Reunion

                                    

                                          
Clarke's POV;
                          
I wake to the sound of birds chirping out side the fabric of the tent. I swear I haven't slept this well in weeks, maybe some of those drugs are still in my system but I think being so near a certain some one has help me switch off and relax.
                          
I keep my eyes closed and feel my whole body fill with content. Letting out a large sigh of relief I stretch out my stiff limbs and get ready to open my eyes to the world of crap that I have been unfortunately plunged into.
                          
Only now, when I open my eyes, do I realise how deep in all this crap I actually am.
                          
There she is... sitting watching me as if I am some unknown species to her. 
                          
My breath catches in my throat and I quickly sit up straight hoping I look semi presentable.
                          
Who am I kidding I like like a train wreck. That's what accidentally overdosing does to you. It leaves you with permanent bags under your eyes and really bad hair that just seems to stick out at every possible angle.
                          
When her eyes meet my own it's like there are explosions occurring between us, millions of green and blue fireworks.
                          
We remain in silence for the longest time but it is not awkward at all in fact it is quite the opposite. This all feels so familiar.
                          
But of course it is only familiar to me. Lexa probably thinks I'm some kind of unstable, pathetic teenager. She doesn't know the real me, courtesy of my mom.
                          
Neither of us are willing to break the still quiet that descended down between us but she must finally have enough as she opens her mouth to speak.
                          
"I don't understand you." She states.
                          
I am completely taken aback by her words. I was expecting an introduction, a questioning or even a threat to leave Ton DC but not this. How do I respond to this?
                          
I remain quiet hoping that she will continue on which she thankfully does.
                          
"I know who you are though." She continues taking me aback once again.
                          
Does she recognise me? Is it really this easy?
                          
"You're the Chancellor of the sky people's daughter." Lexa says, her face completely stoic, void of any emotion.
                          
I feel my heart drop and that tiny flame of hope I had extinguishing with her words.
                          
"You and your friends, you are the group that escaped from Camp Jaha, your mother told me."
                          
Now it's my breathing that stops. Why has Lexa been talking to my mother? Why did that bitch go near her? She's done enough damage as it is.
                          
"I know you aren't going to reply, your companions were much the same." 
                          
I'm slightly shocked by how emotionless she is being. It's scary being in the receiving end of this and I keep having to remind myself that she doesn't know who I am that's why she is being this way.
                          
The silence from before settles back down in the tent but now filled with tension and anxiety. The strange thing is though, it's not my anxiety, it's hers.
                          
I can see her mask failing as she thinks over what she is going to say next. She is even shifting nervously in her seat and it's making me uncomfortable. Why is she so scared all of a sudden?
                          
"I know you because of your title and your mother but I do feel as if we have met before. Forgive me if we have I've just been having... difficulty remembering certain things lately." She says quietly looking away from my eyes.
                          
I look at her for a while just taking her in. It's so good to hear her voice again. And her lips! I haven't been able to stop watching them the whole time she's been in the tent. All I want to do is reach over and help her remember all we went through together but I know I can't. Kane's words echo through my head;
                          
If the commander get her memories back she will also get all of the pain back.
                          
I can't be selfish anymore. I have to let Lexa go. It's the only way I can keep her safe. 
                          
"No." I respond to her. "We haven't met before."
                          
She nods but I can't help but notice a flash of disappointment in her eyes. 
                          
After regaining her previously confident composure Lexa stands up from her seat on the other side of the tent.
                          
"I will leave you to rest." She says before quickly ducking out of the tent, leaving me alone with my thoughts.
                          
It's only now that it hits me properly. She recognised me. Even though it was only the tiniest bit all that matters is that she did. 
                          
She didn't seem in pain. She didn't seem as if the memories of the mountain men's torture was hurting her so what's to say if I slowly reminded her about me she wouldn't be reduced to what she was in Camp Jaha?
                          
Happiness has been ripped away from me for far too long. First my dad, then Wells, then Finn and now Lexa. The only difference now is that I still have a chance with Lexa. She isn't gone she's just damaged. And I know I can fix her, just like she fixed me.
                          
I been through so much, I deserve at least a little bit of happiness. I have to fight for her. I took me so long to realise it but now I do I know that I can't give up.
                          
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