Chapter 22

                                    

                                          
Niall pov
                          
*3 weeks later* 
                          
Exams are over and next semester starts in three days. Most nights I spent with Kenzie. The days she found out that her mother had died I stayed with her, I didn't want her to be alone or possibly cut or do anything.
                          
"I should go" I said to Kenzie giving her a kiss on the top of the head. We were watching greys anatomy on her laptop in her room. It seemed to be one of the only things that kept her distracted. She also used kissing me as a way to keep her mind off the fact that her mother died. Whenever someone on greys anatomy would die she would often turn to me and start to make out with me. Hey, not like I'm complaining. 
                          
She turned over from her spot snuggled next to me so that she was now pretty much laying on top of me. "No. Please don't go. Please don't leave me. Don't leave me. Please stay here with me. Don't leave me. Don't leave me. So many people have left me I can't handle you leaving me too. Please. Please don't leave me."  She said tears forming in her eyes and a few falling as she spoke.
                          
I wrapped my arms around her and held her close to my chest. "Kenzie I'd never leave you. Okay, I'd never leave you I promise. I-I- I won't leave okay. I'll stay here with you. I promise I'm never going to leave you, you don't have to worry about me leaving you okay." The words I wanted to say we're "I love you" but I still seem to struggle with actually saying these 3 words to her. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I love her but every time I try I can't seem to get the words out. 
                          
"Promise you'll never leave me" she said looking into my eyes. "I promise" I replied with a soft smile. "Pinky swear" I then said sticking out my pinky. She lifted her hand and wrapped her pinky around mine. "You're such a weirdo" she laughed.
                          
She rolled back over and wrapped her arms around my waist and put her head on my chest. "Sorry" she said. I looked down at her confused "why?" "Because everyday I get tears on your clothes." She replied. I laughed at her. "What?" She asked.  "You're sorry because you got tears on my clothes, Kenzie I could care less about that. All I care about is you and being here for you. I-" And yes again those three words still failed to leave my mouth. "Thank you Niall, for everything. I can't thank you enough"  "you don't need to thank me, I'd do anything for you."
                          
"I have the best boyfriend". "Yeah my girlfriend is okay" she say up and looked at me and hit my chest. "Excuse me?" "Well who would want a girlfriend that hits them?" I asked with a small laugh. "Oh I'm sorry baby" she said as she leaned in and kissed where she had just hit me. "Better?" She asked. "I need another one here to make it even better" I said pointing to my lips. "My pleasure" she said as she leaned in and kissed me.
                          
She tucked herself into my side and continued to watch Greys Anatomy. I looked down at her and a small smile grew on my face. Boy do I love her. I just wish she knew. 
                          
"Oh shit" she gasped snapping me out of my thoughts of her. "What?" I asked. "We're you not paying attention? It was George!" she explained. "What was George?" I asked still confused about who she was talking about. "The guy that got hit by the bus. It's George!" She explained. 
                          
After that episode and the next and George dying and of course a make out between Kenzie and I since she didn't want to think about death there was a knock on Kenzie's door. "Who is it?" She asked. "Nana" her nana said. "Oh okay yeah?" Kenzie asked. 
                          
Her nana walked in with a box of pizza. "I you guys some pizza. Your grandpa and I are going out tonight and won't be back until tomorrow." Her nana said as she walked over to us. She stretched out her arm to hand Kenzie the pizza box but she just stared at it then up at her nana. I decided that I'd take the box from her and I then set it on the bed beside me. "Do you not want to live with me? Do you not want me here?" Kenzie asked her nana. "No no Kenzie of course not." Her nana was quick to reply. "Are you sure because I can leave. I'll go and you guys can go back to normal. You guys haven't been home one night since moms funeral. You're never here. It's obviously because of me. You just let us stay here because if mom but now she's dead and you don't want me here. I get it, I'll move out. I'll get an apartment or something" "No Kenzie we d-" she began to say before Kenzie cut her off. "No I'll move out its fine" "and with what money are you going to use to buy an apparent and everything that needs to go with it?" "Well all of moms money was inherited to me so I can use that to get me started and I'll get a job." "And what about after high school what are you going to do about university? How are you planning on paying for that?" "Mom has a savings, she has been saving it up ever since she knew that she was pregnant with me for university. You don't need to worry I'll be out of your guys space as soon as I find an apartment" "we'll talk about this later" her nana said as she walked out of the door. 
                          
I was shocked at what Kenzie said. She's not actually going to move out is she? I doubt it. She's just saying that. She's just upset. "I'm gonna go get a drink you want one?" I asked Kenzie. She nodded her head in response and I told her that I'd be right back. 
                          
I hurried downstairs to try to talk to her nana before they left. "Mrs Johnson" I said once I reached the bottom of the steps. She turned around "Niall" "don't listen to Kenzie. I don't think she meant it. It's just been rough on her since her mom died and I know that it's been hard on her too. But I think that she's just mad at whoever hit her mom and how her moms dead and I- I think that she may just be taking her anger out on you." I explained. She took a few steps closer to me and the wrapped her arms around me and I did the same to her. "Thank you Niall. You'll be spending the night with her again yeah?" "Yeah" "alright well enjoy your night and make sure Kenzie's alright." "Of course. Have a good night" I said turning around to walk towards the kitchen. 
                          
"Oh and Niall" she called out after I began walking towards the kitchen. I spun around on my heel "yeah?" "Thank you, Kenzie would have been taking it a lot worse if it wasn't for you. You make her really happy so thank you" "of course, I'd do anything to make her happy I hate seeing her upset" I replied. I wanted to add 'because I love her so much' but I'd rather Kenzie hear it first than her nana. 
                          
"Have a good night Niall" she said. I smiled "you too" I replied before they walked out of the house.
                          
I returned back up to Kenzie's room  with two cups of juice. "Took you a while to get the drinks did you have to go to the store to get it?" Kenzie joked. "Ha ha" I replied handing her one of the cups of juice. I sat back down beside her and put my cup on the bedside table beside me. "How about some pizza?" She asked opening the box. "Sounds good" I replied. She leaned forward and picked up a piece of pizza and then handed it to me. "Thank you" I smiled. 
                          
Grey's Anatomy, pizza and kisses/ cuddling seemed to be the rest of mine and Kenzie's night. 



                          
I was woken up by Kenzie screaming "Mom! Mom! Mom! No mom!" I looked over and saw her still asleep, tossing and turning and continued screaming. "Kenzie, Kenzie babe wake up" I said shaking her a little. "Niall" she said as she sat up, tears began streaming down her face. She quickly wrapped her arms around me and buried her head into the crook of my neck.
                          
"It's okay baby. It's okay. Shhhh it's okay" I whispered to her. She sniffled as she continued to cry. She listed her head up from resting on my shoulder and she looked me in the eyes. Her beautiful ocean blue eyes were all glossy.
                          
"The dream , it- it was so real. It was like she was right there. She was right there in front of me dying and I-I couldn't do anything. It- it was like I was watching her die." She stuttered out.
                          
I held her tighter to my chest. "Shh it's okay. It's okay baby. I'm here. It's okay" I rubbed small circles on her back. She turned her head and kissed the side of my neck. "You're always here. You're always here for me and I can't thank you enough for that. Thank you" she whispered. "Anything for you"
                          
She sat up and wiped her eyes. "Niall I think I know what I have to do." She said. 

                          
What? What does she mean? 
                          
"What?" I questioned. 
                          
"I- I think that, I think that I should see my father. You know how he called like a month ago, I think I should see him. I mean he's the only parent I have left. I- I should see him." She said wiping some of the tears that were still on her face. 
                          
"Okay." I nodded before pulling her tightly into my chest again. 
                          
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I'm so sorry that it took me so long to update and I'm sorry that this is such a short chapter. I'm gonna try to publish the next few in the next few days.