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Liams POV
I pull her into my arms and hug her. Its all i can do. I cant tell her we are doing the right thing or its going to be easy because deep down inside i know we are not and i know its not going to be easy on either of us. 
                          
"Im sorry" i tell her as i hold her and she sobs. 
"Its not your fault i should have had more sense. I pride myself on being wise - im not acting it lately im acting dangerously" she says and i can hear the disappointment in her tone. 
"We are not doing anything wrong. You are wise. You just let your heart rule your head for once that makes you human" i tell her stroking her hair. 
"Im a politician im not allowed to have a heart" she says as she wipes her tears and looks at me sadly.
"Well you do have one and this thing weve gotten into is proof of that" i say kissing her forehead.  
                          
I take her and sit her down on the bed handing her a beer from the mini bar and getting one for myself. 
                          
"We cant see eachother anymore Liam we need to stop this now. This is just the start of it and its already proving impossible - we need to end it now before we get caught" she says as she swigs her beer and bows her head.
                          
I look at her and i know what shes saying might be the right thing to do but it hurts. It hurts a lot. Ive really fallen for her. 
                          
I turn to look at her but i cant see her face because she wont look up. I know shes crying again so i take her into my arms and cradle her. 
                          
"Do you want it to be over?" I ask cautiously.
"No of course not. I adore you. I love being with you" she says through her tears. 
                          
"Then keep seeing me. We can be more careful" i beg 
                          
"Its not fair on you though. Youre gorgeous and loving and sweet and you deserve someone who can give you what you need" she says sadly 
                          
"i want you" i tell her. "Youre different and you do give me what i need"
                          
"No liam im the most unsuitable person you could have ever picked" she laughs ironically as she dries her eyes with her hands
                          
"Right back at you. Youve done the same" i say and she sighs
                          
"Does it feel wrong to you?" I ask her as i press my lips to hers hoping i can remind her just how right this feels when we are together and why we cant just throw it all away.
I lay her back and kiss her more, then kiss her neck, her collar bone and her chest. 
                          
"Does this feel wrong?" I ask her again
                          
"No....it doesnt"  she says l "It feels really fucking good" she admits.
                          
I kiss her lips again and she kisses me back passionately. Grabbing the back of my head. Theres an urgency in these kisses that has never been there before. Something has shifted. Ive gotten through to her and made her remember why we agreed to give this a go in the first place. Chemistry.
                          
Our eyes meet between kisses and theres a gaze that says shes feeling the same way. Her hand reaches up my shirt and strokes the bare skin of my stomach softly. It feels so good for my skin to be touched by her. I stare into her eyes as she touches me then slip my hand inside of her top and touch her skin too. Her hips, her waist, her stomach. She reaches up to kiss me again. Her breathing rapid and uncontrolled. Her hands exploring my body under my tshirt and eventually she starts to pull it off. I hesistate but she nods so i sigh, unsure whats now happening and hoping shes changed her mind and she wont break up with me given moments ago she wanted to. She reads the worry in my eyes. 
"Im staying Liam i cant walk away from this" she reassures me emotionally as she finally manages to remove my tshirt and tosses it to the floor. Her hands feel amazing on my skin as we kiss, the relief that shes not walking away from this situation adding to my passion. I then turn my attention to her top, removing it gently as she lift her arms up and allowing me to and lowering my body onto hers so that our skin is touching. I continue to kiss her whilst her hands stroke my back and mine caress her, skimming lightly over her curves. 
                          
I kiss her neck and chest then slip her bra straps off of her shoulders, kissing the spots where they once sat. Im desperate to take her bra off but i resist and turn her over onto her stomach to massage her shoulders and back back, wanting to make her feel relaxed and wanting her to know this isnt about sex. I kiss down her back but I notice she's covered in goosebumps and her skin is cold. 
"Youre freezing cold do you wanna get into bed?" I suggest and she nods so i pull the covers back for her to get in but she hestitates then sits on the edge of the bed.
"Nothing has to happen" i tell her softly, worried that she thinks im going to take things too far. 
"No its not that! I cant get into bed in skinny jeans.... " she giggles shyly. Too embarrassed to take her jeans off but knowing she needs to. She slowly takes them off and i do the same with mine then we get into bed together for the first time, our underwear clad bodies like magnets towards eachother and our hands roaming underneath the sheets as we get to know eachothers bodies better.
                          
I rest my hand on her bum and look into her eyes as she traces her fingers up and down my body tickling me gently as she does. I can see that shes thinking as she affectionately strokes me so i dont say a word i just look into her perfect green eyes and let her carry on as i gently start to stoke her lower back with the tips of my fingers. 
                          
"It so good being with you liam. How can i live without this? Its like i need to be with you. I need to be in your arms and kissing and i cant keep my hands off you" she says emotionally, breaking the silence. 
"You dont have to, Im going nowhere babe" i whisper to her, pulling her body closer to mine.
"Youre the one who said we had to end it" i remind her
"I freaked out" she admits 
"i know deep down inside i cant walk away even though i probably should and it scares me" she says fearfully
"Then dont. We'll be careful. We will keep it quiet. We'll deal with whatever problems arise. Id rather go through hell and back trying to be with you than be without you and not be able to do this" i tell her truthfully as i caress her body.
She looks into my eyes and swallows hard. Her eyes full of emotion. 
"Looks like we have made our decision then?" 
I nod.
Well i guess we might aswell put a label on this situation now?" she says as she takes hold of my hand tightly. 
I cant believe my luck. Shes gone from wanting to end it to wanting to make it official within twenty minutes.
"Dating?" She asks but i shake my head. 
"Relationship?" i suggest and to my utter happiness she nods. 
"So youre my girlfriend?" I ask excitedly for confirmation and she smiles.
"Yeh if you want me to be?" She questions.
"Course i do ive wanted you to be since we met - youre the one who wouldnt do labels" i remind her.
"We still cant publicly do labels, but privately to our friends and family and eachother at least now we know where we stand" she says and i nod. Im over the moon that shes my girlfriend.
"i dont feel as slutty for being in bed with you half naked now youre my boyfriend" she giggles.
"Yeh speaking of that come here" i say as i pull her on top of me for more kisses and she laughs.
"I'll look after you, you know that right?" I ask her and she looks intensely into my eyes.
"Yeh. I do. I trust you" she says sweetly.