Chapter 9:Tough love

                                    

                                          
ugh after 2 hours of waiting in line i'm finally aloud to go the his room they gave me a key and told me where his room was. OK here we go. i opened the door and Logan was sitting on the bed. He instantly looked up when i shut the door and gave me a "i cant believe you" look. "i'm sorry,are you mad?" i asked nervously. "no. i'm not mad. I'ts just why didn't you tell me?" he asked looking in my eye's. "I'm sorry its just i couldn't, i was afraid yuo'd be to worried and die from it, and we needed the money" i said looking sorry. "OK. can i hold her?" he said looking into my eyes. "of coarse" i said handing her to him. wow that was easy he smiled it was a nice feeling. really. I'm happy that he will get to know Mercy and we can visit him and stuff.  "how old is she?" he asked smiling "shes 4 months"
                          
i said.we gave her a bath and Logan loved her so much its so nice. we played lot's of game's and feed her. we even went door to door showing his neighbors it was real fun,and funny. he kept saying stuff like "ya she's my princess so do you have a baby girl cause i do" stuff like that he was so exited he showed her off all night. we had a romantic dinner after the baby was asleep and talked afterwords. "so hows it going?" i asked "well i just found out i have a daughter, so you tell me" he said with a fake smile "listen i know its hard but it was even harder for me to not tell you, then tell you tonight. i'm so sorry" i said in tears. not because i didn't tell him before i know he understands its just idk. "i know it's just we have a baby. a-and i haven't been there to help you raise her at all i feel so terrible i'm the worse dad ever." he said seriously sorry "w-what?" i asked confused taking his hands. "your the best dad ever. we couldn't raise her at all with out tat paycheck i receive all the time. and your keeping her safe by being in the army. without you they could win and she'd be taking away forever. if anything you helped raise her more then anyone and without i might not of been able to pay the hospital and she could of been dead, trust me when i say this your the best dad." i said looking in his eyes. "thank you, but you've been an even better mother, now lets go to bed." he said smiling.
                          
Dream: "PUSH, PUSH, PUSH. the doctor said i looked to my side to hear Logan say "it's ok honey even though your in pain now your feel better when holding the baby, and you'll be happy you went through this" i smiled and with that i gave it one last push and she came "what do you want to name her?" the doctor asked. my mind went back to the time we met "can we name her Mercy?" i asked Logan in tears "pf coarse he said smiling" the nurse gave a nod then took the baby to wash her off with out me even seeing her first. When she came back he looked in my eyes and said to both the nurse and me "show me Mercy" with that i burst out in tear's and the nurse handed me Mercy. We took her first picture and held her in are arm's "i can't believe that's are baby, i love you" he said kissing me "i love you to Logan" i said handing him Mercy. He took her and smiled, slowly rocking her back and forth "let's go home" he said smiling with me in tears, as the nurse gave us her certificate we smiled said "Thank you" and left. we walking home since we should'nt take her on the horse just yet. once we got home we made dinner i sat down holding Mercy as he handed me a cup of hot tea and slowly said "i love you".
                          
I woke up smiling just to find out it was a dream. i took Mercy and woke Logan up. i know he's want to help me feed her. he got up and i'm pretty sure he had a dream kinda like mine by the way he looked when he woke up. "i love you" he said gazing into my eyes. "i love you to> i said giving Mercy her meal.we took her around the boat as he showed me around. he showed me the weapon room,the dinning room,the emergency room,everything he showed me where his position and what he did. he said for some of it he worked in the emergency room,the dinning room,and now he fight's wasn't to frilled about that one. after that we had are breakfast and talked some more. we played with Mercy he held her,put her down for her nap,gave her lunch,played with her, he even made her some toys out of the broken equipment. it was time to go and i was ready to cry. we took a family photo and now i have to go.
                          
wow what a day! i'm so relived he understood i dont know what i would of done if he didn't. that was so fun i can't wait till he send me a copy of the photo why is my face wet? am i crying probably i've been doing ALLOT of that lately but can you blame me? what a weird dream. i wonder what he dramped about? oh whatever i cant wait till next time i see him. still it seems way to fare away like i cant last. I kinda wish i told him not to go. we could of raised her together, like we'd have the money but whatever. all of a sudden i heard Logan "WAIT, WAIT, STOP! DON'T LEAVE YET!" he screamed chasing after me "Logan! what are you doing?" i asked "Listen i love you! and i love Mercy! and i know the only reason i went in was we needed the money,and that was the only reason you didn't tell me and all! but,but what i'm trying to say is i'm quiting the army!"
                          
Hey guys! sorry i haven't updated but on Saturday i had to babysit! and Sunday i went to kennywood but i have nothing else to do so ya. anyways cliff hanger right. Thanks for reading.......hopefully. Bye!