I feel weak
We've been here before
'Cause I feel we keep going back and forth
Maybe it's over
Maybe we're through
But I honestly can't say I still love you
Maybe we reached the mountain peak
And there's no more left to climb
And maybe we lost the ma...
"Because you haven't been answering people's calls, and I don't think you left your house in months, so get the fuck up." She said, pulling off my covers.
"I don't want to get up. There's no purpose," I said, putting the pillow over my head.
"Don't you dare say that? That baby growing inside of you is your purpose. He left you without a word, and I understand that hurts a lot, but you're a grown woman. Don't let that shit get to you." She said.
"Why? Do you have to be right?" I said, getting up from my bed.
"Because I've been through this. Go take a shower, and I'll pick your outfit," Danica said, taking a seat on the bed.
"Fine, I'll go take a shower, but if my outfit is over the top, I'm not wearing it," I said, getting up and walking to my bathroom.
"Amari, you been in the shower for thirty-five minutes; get out now," Danica yelled, banging on the door. "Keep banging on the door, and I'll stay in here forever," I yelled back.
I got out and brushed my teeth. I walked out of the bathroom and seen my outfit laid out on my bed. It wasn't bad.
"Can you stop staring and put on your clothes so we can leave? " Danica said. Me being me, I decided I would be slow as a snail getting ready. She shot me a glare. She knew my game. "Don't you dare move like a snail, "she said. "Why would I?"I said, putting on my undergarments. I put on my clothes, and then Danica pushed me on the bed and started putting light make-up on me and doing my hair after she told me to so she could take a picture of me.
"I'm gonna take an off-guard pic so you can post it on Instagram," she said.
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"Let's go to the nail salon," she said.
"Why don't you hang with us like you used to? " Danica asked.
"Sigh, I knew your ass was going to ask that, but I like being alone, listening to music in my world, away from all the bullshit in life. Just focusing on me and the baby, you'll know when you have a kid."I said, looking out the window of Danica's hammer.
"How do you know?" I asked once we pulled up to a red light.
"Because my mother told me the same thing. Focus on what matters and let go of what doesn't. Stop wasting your life complaining about everything, and appreciate what you have. I thought she was lying, but a mother knows best." she shrugged.
"I wish I could rewind time... I miss how we used to talk every minute of every day & how I was able to tell you everything that was on my mind. I miss our conversations. You were one of the most influential people to me, and I felt like I lost you, and now I want to make our bond even stronger not just because of you, my best friend but cause you, my baby's godmother bitch." I said, looking at her with a sad expression.
"You don't have to tell me I'm the godmother cause I already knew I was, but I did miss your retarded ass." she chuckled.
We finally made it to the nail salon, and as we walk in, Morgan and Brie inside arguing with Nicole. I laughed, causing them to turn and stare at me. Well, damn, thanks for the attention. Morgan walked up to me. "What you are laughing at? "she said.
"You're I R R E L E V A N T; irrelevant," I said, stepping up to her.
She smirked.
"I hate when you bitches do this in public," Danica said.
"You just mad," Morgan said, hugging me.
"You guys sure know how to come through." Amy, the nail lady said.
"So what's going on with you, like why you are missing in action?" Morgan said after we sat down on the massaging chairs.
"How am I supposed to explain to you what's going on in my head when I don't even know what's going on?"I said truthfully.
"Truthfully, I think She's hurt, mentally and emotionally. But every day, she walks with a smile because that's who she is, the girl who never stopped smiling, and all of you know Amari never really talks about her problems. Did you guys see her baby bump? " Danica said.
"Yeah yeah, how everybody doing? Let's stop talking about me. "I said, a little annoyed
"We good." All three said at once.
"Whatever, Nicole, you still on your diet?"I said.
"Pray for my diet cause I don't have any type." She said.
"See, you ain't never serious about your weight," Morgan said.
I ignored the little petty argument the girls were about to have and decided to take a pic for the gram and captioned it ' Love getting my #nails done. '
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I put my phone back and turned back to the girls staring at me like I had two heads. "What? "I asked.
"I asked when you are due? " Brie said.
"March 3," I said.
"How many months are you?" Nikki asked.
"Five months," I said.
"So we have three months to plan your baby shower," Danica says.
"Are you going to keep the baby from him? " Brie asked.
"He's the one that left. He moved on. I don't want him to do the same to my baby. Maybe in the future, I'll tell him but not now." I said.
