Concerttttttttt

                                    

                                          
Haiiiyyyy
                          
I survived the concert. Waiting before we played was the hardest part. I felt dysphoria pretty bad seeing my friends in their tuxedos and when I'm nervous I ramble and analyze things a lot more so I started mumbling about the history of cummerbunds and getting anxious. Then we did our photo, which was uncomfortable. When we finished setting up we were the first performance. I was nervous, but then the lights came on, and that little thing made the big difference. They were the same bright, blinding stage lights that are comforting when I have dance performances, even though it was a completely different setting. It was weird that sudden bright lights above me made me feel better, but they did and it was a familiar feeling. We played through our pieces. Then a while later I went back up to sing with the choir. It didn't go great for me and I wasn't very loud or in tune as I wished to be, but it was still a big step for me and I'm glad I did it. It felt uncomfortable to wear the girls uniform, but I survived and it went pretty well. 
                          
Love ya,
Carter
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