Chapter 21: Loving Yourself Can Be Hard.

                                    

                                          
Part 1-
After will said goodbye to them he turned to go and find Jasper but cursed when he turned around to see a starry and red eyed Demi behind him in a jumper. His heart beat decreased knowing it was only Demi and she smiled a little at how jumpy he was, he walked towards her before softly caressing her cheek while frowning because she'd been crying a lot.
                          
"Tell me why you ignored me? Your family? Your son?" Wilmer asked, she sighed at how selfish she'd been. It wasn't just her who had to go through it but Wilmer who had to put up with it and she hated him for that but also loved him for sticking around. Demi leaned backwards but Wilmer's arm was quickly around her waist to stop her from pulling away then she remembered what he said, 'you have to tell me or I can't help you.' Which made her take a deep breath.
                          
"Do you still love me? Now that you found out I'm even more of a freak that you realised, you know that your coming into something that you didn't sign up for. I'm not perfect Wilmer, I have insecurities which you can pick anything on my body what I'll have a problem with! I'm not your average woman, you could be having any woman right now but your standing here with me. Why?" Wilmer finally knew why she was pushing him and Jasper away, she didn't want to come off as a bad mom to him. She thought he was going to leave her because he could be having any girl at the moment but he still hadn't left her.
                          
"Demi, your are perfect to me! Right now, I'm looking flawless woman that can't accept herself as she is because she thinks she needs to be prettier but you don't Demi! You can't get any prettier than you, any guy would crave for your attention right now and any girl would kill for your looks. I'm glad I'm standing here, I'm glad you choose me because let me tell you something baby... There's no where else I would rather be than here with a beautiful woman and my amazing son, I'm in love with you and nothing is going to get in the way of that. Those girls? What I see is a woman with many flaws on them but when I look at you... You astonish me Demi. This is what I want you to do, get this and right down many of (what you think) flaws on this and I will prove to you that your wrong." Wilmer spoke handing her a piece of paper and pen which made her tilt her head in confusion but took it anyway, Wilmer kissed her cheek softly while leaving her for a moment to get Jasper.
                          
Walking to the play room Jasper was tiredly playing on his phone while in the ball pit which made him chuckle at the little boy trying to stay away. He was glad because he needed to show Demi her true beauty and couldn't do it when the 3 year old was awake, he wanted her to see what he felt and made sure he was going to do that.
                          
"Alright bud, time for sleeping! Do you want some juice to fall asleep with while watching a film in bed? Just make sure you go the toilet in the middle of the night incase you wee! We don't want any smelly sheets now." Jasper giggled but his eyes was half way shut as he nodded to his dad's words. Wilmer carried him towards the kitchen to grab a cup what has a cap on incase it spills then that'll protect if as no doubt he will fall asleep with it in his hand.
                          
"Goodnight daddy, can you tell momma goodnight from me? Then tell her I will see her in the morning if she's feeling any better." Wilmer smiled at how kind and caring the 3 year old was before he softly lay him in the sheets, using the remote at the side of him to turn on Netflix then watch a Disney film which always manages to help him sleep.
                          
"Absolutely, she'll be happy with you. You an amazing boy Jasper, I love you. So does momma." Jasper giggled when Wilmer tickled his sides for a moment, slowly he walked out of the room leaving the boy occupied with the film as he turned his light off but left the lamp beside Jaspers bed on. Making his way back down stairs she seen Demi watching a program as she probably got tired of waiting for him.
                          
"Sorry babe, I had to get Jasper settled but he's nearly dozed off. He says he'll see you in the morning." Demi smiled at the thought of her son and knew she shouldn't of pushed him away from her as it hurt him but he was to young to understand. Wilmer took the notes from her only to notice they was in bullet points which made him quickly read through them.
                          
Big thighs.                  Curves.
Scars.                           Hair.
Big legs.                      Stomach.
Breasts.                      Empty.
Skin.                            Smile.
                          
Demi nervously bit her lip as Wilmer looked through it, not believing any of what she written which made him shake his head subconsciously at the ridiculous list. He finally looked back up to her, leaving the note pad behind he took her hand and led her up the stairs which made her self conscious take over making her tug away once the reached the room but he turned to towards her, love and admiration held inside his eyes.
                          
"Let me make love to you Demi, let me show you then none of them flaws are true. I'll go slow and we don't have to go all the way to you don't want to but I assure you, I will help!" Demi hesitantly nodded as she stared into his warm, brown, chocolate eyes which held love and care on them. She trust him which made her give in.
                          
He gently lay her down against the bed but lay against her, chest to chest which made get breathing hitch at how close they were. His minty breath against her face as her breathing increase from the touch of his body, her body tingled sad she subconsciously smiled towards him but before they could talk Wilmer's lips was on hers in a gentle and passionate kiss which she didn't hesitate to respond to. She was already craving his touch but her insecurities still lingered in her mind throughout it, she suddenly felt Wilmer's hand go towards her jumper which caused her to pull back.
                          
"Demi, I'm not judging you. I never would, please... Let me love you." Wilmer spoke, sincerity in his voice as his lips proceeded down towards her neck. She tilted her head back in pleasure when she felt Wilmer's lips graze across her pulse then she couldn't help but let a soft moan escape from her mouth which gave him more confidence making him sick hard against her pulse. Her breathing rate increased as her hand went towards his hair and before she realised it, she was laying in her panties and bra before him.
                          
"Love me like no man could, Wilmer." She whispered, allowing him to take control as she wanted to feel comfortable around him and she trusted him on doing so which made him smile before he softly run his hand down her body before murmuring towards her ear,
                          
"I love you..."