••Can we talk?••

                                    

                                          
#NotAnImagine 
                          
So this is like a beliebers talk.I hope it's fine for me to share what I feel with you here,and we can talk ,you can give me your opinions of what you think on what I'm gonna share with you.
                          
I actually feel quite emotional atm, thinking how far Justin has come,and things that happened to him years ago.the fact that he was being suicidal,killed me inside.
                          
I'm just gonna ask you here,have you ever ask yourself, like "What am I doing here? Why am I still here?" After a few years being a belieber, have you ever came to that level,you feel like you wanted to stop being a belieber? Because I've ever felt that.
                          
I actually thought,I know i am not a belieber,because it's hard to be a belieber,I said that because thought of me wanting to leave Justin,was there.a belieber would never want to leave Justin. Then I told my belieber friend about this,she was like "Thats what made you a belieber,you said that to yourself,but you are still here,you didn't go anywhere" I was like, she was right, but I still feel like, I'm questioning myself, am I even a belieber? 
                          
I have my reasons why I wanted to leave him,sometimes I just couldn't stand him with the news he took drugs, him with models,the jelena dramas,that was like in 2013. I left them behind in 2013.I knew he could change to be better,and he did,look at him this year, I'm beyond proud.
                          
My parents are not happy with me being a belieber,they know Justin is a good person,but it's just hard to explain why I am being forced to leave him. Having some of my friends, who dislikes him,and keep asking you question like "are you still a belieber?" every years.and then they would be like "oh wow ,you're so loyal"
Even though sometimes i tried to tell them,how much Justin means to me,they just can't stop giving me that annoying look they have on their faces. And now,i'm just gonna tell them like "i respect what you like,your interest is,and now you gotta do the same to me".
                          
And I sometimes give up a lot, when I thought,it's gonna be so hard for me to meet him,like whenever he comes here for a tour or any shows,it would be hard for me to go and meet him,because the place where I live is way too far from the big city,that he used to come.it's not like i give up too much,because I believe that I will met him,no matter how many times i give up but I actually keep believing.the thought about this makes me sad sometimes .
                          
So? That is what it is.I wrote them all here. Wow,it feels like a huge weight on my shoulder (on my brain to be exact) has been lifted! tell me your opinions on this,have u ever felt like what I felt,or any advice? You can write them here :) I feel like i need to delete this chapter soon,i felt uncomfortable actually while writing this.thank you for spending your time reading this. I love you all.❤