a deal. Your new name is now Goulin Desiray, the Goat's Sin of Lust.....welcome aboard Goulin." They shook hands.
"It's a pleasure to be part of the team,..Zedrick."
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