Ever since I lost my virginity, I've been feeling like a whole new person, my relationship with papa has been stronger than ever, I've been feeling healthy and mentally stable. Its just amazing. I haven't felt like this for a while. And to celebrate the ten years of ghost, omega threw a party where Papa, the ghouls and I had the time of our lives, we ended up drunk, high as the empire state, wasted and fucked up.
A week later, I woke up with Emeritus by my side, I was feeling hungry as fuck, I was craving so many things even if it was 9 am, I felt like I had to eat.
I went to the kitchen and made myself 4 pancakes with cookies n cream ice cream and nutella waffles, and I ate like if the world was coming to an end.
While eating this nutritive breakfast, I catched a dizzy spell, I stoped eating, and ran to the bathroom to throw up, something made me feel disgusted and I threw up everything I eated, Emeritus woke up by the sound of my unintentional burps
"Charmaine, baby, are you alright?" He said while I was resting my arms on the toilet, then I threw up once again.
"Its okay, I'm here" he said rubbing my back. Then I started to take conclusions ... A week ago, our hormones were higher than Wiz Khalifa and Snoop Dogg together, so we had to have it
"The last time we f**** did you wore protection?" I asked him trying to recover myself.
"I dont remember, we were so fucked up at omega's house" he said
"What day is today?" I asked
"March 10th, why?"
"I haven't got my period in 2 weeks, and its been 9 days since march started" I replied in the fear of something I was wondering if it was a dream or a joke.
"So that means..."
"It means I might be pregnant..." I said fearing this, because 4 years ago I was told I could not concive or be pregnant because of a rare condition my uterus has.
"Give me your hand" papa said as I stood up, he helped me laying in bed and touched the lower zone of my stomach
"It is true, I'm gonna be a father" he said
"Oh my ghost, I'm pregnant... I can be a mother after all!" I said crying of tender happinness
"I just can't believe I'm gonna be a father, oh Charmaine, I love you so much" he said smiling and not letting tears coming out, I just can't believe that at the age of 28 I'm facing my worst fear, I'm just feeling so much right now, I couldn't believe I was pregnant even though I got told I wasn't able.
Two days later I went to the doctor with my mom, she couldn't believe it when I told her I was pregnant, she was the one who witnessed my depression over my infertility.
Anyway, I got some exams done, I got an ultrasound, and it was confirmed that I was pregnant, but there were some cons in this situation;
"You are 1 week pregnant, the embryo looks to be fine, it looks to be a healthy baby, BUT, I'm concerned about your uterus, it might affect the baby's development inside it, because the cysts are bassicly "toxic" for the baby, so what I would recommend you is too be out of stress and if its necessary, rest, as much as possible" said the doctor. It got me kind of worried, my condition might affect this big step in my life, and for Papa, I just don't want to fail with this one, I just, don't want to fall in depression again.
Anyway, I went back home and Emeritus was with alpha and he came to hug me.
"Ms Emeritus! You're bringing our unholyness a little devil to the earth!" He said laughing.
"Shut up you butthead, and I'm one week pregnant, so don't squeez the hell out of my baby" I said giving him a hug back and kissed Emeritus.
"So how was the doctor" he said placing a hand on my stomach.
"Uuuuh, pretty good, they took a picture today" I said giving him the picture of a little bean of the ultra sound. Emeritus looked at it deeply, he started crying.
"He is..." He said
"Yes, thats our baby" I said looking at it with him
"Guys, you're getting me emotional" alpha said
"I- I just need a moment" Papa said placing his head in my shoulder. I knew how he felt, and I was as happy as he was, but I had to tell him the dak side of this dream came true.
"Papa, now there is something I must tell you that might worry you a little..."
"As you can remember, I have a cysts in my uterus that concerned the doctor a little, he said it might affect the baby's development inside me"
"And did he recommended you something?"
"Yes, he told me to stay out of stress and rest as much as possible"
Papa kneeld down to my stomach and started kissing it and rubbing it
"Dont worry little one, I won't let anything happen to you" he said to our little bean
"WE are not letting anything happen to you" alpha said
"Thanks alph" I said
"Now you, go to rest, I have some shit to do with the team" Papa said kissing me and said goodbye to him and alpha.
I laid down in my bed, taking off my black vans and leaving myself with my grey ghost symbol hoodie, trying to proccess everything that happened and everything that is going to happen.
I was wondering if it was a boy or a girl, if it was Noah or Olympia,how big my belly is going to get, if its going to be born in the US or in Sweden, everything rushed through my mind.
I feel asleep and felt that my feet started to hurt, I pulled out the sheets and, shit, they were swolen as fuck.
I also started to have these thoughts of losing the baby, but I just convinced my self to not think things like that and went back to sleep.
Papa arrived home and kissed me on my lips and went to bed
"I love you my zombie queen"
"I love you too Papa"
