9| Make things right

                                    

                                          
9| Make things right
                          
Vienne Tamara Co
                          
Logan called her every night. It went on for days. Hindi naman sila magkasama ng umaga dahil wala siyang ganang lumabas. She was hiding in the attic---editing videos and writing her heart out.
                          
Nang maubusan na siya ng ma e-edit, naisipan niyang lumabas. Busy ang lahat dahil bukas na ang engagement party at dito ito gaganapin sa kanilang bahay since it can accomodate a big number of guests. Umiwas nalang siya para hindi makasagabal. She silently crept down to her room and once again shunned everyone out.
                          
Binuksan niya ang kanyang stereo and Taylor Swift's All Too Well started playing.
                          
Humiga siya sa kanyang kama at pinakinggan lang ang kanta. Red will always Taylor's best album para sa kanya. Hindi kasi mapapantayan ang emosyong nararamdaman niya tuwing pinapakinggan ang mga kanta sa album na ito. Starlight was her personal favorite.
                          
Ganito nalang ang ginagawa niya tuwing hindi pa tumatawag si Logan. She listens to music and ignores the world.
                          
Hindi na niya alam kung ano ang gagawin niya sa buhay niya. Now that Logan knows, she noticed how he's walking on eggshells around her. Like she's going to break any time. Ayaw niya ng ganon. She knows na tumutulong naman ito. Sa una palang ayaw na talaga niyang naabala, she doesn't want to be a burden kaya nga ayaw niya ring sabihin sa pamilya niya.
                          
Alam niyang unti-unti nang lumalayo ang loob ng kanyang mga kapatid sa kanya. She's been having mood swings these past few days at hindi iyon nakatulong sa sitwasyon.
                          
She sighed and crawled to her night stand kung nasaan ang notebook niya. She opens it and scans her bucket list. Tuloy parin ang lahat.
                          
She's going to finish her list no matter what. It's her last wish. Her last chance.
                          
Naging masaya naman siya when she crossed out some of it with Logan but after that it's still the same. Nothing changed in her. She was waiting for the impact. That one exact moment she'll realize that she wants to keep doing what she does best, gusto niyang ituloy lahat ng nasimulan niya. Sadly, hindi pa niya nararamdaman iyon.
                          
Her vlogs are the mark that she's going to leave in this world. When people see it, they'll know that a girl named Vienne Tamara Co existed.
                          
Sinarado niya ang bucket list at kinuha ang bukas niyang laptop. Pumunta siya sa kanyang youtube channel at pinanuod ang mga dati niyang vlogs.
                          
She had been to so many places. She explored the world alone trying to find the feeling, the reason. Bumalik siya ng Pilipinas nang bigo. Masaya namang mag travel mag isa, nag e-enjoy naman siya but there's this certain thing that she's looking for... the thing that can ease away all the pain.
                          
She typed her blog on the search engine at agad naman itong nag appear. It hasn't been updated for weeks now. Mas naka tuon siya sa kanyang youtube channel at IG. Sinarado rin agad niya ito dahil wala siyang maisulat na note or update.
                          
Logan said she needs help. Alam niyang kailangan rin niya ng tulong medical. If she tells her parents then ipapakausap muli siya sa kanyang councilor noong elementary pa siya. The councilor didn't help. The councilor made her feel worse for making her realize that change is constant and it is the only permanent thing in our world. She hated it. Ang gusto lang naman ay bumalik sa dati ang lahat. Tumigil na ang appointments niya when she convinced her parents that she doesn't need a councilor.
                          
Hindi na niya naisipang bumalik pa dito when she started feeling depressed.
                          
She glanced at her notebook. If the bucket list doesn't push through, she has to at least make things right before she leaves. She owes that to her family.