Akashi IV: Mine, It Will Never Change 20

                                    

                                          
Akashi: Mine, It will never Change
                          
Chapter 20 


                          
That night, you weren't able to get back to sleep, but knowing Akashi and sharing the same bed every night, you knew that he will immediately notice if you weren't able to sleep, so you closed your eyes and just let your thoughts wander 
                          
to Saruhiko's suggestion the other night.
                          
"Are you going to deny your son his real father?" 
                          
You frowned at the thought and opened your eyes. The thought of Seien finally meeting his real father disgusts you, but you didn't want to deny your son the rights...
                          
'Kamisama, I don't want to wake up in the morning.'
                          
You shut your eyes tightly as to clear your thoughts... if you die tonight, Saruhiko might have his chance.
                          
NO!
                          
Your hand instinctively gripped the sheets under the duvet in realization that you just suddenly want to end everything just like that because Saruhiko is the father??
                          
No. No, freakin way.
                          
"No," you heard a voice coming from the back of your head, literally. "I will make sure he won't lay a hand on Seien, (name)." 
                          
Your eyes opened in surprise and looked over your shoulder, and found Akashi's eyes on you.
                          
"You're awake!" You gasped in surprise.
                          
"Do you think I can sleep knowing you are worried for tomorrow?" Akashi said as he sat up.
                          
"Sorry." You quietly apologized.
                          
"It's alright." Akashi assured you, "I completely understand you. While I am confident that we are going to take home Seien whatever the result is, you are not. But I wish you share the same confidence I am having right now." 
                          
There was silence, and you just watched Akashi's sincere statements.
                          
"But it can't be helped, you are a mother to little Seien." 
                          
Another silence erupted and Akashi decided that you need to sleep as he needed to sleep too. He is not worried of tomorrow, but he cannot just let you lay there awake.
                          
He slipped out of bed turned to you before you can speak and ask him where he was going.
                          
"A glass of milk will help you go to sleep," he said, "I will make one, just wait there." 
                          
"You don't have to-" but Akashi is already outside the door. When he came back, he was holding a cup of milk and he handed it to you.
                          
"Drink," he gently ordered, "it will help you go to sleep." 
                          
"Thanks." You accepted the cup and took a sip and then eventually emptied the cup.
                          
Indeed the warm milk helped you and when your head touched the pillow, you couldn't help but close your eyes and sleep.
                          
Akashi watched as you closed your eyes shortly after finishing the milk. He didn't want you to over think of tomorrow's result, so he added something on your cup to help you. 
                          
"Sleep, my (name)." Akashi whispered as he stare at your now unconscious form under the covers.
                          
"Tomorrow is the start of a new life."
                          
---AKASHI---
                          
A cold hand reached to your face, down to your shoulders and stopped on your sides.
                          
"--my!" You faintly heard a voice calling you.
                          
"-ommy!" You heard it again and then you felt your side was being gently shake.