Chapter 41

                                    

                                          

That afternoon she finally had enough, so she searched for Dimitri. She knew she had to get to the bottom of things. She couldn't keep doing this with him. When she reached his office she knocked this time, not wanting to have a repeat of last time.
                          
"Go away." He mumbled.
                          
She rolled her eyes and opened the door, the sight before her had her frozen mid step. Sitting in a corner, holding his bloody and bruised hand, was Dimitri. She swallowed as she closed the doors and carefully walked over to him.
                          
"What do you want?" He asked, not even looking at her. 
                          
She sighed and sat beside him, "I want an explanation. The truth. I've been so confused and you've been going between loving her and not loving her." 
                          
He slowly looked at her and that was when she noticed the cuts all over his face.
                          
"Did you bash your face in the mirror or something?" She asked as she inspected the cuts.
                          
He shook his head, "Something like that. I fell." 
                          
"I see." 
                          
"As for the truth...I do love you. I love you more than anything, I just...I was still clinging onto those happy memories I had of her. I was drunk because I had to make the final decision of either killing her or letting her go. A part of me was still in love with her, she was the first girlfriend I had. I didn't know how to let go, so I held on. I did still love her, but I loved you more. I was disgusted with her at the same time and it confused me." He explained, tears now running down his face.
                          
He sighed and wiped the tears away, smearing blood across his face. "I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry for hurting you. I never meant to, I was confused. Stuck. I didn't...I didn't know what to do. I tried getting answers from her and she just messed with my head and I just...I didn't know how to handle it."
                          
"And you cracked." Rosalie whispered.
                          
He nodded, "I'm an alcoholic, I'm an asshole when I'm drunk. I don't know what to do. I can't do this anymore. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm-
                          
"Dimitri, calm down. Shhhh." She soothed as she hugged him. 
                          
"Now, this is a mental breakdown." Her wolf commented.
                          
"For crying out loud, shut up!" She yelled at her wolf. 
                          
She held him until he calmed down, once he was calmed down she still didn't let him go.

                          
A/N: Yes, it is possible to love two people at once. Dimitri loved Christine and loved Rosalie, but he loved Rosalie more.  
                          
And yes, you can hate someone and love them at the same time. I've done it.