diciotto

                                    

                                          
3 MONTHS LATER



 "Shhhh Calum c'mon sweetie stop crying" I swayed with my little boy in  my arms. Tears ran down my face. "C'mon Calum sshhhh" I rubbed his  little face. His sandy blonde hair has because longer and is slightly  wavy. His big blue-green eyes stared up at me, his little pudgy face red  from all the screaming and crying. He is so tiny.

 About half an hour later he calmed down, I placed him back into his cot.  I stroked his wee face "nighty night my boy" I walked back down to the  living room and sat on the sofa. Crying.

 Let's catch up shall we....


 -a month after Amelias funeral..-


 'Todays headline story..POP STAR HARRY STYLES ON DRUGS OVER MOURN OF HIS  DAUGHTER AMELIA STYLES. It seems Styles has went into self destruction,  his band members can't tame the bad boy. Also him and his wife Louise have rumoured a split. So is this the end of THE Harry Styles we know?  You tell us.'



 -2 months after Amelias funeral-


 'Top headline..TODAY POP STAR HARRY STYLES EX-WIFEY LOUISE STYLES WAS  PHOTOGRAPHED PUSHING HER SON (Calum) WITH WHAT LOOKS TO BE SELF HARM  CUTS?  Wednesday after noon, mother of Harry Styles' son was found  pushing his pram around local park area, photos of her cardigan riding  up have shown lots of vertical cutting..is this family falling apart?  YOU tell us at...'


 -a week after this article-

 "Harry Styles self harming?"

 "Harry Styles alcohol problem?"

 "HARRY STYLES FOUND BUYING DRUGS PHOTOS HERE!"


 -the 3rd month after Amelia-



 "Crazy boyband member Harry Styles can't be tamed, is he just being  Harry? Band members Louis Tomlinson and Niall Horan were pictured  dragging the youngest member of the band away from a club with Liam  Payne following behind with a bloody nose..is this whole thing ruining  One Direction as we know it?"



 2 days ago..


 "FORMER WIFE OF HARRY STYLES USING ZAYN MALIK?!

 Louise 'Styles' was caught the other day outside the supermarket pushing  son Calum with new be boy Zayn Malik? Well we all know about Zerrie but  could that be over to. Louise may have been caught giving Mr Malik a  kiss!

 So what do you think?  

 Tell us!.."


 NOW


 I just don't know what to do anymore, the press, pressure, the boys, cutting, Calum...

 I was too caught up in my own thoughts, when my phone rang..


 "Hello?"

 "Hello, is this Ms Louise Styles?"

 I took a deep breath "yes it is who may this be?"

 "Its your fathers..home.. Louise we are very sorry to inform you that  your father died last night in his sleep, apparently he must have  panicked..we are very very sorry."

 My dad?

 The only parent I had is gone..

 Just like that..

 "Okay-" I sucked my breath back "I'll be around later on to talk"

 With that I hung up.
 _

 "Hello Ms Styles" ouch.

 "Hi Doctor Greer" I shook the tall mans hand, "sooo" I swaying with Calum in my arms.

 "Have a seat, so as you know your mother didn't want to be informed so  it is all on you." He looked up from his clip board with a sad smile.

 "I know Doctor" I looked at Calum..wait..he has my mothers number? "Wait did you say you have my mothers number?"

 He nodded "yes, why do you ask?" 

 My mother..

 I could get her back..

 "Could I get it?"




 2 Days later.


 "LOUISE HOW FUCKING COULD YOU?!" Zayn barged through my front door.

 "Zayn I had to find he-" he cut me off 

 "BUT SHE FUCKING LEFT YOU HOW COULD YOU?! YOURE ALREADY HURT ENOUGH AS IT BLOODY IS!" His face red with fury.

 "Zayn please be quiet Calu-"

 "I DONT CARE  SH-" I cut him off with a slap.

 Oh 


 My


 God

 Woah smart one.

 "What did you just do?" Zayn gritted through his teeth, walking towards me I took steps back. 

 Why? 

 "Zayn I'm sorry I didn't mean to I..I just.." Tears started to leave my eyes.


 "You know what?" He laughed "now I know why Harry left"

 Wait

 What?

 "Zayn pleas-" he covered my mouth.

 "Just be quiet, look Lou I just don't want to see you hurt, you have  Calum and if you break he will get taken away." He looked at me with sad  eyes. "Lou I called social services i-" before he could finish I  slapped him...

 Again..

 "ZAYN HOW COULD YOU?! DO YOU WANT ME TO LOSE A SECOND CHI-"

 "THIRD ACTUALLY" he clasped his hand over his mouth. 

 "What's do you mean THIRD?!" I pushed his chest. "Huh? Answer me!!" I cried.

 "When you got shot by Ashton..you were pregnant Lou I'm sorry.." He played with his hands. 

 "Get out." He looked at me.

 "Wha-"

 "I SAID GET FUCKING OUT!!" I pushed him out the door. "ZAYN I THOUGHT  YOU FUCKING CARED HOW FUCKING COULD YOU IM SICK OF ALL THESE GAMES WHY  CANT EVERYONE JUST TELL ME THE DAMN TRUTH?!" I slammed the door and  dropped to my knees. I could hear the faint crying of Calum from his  bedroom.

 I slowly walked up to the door.

 My fingers running over the blue name painted on the door..

 Harry did that..

 I pushed the door open, "hey cal" I coo'ed at my little boy, I picked  him up and swayed with him. "Its just you and me now baby boy".



 So yeah 3 days later I found out my mother thinks her daughter is a whore, and doesn't want to see me or her grandson. 

 I was sitting in my bed with Calum playing with him, sweet giggles left  his mouth, I blew raspberries on his little pudgy tummy, he grabbed  fistfuls of my hair lightly pulling and looking in fascination as it  tangled around his tiny little fingers.  

 "Who's a good boy?" I let a playful gasp out and poked his tummy "you  are!" Which caused his to kick about and wave his arms around, laugh and  squeal.

 Adorable.

 I heard banging at my door. I perched Cal slightly on my hip and walked  to the front door to open it up to find a lady in a grey work suit.

 "Mrs Styles we have had a file on you for a number of days and a few  people were passing by the other day and well there is no easy way to  say it but..Mrs Styles I'm here to take away your son."


                          
You hate me,
                          
I hate me,
                          
Everyone hates me
                          
-L.x