Part Fifteen

                                    

                                          
I woke up the next day with a pounding headache and a very blurry recollection of the night before. One thing from last night stuck out like a sore thumb. 
                          
The kiss. 
                          
What made it worse was Aston had stayed here, so I'd have to face him. That's if he hadn't left early so avoid any awkward conversations. 
                          
Groaning, I begrudgingly got out of bed and headed into the bathroom. As soon as I looked in the mirror, I cringed. My mascara was smudged, my hair looked like something you'd see in the worlds craziest hair contest. I ended up having a shower to wake myself up more and to sort out my hair and face. 
                          
Once I was done, I wrapped a towel around myself and headed back to my room where I dried off and changed into jogging bottoms, a vest and hoodie with fluffy socks. Today I was just going to chill and recover. 
                          
As I made my way downstairs, I looked in the lounge to see the pillows and blanket Aston used still on the sofa, still looking like someone had slept there. Which probably meant he was still here. My assumption soon became the truth when I heard a noise coming from the kitchen. 
                          
I walked into the kitchen to see Aston sat there topless with a cup if tea infront of him. His body had definitely improved in the last five years. 
                          
"Morning babe." He smiled at me. 
                          
"Morning." I headed straight for the cupboard with the paracetamol, filling up a glass of water and knocking two tablets back. 
                          
"Hanging?" 
                          
"Yep." I replied, why was he acting so normal today?
                          
"What's wrong?" He asked, I could tell by his voice that he was frowning. 
                          
"Nothing, just not feeling good." I lied. 
                          
"I'm not an idiot Serena, what's up?"
                          
"Do you remember anything from last night?" I asked, turning to face him. 
                          
"Nope," he shook his head "I was pretty out of it."  
                          
"Oh." I turned back round and busied myself with making a cup of tea, tears filled my eyes. 
                          
"Did something happen last night?" I could feel him standing behind me.
                          
"Yep."
                          
"Which was?"
                          
"You kissed me and told me you loved me." I whispered. 
                          
"Oh." It was his turn to be speechless, he went and sat back down. 
                          
"Did you mean it?" 
                          
"Well you know I love you as a close friend."
                          
"Aston you fucking kissed me, stared into my eyes and told me you loved me! 'Close friends' don't do that!" I shouted, turning round to face him again. 
                          
"I was drunk, people do crazy shit when they're drunk!" 
                          
"So you have no feelings for me what so ever?"
                          
"No I don't, you're one of my closest friends and spending time together had been great but I've moved on since we first met! I had a child with the woman I loved! I moved on, why can't you?" He didn't know how much his words were crushing my heart. 
                          
"I can't move on because I'm still fucking in love with you!" Tears were falling down my face, his eyes widened after I blurted out my feelings. 
                          
"What?" Aston whispered. 
                          
"I still love you, I've loved you for five years! I fell so hard that even though we didn't talk for five years, I still feel the same! But then you decide to be a dick a break my heart!" I continued to cry while Aston just sat there looking shocked. 
                          
"How was I meant to know how you felt? You haven't told me about your feelings."
                          
"I'm done with this conversation now Aston, can you please go?" Without a word, he got up and grabbed his belongings before slamming out of the house, causing me to drop to the floor in tears. 
                          
*AstonsPOV* 
                          
I don't know why I lied to Serena, I'd just broken her heart by being a complete arse to her! 
                          
I drove home in silence, I needed to talk to my mum about everything. 
                          
"Daddy!" Lily shouted as I walked through the door. 
                          
"Hi baby." I picked her up and cuddled her, walking into the lounge to see mum sat there surrounded by various toys. 
                          
"Morning mum." I sat down beside her, Lily still clung to me like a monkey. 
                          
"Good morning Ast, good night?" 
                          
"Hmm." I mumbled.  
                          
"What happened?"
                          
"Lil, why don't you go play in the play room for a bit, I just need to talk to nanny for a minute." Lily jumped off my lap before running out of the room. 
                          
"Apparently I told Serena I loved her last night." I sighed, leaning my head back on the sofa. 
                          
"What's the problem with that? I thought you did?" 
                          
"I do, so much! But she asked me about it and I said I didn't love her and that I'd moved on and had a child with the woman I loved! I shouted at her, saying I moved on why can't you. She hasn't moved on cos she still loves me."
                          
"Why didn't you tell her you meant it in the first place instead of hurting her?" I could tell my mum was disappointed with me, she knew how strong my feelings were for Serena. 
                          
"I don't know mum, I hate myself for hurting her!"
                          
"I have an idea, considering I'm not going home until tomorrow morning, I'll keep an eye on Lily and you're going to apologise, okay?" I nodded, planning what I'd do and say to make Serena forgive me. 
                          
~*~
                          
*NormalPOV*
                          
I was sat on the laptop, interacting with my fans when I heard the doorbell ring. Prince jumped from his spot beside me and ran to the door. 
                          
"Prince, away." I laughed, putting him back in the lounge and closing the door. When I opened the front door, I was met with Aston holding a large bunch of daffodils. 
                          
"Oh Aston, hi." I said awkwardly, leaning against the door. 
                          
"Listen Serena, I wanted to apologise for this morning. I wasn't exactly honest about how I felt and I hated myself for lying to you! Truth is, I do love you. I haven't stopped loving you for five years, even Olivia knew how much I loved you, she acted like it was okay but I knew it tore her apart that I was in love with someone else. I love you Serena, I have done for the last five years and I don't want to pretend that I don't anymore!" I couldn't help but start crying, I could tell how genuine and sorry he was. 
                          
"Aston I...I don't know what to say."
                          
"You don't need to say anything." He wrapped his free arm around my waist, pulling my body towards his and pushing his lips onto mine. We pulled away shortly after, and Aston handed me the flowers. 
                          
"Thank you Aston, they're gorgeous! And my favourite." I took his hand and led him inside and through to the kitchen.  
                          
"Gorgeous flowers for a gorgeous girl." I searched the cupboards for a vase, all the while Aston stood behind me with his arms wrapped around my waist. I filled the vase up with water and put the daffodils in it. 
                          
"I'll love you until the last one dies." He whispered in my ear, on further examination of the flowers, I spotted one in the middle of the bunch made of plastic. This made me laugh and I turned in his arms, placing a gentle kiss on his lips. It was the cutest thing anyone had ever done for me. 
                          
Aston stayed round mine for a while longer before he had to head home. We just cuddled on the sofa, sneaking the occasional kiss. It was absolutely perfect. 
                          
When Aston left, I started thinking. We'd declared our love for eachother, but where did that leave us?
                          
What were we when it came to the relationship status? 
                          
I guess I'd have to wait until the time was right to find out.