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2/1/16
                          
Dear diary,
                          
Imagine my shock when I arrived to school to see both Jongin and Jongdae with arms full of balloons, presents, and sweet treats for me. Because since when have the two been close enough to plan something like this together? Chanyeol and Baekhyun were also there to celebrate with us. The three beagles then sang me a song Jongdae must've told them I loved, with Jongin dancing along with it.
                          
The four boys caused such a big commotion that I was sure I was going to die of embarrassment, but I loved every bit of it, and it made my 20th birthday a little more special than the others.
                          
Right then and there, Jongin knew well... And that was so bittersweet. I could never feel more thankful for that guy. I'm positive that he would find some girl who'll care and love him as passionately as he would to her. 
                          
Jongdae had tried to coax me to skip the whole day for my birthday, but I declined, since school was important to me. He then shrugged it off and said that he'll skip for me, hanging by my side every moment he can get.
                          
That doesn't really work since we share two classes today.
                          
But him sneaking into my English class to keep me company was nice. Although, he nearly got into trouble because the balloons were giving him away. But I was able to save his ass saying it was my birthday, earning a round of birthday greetings from my classmates and the professor.
                          
Jongdae stuck to me like glue.
                          
He even held my hand for the first time... And it felt so nice. Now that I had the chance to hold his hands... I can admit that I really like them.
                          
But, I was still nervous, I'm sure Jongdae didn't forget how I stood him up last Saturday. So I had brought it up right after our last class.
                          
All he told me was that he understood and that I shouldn't worry about it. 
                          
Would it be too early to say I love him?